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Low-cost but visually stunning cosplay costume tutorial by 又又Elf

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beast dazai is considered a tragic character for all the obvious reasons: carried the weight of the memories of his other selves and using that knowledge to save oda from his fate even if it meant dying/killing himself in the end. This sympathetic narrative allows you to ignore the utter selfishness and immaturity of beast dazai and how he runs away from grief and pain, and I mean this in the best way possible.

The real tragedy of beast is that unlike all the other dazais, beast dazai never got the chance to meet and know oda, thence allowing him a new perspective to grow. In The day I picked up Dazai , dazai shows personal growth by the end of the novel, hence why he respects oda a lot. He is treated as a human being who still doesn't know much, and that brings comfort to someone deemed a demon prodigy. In side b of the same novel, beast dazai makes an effort to not know or bond with oda; yes this is because he wanted to ensure his survival by steering him away from the port mafia, but that event is what fundamentally changed dazai- gave him a better understanding of his own humanity.

Despite having all that knowledge of his other selves, of how each universe's timeline will play out, beast dazai didn't seem to grasp that it is grief that allowed the other dazai to grow and be a better person. He didn't understand that in the end, it is the time he (the other dazai) spent with oda that made living worthwhile, not his life. His state of living, the state of perfection in beast dazai's eyes, will still cause him more suffering than the act of losing a good friend.

Because if he had only wanted him to live, then he wouldn't have been so shocked when oda refused to indulge in a friendly conversation, not when he clearly went out of his way to antagonize himself in oda's eyes in tdipud. It's because the realization hit him: he wanted his time with oda to not be cut short.

Having memories of another oda is clearly not enough, he needed his own intimate friendship with his own oda. But with this elaborate plan and his reaction to being rejected, it's clear that beast dazai was trying to avoid pain. He could not accept the grief and pain of loss that he's seen and felt in his other selves, ignoring what came after: growth and satisfaction of ever having oda in their lives at all.

Pain is inherently human and by ignoring and rejecting it, beast dazai rejects his own humanity. Or runs away from it, because it catches up to him regardless. He still ignores it throughout the rest of the story, especially in other characters.

Beast dazai, as we all know, eventually takes his own life. While there is a reason as to why he did it, but it was still part of his plan from the beginning. Meaning, he knew this near fruitless pursuit would still have him unable to handle grief. It's an inherently selfish goal with an inherently selfish way out under the guise of "leaving the rest in atsushi and akutagawa's hands"

(Note: I do not mean in any way that suicide is selfish, but rather the narrative and character of dazai in beast alludes to this. Both concepts can co-exist in a fictional setting)

Despite seemingly helping other characters, beast dazai also trampled on both akutagawa and atsushi's self worth. This made them easier to manipulate for his grand plan, but ignores the damage he's done to them and other characters after his death.

For akutagawa it is the loss of his sister and convincing him of his monstrosity due to Dazai's meddling. For atsushi, someone he conditioned into severe fear and dependency on him, was left alone watching the person he cared so much for fall from the building. And yes, he left him in mori's care afterwards, but dazai should know more than anyone the damage the death of a loved one has, unless it doesn't apply to him.

In the epilogue, mori openly mourns dazai's death along with atsushi. Due to being free of his rigid responsibility as the pm boss, he had the liberty of finally being the caretaker he's always wanted to be but at the cost of the person he considered his son (in comparing dazai to atsushi, who he then calls his son + all the other stances where mori treated dazai like a son etc)

The thing that beast dazai, or dazai in general, tends to not fully understand or accept, is that he is also loved, and his death will cause others pain as well. I am by no means saying he should've thought of others before dying, but it is the lives of others that dazai from the main manga also cherishes after oda's death. Beast dazai made it his entire life goal to essentially protect oda, realize its not the only thing he's wanted from him and gave his raison d'etre a flimsy excuse of meaning in life. It's inherently selfish.

Selfishness is a common theme in bsd, and beast dazai fits right in. Atsushi's selfish desire to save people to give himself a justification to be alive, Sigma's inherently selfish nature of self preservation and identity and so on.

I've probably ranted for much longer than anticipated, but the point is: beast dazai's purpose is a selfish desire to escape pain and loss when it's crucial to the human experience. Dazai in the main manga seems to grasp this much better than beast dazai, it's something the latter is "missing", refusing to grow out of his selfishness and it makes his character more of a cautionary tale.

