angelic-axel

[angelic-axel]

hi

so the way i (well, the old host) started out gathering information on everybody was with a journal, physical notebook, apps and stuff were a bit too much for everyone at the time. he wrote down a basic question/intro template in the notebook and encouraged others to fill it out when they fronted and it helped him/us a lot at the time

while I don't need that anymore as our communication has grown a bunch it could be a helpful starting point

im really, really, reaallly late as tumblr didnt indicate to me i received this ^^" -- but thank you!! we began doing something similar and we were somehow able to get everyone to let us know more about us and how we work. I did it, but assumed it was just a basic go-to recommendation....but it did in fact help! just had to try different media forms (phys book, notes app, priv discord server, etc etc) to see which was most successful :3 im really happy someone responded to my thing /gen

-- Kif (he/she/they/it) boy net idol!

[angelic-axel]

Holy fucking shit, 90% of our posts are "should we restart our info stuff about our headmates because..." and it spans over god knows how long??? im a complete dumbass, what the fuck 😭 /lh /dramatic

Imma delete some of these fuckers. How do we KEEP encountering the same problems that lead to this dilemma??!? Talking to Host cause this is a sign bro /hj /lh

- Ryan, Co-Host

[angelic-axel]

(System/Plural) - What do i do if our list/profiles of our alters is scrambled. countless partially overwritten profiles, others with no description or anything, wrong names, multiple alters ("individual") who may or may not actually be 2 or 3 different people mistaken as one (or vice versa)

Our more common fronters seems to be in place. but everyone else is a bit confusing. i dont wanna have to start all over though...

I have no clear memory of many of em. and many others that are mixed up in my/our head

Any ideas on how to deal with this? or start sorting things out?

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Update #1: "Wanting to start our system over [clickbait]"

so i forgot to write an update to this right after our decision but i hope doing it now will work. So regarding "starting over", it helped at first as we didnt have the stress of playing "guess who" ( and could make a temporary profile ) however, in the end we ended up relying on old information and our system hasnt changed much.

Though i imagine this would've helped for most people, for us it didnt. Since we werent loyal to our decision I can say for certain whether or not it was worth it. I think what we needed over all was the freedom and 'boulder' off our shoulders of sticking certain traits into boxes of who it must be. We should've remembered its okay to make mistakes and rediscover who we are, and in the end it'll all add up and help us.

This probably wasnt helpful, and no one was interested in this arc, but i wanted to share just in case anyone came across the original post recently

Wishing to start our system info over

I don't know how to go about wording this, but do you ever look at the mess of a system and wish you could've started over? I look at my system and we have names, ages, pronouns, but we dont know their personalities, interests, dislikes, quirks, complete appearances. we know nothing. our system was put together when we were kids so obviously our entire thing and list is messy. There's people that don't exist in our pk and sp, there's people who are compressed into one, but we dont know which. we dont know who is who bc we dont have the internal sense to detect enjoyment or physical appearance (autism™️). I want to revert everything from the get go and try doing it properly instead of being stuck in a cycle of idks. I don't mean this by "oh i'm gonna make alters split or go dormant" i mean i want to start over on pk and sp and in our journals and try again our hand at identifying everyone. maybe this time we'll update as we go instead of waiting weeks to add someone we barely remember. maybe if we started over on our notes things would be better Is this a good idea? How can I go about doing it?

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Recent Experiences, A Sign of Progress

The other day my normally mute headmate, Cade (Any prns), and Seph (he/him) worked together to socialize online. Seph used his ability to put together words to help her put together responses. This was the first time in awhile that i felt and identified two forces in our head working alongside one another.

Though Cade used their new found method to start a bit of trouble in a friendship, the fact he was able to put together words that were a coherent proper sentence was amazing.

At first I was confused as to how this was happening, and after a moment of thinking, an image flashed into our head. Our Cade standing (could've been sitting?) with her back facing the "camera", in a dark room typing on her brightly lit phone. And Seph leaning on her to help her press buttons and (possibly) navigate.

