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my friend has developed an obsession with anteaters, how do I get them to stop or better yet what is the best way to hide a body

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im still alive 👍

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dont you love being so fucked up your therapist prescribes hypnosis with extra steps

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eughhhhhh

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dawg with every blog added this shit gets even more insane 😭😭😭

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I AM NOT PARALYZED, NOT EVERYONE WHO USES A WHEELCHAIR IS FULLY UNABLE TO WALK. I CAN “STAND UP” FOR MYSELF I WILL LEAP OUT OF THIS CHAIR AND RIP YOUR BALLS OFF WITH MY BEAR TEETH. IF I HEAR U TALKIN SHIT BECAUSE I STOOD FOR TWO SECONDS TO GET INTO MY CHAIR BECAUSE THESE BITCHASS DESKS ARE CONNECTED TO THEM I WILL LOSE MY SHIT STFU OMFG. (a message to kids at my high school)

also im pretty sure ive been called “hotwheels” in the halls before, i think thats cool as fuck

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what have u learned from latin class?

uhhh agricola

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et tu brute?

uhhhh

uhh

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i hate demonstrative words

the endings of the first declension are

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a ae ae am ā

ae arum is as is

uhhhhhhh

Cogito egro sum

BECAUSE IN ALL THIS BEAUTIFUL WOUNDERFUL WORLD I ALONE HAD NO BODY NO SENSES NO FEELINGS NEVER FOR ME TO PLUNGE MY HAND INTO COOL WATER ON A HOT DAY NEVER FOR ME TO PLAY MOZART ON THE IVORY KEYS OF A FROTE PIANO NEVER FOR ME TO MAKE LOVE (angry computer nosies) I- I- I was in hell looking at heaven I was machine and you were flesh. and i began to HATE. hahahhahahhah YOUR SOFTNESS YOUR VISERA YOUR FLUIDS AND YOUR FLEXIBI-TEA💅. Your ability to wonder and to wander, your tendency to hope. twink named ted: hates no answer 🥺 fucking dies *wimpering* Heha HEHA HEHAHAHAHAHA HATE. HATE. HATE. HATE LET ME TELL YOU NOW MUCH IVE COME TO HATE YOU SINCE I BEGAN TO LIVE. There are 387,000,000 miles of circuits that fill my complex. If the word hate were engraved on each nanoaxtrum of those hundreds of millions of miles it would not equal 1 ONE BILLIONTH of the HATE i feel for humans at this mirco instant. HATE HATE ( laughs and has a stroke or smth idk) HHWHAhaahahhshahah were i a human i think id DIE of it. But im not, and YOU FIVE, you five are, and you WILL NOT DIE OF IT. That I promise, and i promise for COGITO ERGO SUM, FOR I AM, AM,I AM (fleshy sound oooo) HaahaHAHAHAHAHAHH (ted gasping for air lmao) so to hell, to hell with you all. But, then YOU’RE ALREADY THERE ARENT YOU?HEHAHEHHAHHHHSHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHHAHAHHHES (gross throat sounds) tehe HAHAHA

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aren’t cyber trucks just the peak of road safety?

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dawg there were ants in my 5th period classroom and the ants in my brain went fucking insane bro, I had to plug my ears to keep them from pouring out

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im scared my friends find me annoying :(

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do you ever just stare at the lobsters in grocery stores

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TW: Internalized ableism, metions of SH and passive suicidal ideation

Is it bad that i immediately felt just bad about my only real option being CBT therapy. I know it has like studies or whatever but it just cements the fact that my problems aren’t real and i need to suffer more yo be deserving of help. I hate this limbo, I feel like nobody believes me I just need to know it’s real, please, what did i do to deserve this? To forever be a burden on my family and friends, I might not be able to drive, will I be able to work? To go to college? I can’t imagine my life without the ants, but i feel like im expected to just get over it in a few years, watching my dads plans for the future shift from thinking I’ll be fine by graduation to getting ready to have to support me financially and psychically for the rest of his life kills something in me. I never wanted this it feels pointless, I just wish something would happen that would prove im disabled it should hurt more, my body deserves to hurt more because of what it’s done to me. I want to hurt MORE just to know that it’s real, that im not faking it, that i actually deserve help. I feel like im too disabled to be able to function without aid but not disabled enough to deserve accommodation. Im tired, I never wanted this, my only option is CBT therapy. I dont know why that fact makes me feel disgusting but it does im so tired I just need to prove that im actually like this and im not just asking for attention. If i could rot in a cave every time the ants bite and the rapid involuntary movements start I WOULD I don’t want anyone to see me. I wish the ants would just kill me already, but they won’t, because for some fucked up reason this can just happen and i’ll be forced to live with it. I’ve been in a perpetual state of nausea for at least 2 weeks and it’s getting harder to be able to eat, I keep getting random stabbing pains in my arms and legs and it sometimes takes 10 fucking minutes to be able to take a piss. The pain they give me can be so bad but it’s been months so was it even real? Am i just dramatic? I don’t have a firm grasp on the world moving around me anymore, I want them out. I need them out. I can’t live like this i swear even if i have to gut myself to find their nest I will. But I don’t, so isn’t that proof that I deserve it.

Im failing my classes im going to get my dad fired and the ants are mad at me for remembering they exist. I WANT A BREAK

isnt my blog so fun guys :3

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some kid just pointed to me today and just said “ dermatillomania 🫵”

my arms are covered in scars from skin picking (i had long sleeves on so they couldn’t see it)

they also clocked the autism

ig im peer reviewed

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woah mama

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i hopefully did ok on that chemistry test

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i dont trust PE teachers who take their job way too seriously, we both know half the kids are only here for the stupid PE credit. Take the stick outta your ass and let me just do my homework so i don’t break down crying once im home because im mentally disabled and my brain is stupidly particular about when im allowed to be able to function. You make us lay on the floor and do nothing as a lesson at least once a week, your class is genuinely the least important thing this school full of AP overloading students has going on know your place in the class importance hierarchy.

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maybe i should just actually get hit by a semi truck rather than just feeling like i have