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It's downstairs.

Harvey awoke to a thumping and rattling downstairs in the middle of the night. He reached for his glasses resting on the nightstand beside him, nearly knocking over the glass of water they were next to in his startled panic. The clattering continued while he slowly put on his slippers and tied on his robe. He passed by the window. A dark silhouette in contrast to the bright moon in the night sky. The clattering suddenly stopped when he arrived at the staircase. Had he been heard? He slowly descended down the stairs, taking extra care to not make a noise. The clattering started again. He peeked into the kitchen and saw a dark figure. His eyes narrowed as his vision adjusted, but before he made out the figure, two beaming white eyes glared at him. There was a burst of movement, footsteps, and running. At last! He reached the light switch, and light filled the room. Relieved, he stooped down to his ankles, where his cat, Waffles, purred and begged to be pet.

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Grief

When he arrived, he stumbled into the room. A veil of dust shrouded the mementos and memorabilia. Pictures of him when he was younger were stuffed into wooden crates, and a collection of awards lay disorganized in a corner of the attic. Rummaging without any particular direction, he prodded through the junk. When he found something, he sighed. It was heavier than he thought, the burden of still being alive. A photo of his parent's on their wedding day was tucked into a crate. The pain of losing those who love you the most was a tidal wave. He wept alone and inconsolable.

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Regrets

I hadn't really thought about the consequences of ignoring my studies. Days came and went. Because it was so easy to pretend the future was never coming, everyday passed stress-free. Now the stress has caught up to me and I think my life is over. Why didnt I study more?

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Back to bed!

I woke up to the sight of the golden morning light. Because the birds were chirping, I had woken up slightly earlier than usual. The sound frustrated me, so I slammed the window shut. When the rain started outside, I knew it would be a terrible day, so I stayed in bed and hid away. Whenever the day started this way, I slept in, avoiding the problems I never had to face.

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Good day.

A good morning paired with a hot cup of tea brings a feeling of serenity. My hair stands on end, elated at the smell of wet soil and cut grass.

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No Coffee

I'm coffeeless. Waking up this early, one would expect a cup of coffee. Yet, here I am without one. What a shame.

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Prose

I've been running through my life since high school finished, a mad dash across the last decade and a half. I'm waiting for the obstacles to stop coming, but the further I run the more dense they become. My life is a hazy blur as it passes me by, and I've come across the intrinsic truth that it will never get easier. I'm waist deep now in this mess, and I've slowed down just enough to see how fucked I am. At my root, the prime of my unyielding soul, I struggle to believe in hope. I want so desperately to break free and to believe that everything will be okay again. It's become a dreadful drone of setbacks and disappointments. I've let myself down so many times that I've lost count. I barely respect myself. Life is hard, so I keep running. I hope this nightmare ends soon.

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Letter

Dear self,

You're probably bewildered as to why you would write yourself a letter, but you are bound to face such challenges that you cannot comprehend. You are stuck in the mindset that your art will change the world and that you'll become a great artist one day, but you already are one. You need to build more skills to stand on your own in the future. Your skill in art will not carry you for the rest of your life. No matter how hard you want to believe it, you must accept this truth. Focus on studies, make friends with intelligent positive people, and ask questions during class and after. Make a plan, apply for scholarships, and save your money because mom and dad will not help you get into college. Terrible painful days lie ahead, so love yourself and never forget to brush your teeth.