It had been so long since we had a flash of image or a chance to see into what i presume is our headspace. Even if it was a back view, we were still able to see them. I couldn't express how happy i was to look back and learn that. Previously we would've written it off as our imagination, but something in Cade instinctually reassured us that it was in fact what was happening in his mind. Whether or not it was "real", it was significant to us.

it'd been a week or two since this happened, but it makes me hopeful to remember it, especially when that's hard for us to do

[angelic-axel]

Does this sound familiar? (Plural)

we found what i think was a slime introject(oc) but what was weird about it is that i could see them clearly. Maybe its just because they had an appearance but I could see their smiles and waves to me.

Normally my fragments/headmates dont have a set appearance for a long time, they develop it slowly. but even then i cant see them clearly. but i could see Slime clear as day as if i could switch cameras to check in on them. though their visual "background" was white, in contrast to everyone else's being black or a darkened room.But anyway, they could see me but couldnt hear me...or maybe they didnt understand me? I put on a show for them to watch on my irl computer but i could see them watching it in their location.

Eventually I was also able to snuggle with them to bed via using a representative stuffie. which was also something we couldnt do with other headmates. I could close my eyes and feel them laying by me as if they were really there

i cant do it anymore though, and havent seen them since

does this sound like an alter or is this more so maybe just me imagining a character?

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So while we were out doing our appointments, two of my headmates were whining about how they wanted to front when we got home. Of course I agreed. However after all this time since we've been at the house (and I've been wanting to stop fronting) these two jerks are nowhere to be seen

I feel like im taking care of two stubborn cats /hj This is what it reminds me of:

* cat meows at the door *

"aw you want out? Let me open it for you"

* meows at the open door *

"...here, you can go out now"

* meow *

"out. here."

* Places cat outside. it promptly heads back in* * meow *

Funny part is, it was at separate times and the two alters in question were a dogboy and catgirl...sighh

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A

So there's this girl in my system that I can't stop thinking about (platonically) and i keep wanting to get stuff she likes/for her. but we still have low communication in the sys and she hasnt fronted (that i've noticed) since early February, meaning i cant talk to her...

So I bought all this stuff for a girl who'll never front (/exag). We know she likes kawaii and cute things, we know she's atleast a kid at times (1 out of the 2 times i remember her fronting she was an adult. so probably a syskid, age regressor, or age slider. depends. we need to discover ourselves more) ANYWAY

Today I had an eureka! There's a chance she passively influenced us to buy and save things of the aesthetic basically only she likes when we werent aware of our system. But that also raises the question of...was it an accident or a kid's scheme to get toys? /silly

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A System Vent

I've never really realized how little i know about the other fragments/headmates than now when im trying to write down things about them. I know their personalities, but thats about all

like, i just dont have any interests im aware of other than getting to know them. Oliver is the only one thats clear, and that's just cause he's a co-host and been around for awhile. So we have his search histories (youtube) and personal items

i dont remember us ever actually sitting down and writing down the things we liked or enjoyed. Our daily routine 's entertainment is just something to do. It kinda hurts that we've let ourselves get this far like this

Someone (/in-sys) said the next step is to explore hobbies to see if anything sticks, so we'll probably do that. but damn. Thought I'd share in case anyone else related

- Seph, host

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Questioning system looking for advice on identifying headmates

I'm not sure if I'm accidentally making Headmate A into two members on things like simplyplural and pluralkit or if they actually are two diff headmates. what if I'm accidentally not letting Headmate C call themselves Headmate C cause they don't fit what my idea of how they're supposed to be

a.k.a i don't know if i'm fucking shit up cause i cant identify them right and am hoping for tips on how to prevent further mistakes (if I turn out to be wrong)

Is there a way to tell/or prevent a mix up? (Sorry, im unsure how to word this better)