#cptsd problems

[whiteringaway]

I just want to be soft

Why am I so angry, so harsh, so violent, so destroying.

It’s unfair

[sage-hazeline]

how do you reconnect to life after being disconnected for so long

[billybob-99]

I feel so disgusting and uncomfortable in my own skin I don’t wanna be here

[spoonie-girl-next-door]

[mycptsdstory]

Found on twitter

[nothing0fnothing]

being like this and living with someone who doesn't understand is so hard.

[shrimpleastha]

Fantasizing about extremely traumatic scenarios bc it doesn't feel like my trauma is enough

[sufferingtosurvive]

It’s not fair!

[armchair-lethroe]

Idk who needs to hear this but a parent defending or “staying out of” the abusive actions of the other parent is abuse in its own right. Yes I am also referring to emotional or verbal abuse.

[spacefaringamoeba]

I hate that I'm considered "high functioning". I barely qualify for any "level" of disability in my country and I will never get a disability income. Yes. I'm able to go to work. But I will not be able to hold it for more than a few months before getting burned out and having daily meltdowns. No, having 10 minutes extra work break won't help me. Neither will wearing headphones or carrying fidgets. I'm literally not able to work 40h a week without severe negative consequences... How do i fucking exist in this society!

[bruisedpeachbaby]

things people don’t talk about enough with cptsd:

feeling like you’re back in traumatic situations when you get triggered/overreacting to perceived threats

not trusting people easily and pushing people away when triggered

increased risk of ending up in abusive/toxic environments

feeling exhausted for long periods of time

physical symptoms like nausea, migraines, body pain

regularly feeling guilty or embarrassed

feeling “different”, “damaged”, or “dirty”

not trusting your own feelings

relapsing after a major trigger

being uncertain of identity

intrusive thoughts of being harmed

experiencing age regression

compulsive masturbation/hypersexuality

attempts to avoid abandonment

over-communicating while feeling scared of true vulnerability

addictive and adrenaline-seeking personality traits

feeling the need to keep things secret or rebel

[billybob-99]

Being left bc you’re too mentally ill is really something!!😃😃

[spoonie-girl-next-door]

[traumabody]

had to fix it for myself

[lostmf]

[nothing0fnothing]

Family, teachers, friends of my parents, parents of my friends, doctors. ..

I was not secretive about any of what I was going through. I'd been told that if anyone ever hurt me to tell an adult and I did that every single time. I would find an adult I thought could be safe, I'd tell them my experience and I'd wait for it to get better. It never did.