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[anonesque]

Why I hate weak characters.

Whilst this may be controversial, this is my personal opinion.

I am, first and foremost, a millennial child. That means I was raised with both Disney Princess and Cartoon Network.

As a girl, growing up, I was given the princess-y stuff. I grew up watching Snow White, Cinderella, The Little Mermaid, Mulan - you name it. Princesses that were mostly adapted from the Grimm Brother Tales.

I think my mum hoped that it would change my boyish and introverted personality. I use to label myself as a tomboy, but now, I think myself as someone who prefers to more less-girly stuff.

I mean, I still I am a god-damn beautiful queen. I love how I look when I spin in a dress. I look hella cute. So, yeah - I think, rather than labelling myself as a tomboy, I just like less-girly stuff.

When I first saw disney princesses, starting with snow white, as a 6 years old (or so), I questioned her line of thought. Why was the first person she thought would save her was the prince? couldn't she have just run away? The dwarves literally could've given her a free life. They loved that she was there, and yet, she still wanted the prince.

I, personally thought, that she was an incredibly naive and annoying character. Everyone know that you do not eat anything given by a sus character, and yet she ate the damn apple. Was you dumb? You literally could make yourself a soup or whatnot, and you decided to eat an apple, given by some random old lady, dressed in a black cloak.

I cannot, for the life of me, understand her line of thought.

It was from snow white, I started realising that love makes you stupid.

Again, it is my personal opinion.

Then I was then introduced to another Disney, Cinderella.

Literally... she wanted to be bloody noticed by the prince that for some odd reason, he could only find her by her damn shoe.

Seriously Cindy? you wanted to marry a guy, who didn't recognise at first glance, because you bloody dressed up? Did he have prosopagnosia or what? You were not wearing a damn mask, he should bloody hell recognised you immediately, and you wanted him? really?

God you both belong together.

And then... Came bloody Ariel. Ah... Let's not forget the princess from the bloody sea who was willing to sacrifice her voice for legs. Along the way, sacrificed her father. Stupid girl.

I hated her the most. I preferred the Grimm Brother's version. She died. Turned to bubble and poof into the damn oblivion.

She made no sense to me. She should've been more suspicious.

Honestly, despite my hatred to these princess, I guess they were moulded from the conformity of last century, and the boomer generation.

So you know which princess I did accept?

you know it - Hua Mulan.

I love her. She was the epitome of female empowerment. You say that she was not a princess - Yeah, she wasn't. She was a fucking Queen. A bad bitch who saved a country alongside her countrymen. That is what I grew up loving. She was determined.

She sacrificed for her family, because she was a girl, and her father was old. She brought back honour, and honestly, that is the type of princess that should've been portrayed more in the Telly.

Nevertheless.

I have watched so many dramas in my life, and the type of drama I hate most is when the female character is cutesy cutesy type, needing some saving from her knight and shining armour.

I see a lot of these characters, particularly in Chinese dramas.

Seriously, grow a fucking back bone. Make a name for yourself and don't be dependent.

I have also come across real life situations when husbands divorced their wives to go to their affair partner. The wife is struggling to make do.

It makes me think a lot of the world.

This is the 21st century - we have fought for equality. and no, equality has yet to be achieved, and to be honest, it will never. Why? because of limitations that one body and gender can do, and we cannot deny that.

But why should we moan about that when we can strive?

Can't leave your kids behind? make a business from home. or take up remote working (one of the benefits that COVID gave us)

Don't know what to do? ASK.

Why should you be ashamed about asking for help? You're only human.

I am sure that there will be people who disagree with my opinion, and would call me a pessimist. I am - but I am also a realist with contingency plans.

I do not want to be with anyone without my own security.

Financials? Yours is Yours, Mine is Mine. If we live together, we pay equally together. We plan to have a child, open another bank account for your child with both of you with access.

I grew up seeing things that I shouldn't have to as a child. It scarred me enough. I am selfish because of it. My end goal to be happy, by my own means.

The trust between you and your husband should be there, but understand that with everything, should come with a contract. Black and white. Written with proof.

I am a realist because I grew up striving for my happiness. My happiness is to achieve things by my own means.

[anonesque]

Reviving with AI

I'm not gonna lie. I'm indifferent with this motion.

When AI Apps have made it available to relive the dead with a photograph, it's morbid in some ways. Now whilst some is okay with that, I find it heart wrenching.

Yes, we've all lose people in life. I have lost quite a few of my close loved ones since I lived. I would always wish that I can see them again. Laugh, talk and spend time with them, who doesn't.

But that's the way of life, you know. It was their time, concreted in their life line.

It's never easy to let them go, but that's what time is for. You reminisce the times together, the good and the bad. Thankful for the years that you were able to be by their side. Thinking about them is alright. Missing them is okay.

But when you relive their memory by imitation, through AI. It leaves a certain type of pain - lingering pain. You miss them, yes.

But when you rely on reliving the memory - is it a way to accept their passing? does it fully comfort you? or do you wish to see them one more time? two more time? when does it end?

My cousins and I, we actually tried out the AI app on our late grandfather's photo. and whilst we cried, we decided it was not best to show it to our aunts and uncles - especially my father, who had the hardest choice in his life, to have to send his daughter's last chance for her future or to bury his father.

Honestly, I think he had it the hardest, he never fully had his closure. Before he was my father, my mother's husband, he was my grandparents eldest son and child - a filial one at that.

We did think that showing him the animated photograph of my late grandfather moving and smiling, would at least heal him. It probably won't.

It wouldn't bring him back no matter what, and it wasn't the closure he needed. Time was what he needed to heal with. He probably is the most traumatised amongst his siblings, for not being able to be there for his burial.

So my cousins and I, we kept the photo and eventually deleted it. Because I am the type to overthink things like this, and negative emotions tend to drag me deep into a dark hole - it's probably best to keep them in your memories rather than to reanimate them as a living photograph.

This is just my personal opinion.

Love,

X

[anonesque]

Let's Be Honest

I grew up being a bit... specific(?) I'm choosy.

It's nothing harmful, actually. Just preferences

Now, everybody has preferences, don't lie. We're humans, not saints - we're not that humble, babe.

I just need to get this out of my system, and really, it's not targeting at anyone at all - it's just my preferences.

I like beautiful things, men in specific. On a rare occasion, sometime, rare but sometimes, there would be times I like handsome men.

I've always like men with feminine features, it's just so... I don't know. I think it's because I had a childhood crush towards an anime, it molded into my preference, escalating to just pretty lads.

I think that's why my guy friends were okay with me, and they know that there would never be any feelings between us (I knew they were gonna be my lads for a lifetime, so boundaries were set) - everyone in school knew that none were my type, so that would mean everyone were just my friends.

I think the definition of Pretty lads differs in regions, like for me, my preference are usually East Asian Men - but there are some western and European men that I have come across in my life that I considered beautiful, and my loud intrusive thoughts would enable me to be bold and tell them that they're beautiful. They usually blush - cute hehe

anyways, this is not really a huge post, but I needed to get it out my system.

Everyone is beautiful, to the eye of the beholder.

Love,

Strawberry Lemonade