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☀️ Summer solstice ☀️ this is Anna, grandmother of Jesus, representing how we lay down the foundation for what lies ahead. Represents the importance of showing up to who we are, in all ways, sharing your own unique truth. No way of being is too small, don’t compare yourself to others but stand in your own power knowing that you are laying down deep roots for what comes ahead. And when it is in our own truth, in alignment, we are stronger for it. More resilient for it. More equipped to ask for help. Know when we are wrong. Love and forgive YOURSELF first and as well as others. What foundations are you laying? What obstacles are you facing? Do you see the significance of both? #rebeccacampbell #summersolstice #oraclecards #channledguidance https://www.instagram.com/p/CfFaWpnr3Lx/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

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Big lesson this week...being overly accommodating to the point that it doesn't align with what I REALLY want or how I am REALLY feeling, what is the motive and reason behind it? Then starts the battle in my mind..one part of me telling me to stick to my intuition and move on while the other part of me keeps making every excuse and coming up with every path on how or why this needs to work out.

After some meditation, self reflection and talking it out with someone...I realized that when I am being overly accommodating, it is showing me where I am with my self worth, need to please in order to receive validation and (in this situation) the belief system that I am indebted to people. As I went further in, I was shown times in my childhood that accommodating was my role, taking care of others, putting self first was selfish and typically seen as rebellion (bad thing). Then the more I accommodated others needs, the further I went from myself. Self worth was something that wasn't necessarily nurtured. I would look to the external, showing my value by helping others to hopefully feel appreciation, validation or love. Being an empath and sensitive, I had the inner knowing of what was needed. So I would act even if I wasn't asked. The fixer. But all this was doing was giving me a false sense of worth, value because it was based on my external environment. My internal environment was being ignored. My own needs were buried. And when I did address them, there were times were they were given negative attention. Finally, I was shown brief systems I inherited from my ancestors and family, things too shed, things that no longer serve me and are blocking me from my next steps...So HUGE. As I move in the world, grow my business and raise my daughter...accomodating needs to be more balanced. Staying with my boundaries, flexing them when I need but staying firm when the situation requires it. Listening to my intuition more before acting, allowing myself a pause when I need it.

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What a beautiful reminder today for me to stay focused on my desires as opposed to my challenges. Waking up this morning I found myself frustrated at the world, my city, my community and the dysfunction of it all. Though I know everything has purpose. That everything that is happening is meant to be happening. That I must honor where people are at. BUT... I am human! And today was challenging. This card reminded me of all that. The balance, polarity, the light AND the dark. Acknowledging the negativity I was feeling, the fear, the frustration. And then letting it go. For getting back to the desires was what I needed to shift the energy. And then that is the ALCHEMY. That is when the good comes through. When we give it space to come through. Releasing the lower vibrational feelings to allow the higher vibrational feelings in. This is not a spiritual bypassing of feelings and situations. Rather its an acknowledgment of where I was at, an understanding and processing of it, showing myself compassion and grace and then really releasing all that which was not serving me. Until the next challenge and it starts all over again lol.

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So much gratitude, clarity and love this weekend. Spending time with my mentor Tammy de Mirza in taking further steps in getting to know myself EVEN deeper. Words can’t express how much she has helped me grow as a human as I keep seeing and experiencing the unlimited potential we carry. Mind blown once again. Thank you my friend for being here on this planet and doing the work you do. Thank you Janet Uribe and Maria Lopez for organizing the weekend.🙏🙏🙏💜😇 https://www.instagram.com/align_with_malena/p/CY0EJnAt-cE/?utm_medium=tumblr

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As I come out on the other side of an emotional purge the last few days, I am starting to see what it was all about for me. Universe wanting me to do nothing, reflect, fill my well. Instead, I was swimming up stream. Trying to continue on and keep doing "things." Keep up with the "things" and keep commitments. But as it got overwhelming, I cancelled. That's what I needed. But then there was still this guilt and disappointment in myself. Old belief systems of "powering through," "sucking it up," "FOMO," etc need to die. On top of seeing these belief systems that don't serve me anymore, the behavior pattern to continue pushing my self until I have pushed so hard that I just am forced to sit quietly. Sick, tired, spent, emotional. Today I meditated for the first time in quite a while, and it felt so good to fill back up and have the quiet time for me. Being a mother of a two year old while deepening my intuitive practices has its challenges. However, loosing myself over the last few days was such a great learning experience. Allowing the tears, allowing the sadness and anger to run its course. Just allowing and receiving is part of the growth. For healing. I picked a card just after writing this...

Rising above the darkness and remembering the light is always on the other side was potent for me today. To anyone struggling or forgetting this, I hope this card comes to you when you most need it as well.

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Fear, the driving force

My path as of recent has been really about overcoming lots of fear within. The fear that had been holding me back and stopping me from really jumping into my own life. It sounds so cliche as I write it but only in the last year have I realized how the fear I was trying to control, avoid, hide was really showing up in every choice I was making. As much as I thought I was aware and making conscious decisions in my life, fear was really the leading force. As this HUGE epiphany, download, divine guidance, whatever you want to call it made its way from the depths of my inner shadow and came to light, I realized how my fear was at the helm. Lots of my decisions were being made unconsciously. These everyday decisions were keeping me small, hidden away, tethered to ideals and belief systems that I no longer needed. Then the questions came, well why? were did this come from? As I spent this past year digging with the help of my mentor, teachers, family and friends, I saw how I had created these belief systems around fear as a child. There were times I needed to protect myself from my environment, pain I was in, and don’t we all need a little bit of fear here and there to stop us from doing some really stupid things?  However, the fear I kept onto fed my image and view of self, prohibiting me from truly stepping into my power and really opening up to love for myself first and foremost. Coming out from the shadows and owning who I am. Some people who know me may read this and not believe that this is really how I felt, but truth is I made a career out of fitting in, assimilating, maintaining the status quote. And that just became to exhausting. It was my own fear that kept that need to fit in, hide, look for acceptance outside of myself going. But as I started peeling back all the layers, and looking at the fear in its face, everything else I had built around that began to fall away. And so grateful. Yes it was hard, painful, uncomfortable, challenging and lonely. Worth every second of it. The doors that have opened, the love that I feel for myself, the abilities that have come through that I didn’t even think was possible, things I have seen and my new view on life is all so much more balanced and worth all the inner work I have gone through over the last couple of years. I’m still on this path to self discovery, shedding and growing but wanted to share my story going forward to whoever wants to listen and follow along.