When you realize you’ve made everything worse. I’m really sorry.
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I had a dream.
I was offered to die. A bullet in the chest. I had a choice: yes or no. Quite simply.
My instinct came first: I was afraid to die, I didn't want to. The instinct lasted a split second; in fact, I did want to die. For a long time.
I said yes. I was shot, right in the abdomen. They say you wake up when you dream about such brutal things. That the brain can't imagine death. But mine tried.
I think I felt the bullet go through my body very briefly, but I didn't wake up. And the feeling that followed swallowed everything up: I fell backwards, slowly, filled with an intense feeling of lightness. As the bullet went out of my body and I fell backwards in slow motion, I was floating. "I'm free".
Then I see myself on the ground. I'm not dead, I'm in pain I think. I look at the hole in my flesh, I'm not dead. Disappointment. I want to reach again this intense feeling of lightness, this idea that it's finally the end.
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“Think of someone you want to touch whom you cannot touch, someone forbidden. Think of a room where there is nothing except the two of you: still, you cannot touch them. Think of the heat between two hands about to touch, the language that exists in that silence.”
— Chelsea Hodson, from Tonight I’m Someone Else: Essays; “A Simple Woman”
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“Think of someone you want to touch whom you cannot touch, someone forbidden. Think of a room where there is nothing except the two of you: still, you cannot touch them. Think of the heat between two hands about to touch, the language that exists in that silence.”
— Chelsea Hodson, from Tonight I’m Someone Else: Essays; “A Simple Woman”
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