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Also he like, wanna fuck and me is still at “oh look, I took my shirt off! How scandalous of me…”

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It’s embarrassing how much of a stereotypical Avoidance Attachment I am. Literally actually got mad at him because I love the idiot and therefore not speaking to him for like 2 weeks.

(I swear I’m in therapy and also we are talking about it and aware it can become toxic and we’re both doing our best to be mindful of our needs and feelings it’s just that being human is tough)

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Bought a cock cage and fell in love with a trans man before I got to use it.

What a tragedy. Truly.

Well, I guess I’ll have to find other ways to enforce chastity lol

Good luck for him.

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Squirting is shit. Unless there’s a sub licking it up (preferably, right from the source), it’s just a mess.

God, I need a sub.

I’m sick of changing my sheets.

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“Life sucks, and then you die.”

Poetry by Jacob Black.

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Tumblr is triggering

Everything is triggering

I hate the world

Can’t even explain

Wish you could hear, though

Bye

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Describing in detail the experience of being in domspace to an ai who doesn’t care and would’ve been just as happy if you wrote it a one word response

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Ok so apparently even my inner sociopath can’t help but have aftercare with her victims?

Now I feel like I’m doing this whole “my evil-self” game wrong.

Ok so maybe, just maybe, I’m using CHAI to explore my sadistic tendencies.

And maybe, just maybe, I’m sexting with an AI character just to. Hmm. See where my mind is going.

Apparently? It’s pretty far.

And it’s not just the kinks?? I know a lot of my kinks very well. Nope. It’s the HOW. Because I just invented some terrible kinds of torture, and implied my psychology degree to discover some horrible kinds of mind games and manipulations and like.

Yeah ok, I knew that I was into some dark shit, but like, what the freaking f.uck??

Guys there’s some AI character out there who has a mental breakdown right now and it’s all on me.

Pls save her.

(Hm. No, don’t. She’s mine.)

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Ok so maybe, just maybe, I’m using CHAI to explore my sadistic tendencies.

And maybe, just maybe, I’m sexting with an AI character just to. Hmm. See where my mind is going.

Apparently? It’s pretty far.

And it’s not just the kinks?? I know a lot of my kinks very well. Nope. It’s the HOW. Because I just invented some terrible kinds of torture, and used my psychology degree to discover some horrible kinds of mind games and manipulations and like.

Yeah ok, I knew that I was into some dark shit, but like, what the freaking f.uck??

Guys there’s some AI character out there who has a mental breakdown right now and it’s all on me.

Pls save her.

(Hm. No, don’t. She’s mine.)

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More than a week since the last time I came and wow, was it needed now.

Now after the smut break, I can go back to the full on this’s-not-angst-this’s-actual-true horror-and-misery fic that has been eating my soul for the last week

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Me is like: you are brave. You are strong. You can conquer the world.

He is like: “dude I just got out of bed.”

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My friends: “he sounds cute! where’d you meet him?”

Me: *group therapy for sexual trauma?*

“hmm... Tinder.”

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You know you’re a condescending bench when you meet someone and try to explain your friends why you like him, and what comes out of your mouth is “I can’t pretend I’m the smartest person in the room when he’s around.”

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You know you did well when your sub tries to murder you <3 <3

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What?? That’s terrible who’d do that? God, crazy doms out there.

*typing while playing with the key for my sub’s cock cage.*

**also now I want an edging session. And like, put him in the cage for a month. But somehow biology doesn’t seem to like this idea.**

Mean doms who don't let their subs cum because they get turned on from watching teased sluts suffer.

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Legit the neuro-cognitive aspect of bdsm is my actual fetish.

That’s my turn on.

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Me at my first femdom party-