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seeing robotfucker spaces dwindling is... depressing.

I really, really need to learn anatomy and robotic themes so I can create my own robotfucker media and not have to rely on anyone else.

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Oh 100%.

Robot monsters are so fucking hot.

I've considered AUs for my worlds where robot monsters exist, or where I am the robot monster. I also have another world where one of the main mechs is a lot more monstrous in design compared to the others.

My robot drawing skills are kind of ass but if it wasn't I'd absolutely be drawing fucktons of robot monsters. I really need to learn how to draw robots better. Lol.

Have we considered robots that look monstrous yet

Where are the robotmonsterfuckers at guys I need to know

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I was asked to help with manually restarting a laptop that was stuck on a black screen. When I did without a problem, I got a surprised reaction and complimented with a "you're so good with computers!"

Which effectively derailed any thought I had previously because I can't be normal about machines.

Couldn't help but think about all the small details with that laptop. The way you have to press and hold the power button in juuuust the right spot, the way its lights flicker out as it powers down, the way it smoothly boots back up when you tap the power button again.

It was only a few seconds, but man.

Going to need to look into a better solution for that black screen at some point but until then uh, yeah, adding computers to my long list of *sees machine or object* Oh. That's hot.

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mmm... my meds kicked in.

I really just want him to fuck me when I'm like this.

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Gay as fuck for vehicles and mechanical-related shit and it's only getting stronger as the weeks pass.

The other day was a pride event. I've only gone once before but much later in the day when there were less people. There were so. many. people. this year. Loud. Crowded. Got unfriendly looks. Overall not a great experience. What made me laugh was the way I took one look at a motorcycle nearby and felt myself relax.

Yesterday, a friend was showing me different types of vehicles from other areas of racing. Ohhh my fuckin hell, so many of them were GORGEOUS and the way they were shown off was so erotic at points too.

Today, a bicycle maintenance event. The two teaching about bikes brought in their bikes for example and ohhhh, the sleek black frame of the hybrid and the thick charcoal and orange wheels of the mountain bike were hot as fuck.

Something about the maintenance process was so intimate too, the way to clean chains an shit. Emphasized by the story one of the two had where they knew a guy who'd take a shower with his bike to help keep it clean (esp during winter, you dont want it to freeze). Everyone laughed when that story was told though I'm sure I was the only one who laughed because I could see myself doing that too.

On the walk home, saw a tall black and orange motorcycle that looked cool as fuck and a really gorgeous car with a beautiful red and black design. Then saw more motorcycles and just laughed because fuck I'm so gay for it all.

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Doms being restrained is such a turn on. They could absolutely destroy you, overpower you, but they're held back by whatever restraints adorn their form.

You're allowed to do things to them but they can't do anything in return.

Until the binds break, of course.

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I'm typically mlm leaning, gay as fuck. Men are literally everything I want to be so of course I want to fuck them.

But every now and again I come across the hottest chick ever and I just sit there like oh fuck, she's hot. would.

My dysphoria is probably one of the only reasons I don't lean any further into being bi but even that shit steps to the side when she hits all my interests in one go.

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Man I need to practice more, my sexperience is horribly underleveled rn.

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"I hate what you're doing to your body."

That's because you're comfortable as who you are. I'm not. That's why I'm changing. You can hate it all you like but it's necessary for me.

unless you wanna write my obituary, of course.

being dead sounds just as relieving as transitioning.

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my two friends are talking about some card-related deck building and I have no knowledge on any of it. I feel like some fuckin lowkey high, normie college student or something with how little I understand and my lack of conscious thought.

"How would you make this deck fun" add tits.

"only clowns play this deck" damn, can't believe this deck is getting played by clowns. should really get better fwbs.

"I have a monstrosity idea" oh fuck yeah, monsters. monsterfucker

as far as I'm aware I'm not even horny, these are just my default not-awake responses while my meds kick my ass.

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I just got top surgery and my recovery has been going well but a PSA I have for y’all is to not attempt to jerk off until youre a bit recovered. It’s been exactly one week for me. Even though im a horny piece of shit I am going to not jerk off for another week or two.

I tried to do it like twice and I got really sweaty afterwards which made my body more itchy and uncomfortable than it already was. Most likely, you will have drains and a tight post op binder. Jerking off is an exercise and you should obv not do any when first recovering from your surgery. Sex too obv since it involves more exercise than masturbating. I thought I could jerk off cause it would be not as hard on my body as actual sex.

Thank you for coming to my TED talk, if other people want to add on to what im saying then please do so.

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Recently discovered forcemasc. The idea of someone forcing my depressed ass out of transitional limbo sounds like something I really need right now tbh.

Force me to go to the gym. Not going to be a twig anymore after you've got me in the flow of workouts.

Force me to start eating healthier, to ensure our time at the gym isn't wasted. Gotta make sure those muscles grow nice and strong.

Force me to use my deeper voice more often, stop trying to appease others with the "friendlier" voice, we both know it gives me headaches anyway.

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Mm, favorite change would be my voice. It's deep enough to pass (according to others), sounds nice, and feels nice (the deeper vibrations). It's not perfect, it could always be deeper, but it's helpful as fuck. This was one of the main reasons I went on T.

The change that turned me on the most would have to be my tdick. It's significantly easier to get off with as it not only got easier to access but boosted my ability to feel at all (wow I can get off in a reasonably short timeframe vs the ~2hrs pre-t, wild). It also looks and feels hella good when getting hard; watching it rise to double its flaccid size can get me going even more.

Also, my voice when I moan, for the same reasons mentioned already but with more emphasis on the deep vibration feeling. Lol.

All the good boys out there, what is your favorite change on testosterone? What change turned you on the most?

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I would browse so many porn sites and nsft tags for robots if I got dropped into my world, I swear to fucking hell.

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FUCK dude I can't be normal about robots whatsoever. No idea what happened the past few days but I'm losing my goddamn mind over them.

Trying to watch a show about robots? I struggle to finish watching episodes because I'm so fuckin down bad for half the antagonists that I'm hyperaware of the way they move or interact with others.

Trying to browse robot art? Can't even do that without the need to punch the nearest wall because of how fucking horny I am for half them showing up.

My wants feel like needs with the fire of emotion I feel burning in my veins. Any restraints I had previously have begun to rust and break away. Absolutely fucking feral for this shit, fuck.

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Who the fuck gave motorcycles permission to be so fucking HOT. Like fuckin hell dude, I'm out here swooning over bikes showing off their beautiful curves and thickass back wheels like

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Everytime I stumble across an image of a shirtless dude wearing a hat on backwards, I always, always see the visor as cat or creature ears flattened back.

It catches my attention every time.