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Why is it?? That I can go through the whole day feeling fine and dandy but the second I lay down for bed impending doom settles on me?

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I don’t think people realise how hard it is to re-discover the person you were before depression or even try to remember your own personality

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me: I’m doing pretty well, I feel pretty good me ten minutes later: not once in my life have I ever been ok

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woman in a victorian novel: *develops a fever from worrying too much*

me, shivering and sweating with stress-induced anxiety: wtf that’s so unrealistic lol

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that feeling when you get that *italian hand* good doctor

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Man its hard to be holed up. Make your own retreats, guys!

I miss going to the library the most 

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It’s worth it.

Cause one day, you’ll be in your fluffy bunny pjs being super cute and comfy, watching netflix, and eating pretzls.

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Looks at the clock. It’s five.

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At 5:02:

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I’m sorry, professor, I’d go to class but I’m scheduled to cry in *checks watch* about ten minutes.

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when will my motivation return from war

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It's gonna be ok. I'm going to be ok.

things you will experience if you keep doing your best

actually looking forward to things and having enough energy to do everything you want to do 

the fresh feeling after cleaning everything and throwing away things that were piling up since forever, including mentally

realising that you haven’t thought about someone for three days straight when you’ve been sad about them for a long time

making a new friend who genuinely likes talking to you after feeling like you don’t belong anywhere or you’re better off alone

making more time for people that really matter to you and actually love you unconditionally instead of endlessly wondering why some people left you or didn’t reciprocate

not placing your entire sense of worth on someone else because you feel happy and whole by yourself 

an outward change in appearance, almost a kind of glow because you’re radiating warmth and strength from inside

good grades, making huge improvements and achieving whatever goals you have in mind

feeling calmer and not relying on external validation because you see your own worth, trust yourself fully and can accept imperfection, laugh at your own embarrassing moments, encourage yourself when you’re down and quickly forgive your own mistakes 

gaining enough respect for yourself to treat yourself gently and not tolerating anyone who treats you badly

realising that you feel lighter inside and nothing is as much as a chore as it used to be

feeling yourself become less unaffected by small things that used to ruin your day

realising that you can make any changes in your life if you stopped discouraging yourself so much

realising you don’t need many superficial distractions anymore because you actually feel okay

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Lol I do this all the fucking time. Drives my mom insane.

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“skip dinner and become thinner” more like “skip dinner and you have an eating disorder please get help”

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me attempting to meme part 5?