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This has taken hours of work comparing different, yet similar fonts and the book cover titles.

All completely hand drawn. I present my own version of the locked tomb font.

For your own use:

It’s currently only letters right now.

I will update as I work through numbers and symbols.

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a chance to relax ? it's less likely than you think

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Fukuzawa: And, as always, here's your weekly reminder that therapy and other psychiatric services are covered by the ada healthcare plan.

Dazai:

Dazai, whispering to Kunikida: Why does he always look at me when he says that?

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Secret Santa for @cryptid-juzou !! They had maid!Chuuya among the requested prompts and I immediately jumped at that. I really hope you like it! (Some bonuses that didn't make the cut) Thanks to @bungostraydogs-secret-santa for organizing this!

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The case of the missing candy

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HOLY SHIT THIS TOOK FOREVER HOW DO PEOPLE MAKE COMICS FAST

Anyway, me and some friends were looking through arcane memes, and I do not remember what it was but it made me think of Silco's gang (company? Association? Council?) but filmed like The Office. Unfortunately, I can't animate or voice act for shit, so you're getting this instead.

Click for better quality, yes the style shifts massively and I all but give up on drawing backgrounds almost immediately

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Yo. I just had an idea. Dazai never use his first name if I remember correctly and Chuuya rarely use his surname. What if they would get married and deciated that it would be hilariius to switch them?

At the ADA

Dazai: Guys! I've changed my name. So from today on you should call me... Dazai!

Atsushi: Dazai-san, we already call you Dazai...

Dazai: Oh, but my name isn't Dazai Osamu anymore... I am Nakahara Dazai. We are closer now!

Yosano *mockingly*: What did you do with your first name?

Dazai: Chuuya took it as his surname! I thought it was obvious!

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I think she may control where she deactivate her ability, like if she wants to get out on fifth floor she will get out on the fifth floor, but if there are cramped buildings everywhere she doesn't know where she could deactive her ability to not get under a collapsed building

I just don't think what's said about Anne's room in this chapter is very consistent with what has been previously established? Lucy and Kyouka seem to talk like Anne's Room can only make people exit (or, in case the ability is released, reappear) from the same place the ability was activated to begin with, but it's shown in other occasions that that isn't necessarily the case?

In chapter 43, Lucy activates her ability from under the water - that's how she got wet -, but when she releases the ability, both her an Atsushi are back on the jetty.

And again, in chapter 77: we aren't told where Lucy released her ability, but it's evident it couldn't be the same place where she activated it (free falling), since both her and Atsushi are still alive, and there would have been no way of saving them from there.

(Side note, this chapter Lucy and Kyouka are considering exiting from the door, but doesn't that mean they'd lose their memories of what happened inside it? Or was that a one time thing?)

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Wait did the lab destroy chuuya memories?? I thought he had amnesia and thats why he cant remember correct me if im wrong tho

N's whole plot to regain control over Chuuya has been about taking away Chuuya's individuality. He wanted to "replace his personality with a new one" and that's why he tortured him, physically and emotionally. The logic was that if he made Chuuya suffer enough, he's break him, and Chuuya would give up on himself. The first step after that was having Chuuya release Arahabaki.

Dazai brought up that if Chuuya was human (the original), there would be leftover evidence of his memories being taken away. They didn't have the time to check, because Chuuya ended up having to release Arahabaki to save everyone, and erased whatever evidence there was left of his memories ever existing.

Amnesia is not accurate, but also not not inaccurate. There's an in-world reason for why Chuuya doesn't remember much before being taken out of his tank by Verlaine (and Rimbaud).

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A COMPLICATED GUIDE OF HOW TO READ AND WATCH BUNGO STRAY DOGS (PART 1)

i posted this on tiktok lmao it didn’t go so well at the moment; you can watch it here tiktok video

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Fyolai Duet.

Been listening to birds of death(the one Fyodor perform with his cello) the original piece has a piano duet so I've come to conclusion on drawing Nikolai with piano. :))

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Had a day for fanarts today

I ship Kousano, but there's so little content about them I needed to draw my own

My headcanon is that after Dazai took Kouyou hostage Yosano internally was like:

'BEUATIFUL LADY'

'Beautiful lady IN MY OFFICE'

'IS SHE STAYIN?????'

'OMG SHE'S HOT AND DANGEROUS???!'

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this short inspired me to draw it—