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as someone who walked away from shifting i 1000% understand where you’re coming from 😭 it’s so frustrating to devote so much energy to something for literal years and get nothing back. i feel like more ppl need to acknowledge that it’s okay to walk away from shifting if it starts to drain u more than help. wether you keep trying to shift or not i hope things work out for you 🫶🏽

you have no idea how much i appreciate this. it’s rlly nice knowing that other people share my frustrations and i’m glad i’m not the only one who’s just sick of not seeing results 💗

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i hate shifting. i’ve wasted the past three years of my life trying and i haven’t accomplished anything. i’m done. i’m finished. i’m not wasting anymore time on this when i could be bettering my cr life. i’ve finally realised that i’ve been in a state of delusion over people and places ive NEVER BEEN TO. i think i’ve actually gone insane, i’ve convinced myself i genuinely know these fictional characters and it’s ruined me. i cry whenever i think of mattheo as if i knew him, as if i’ve known him for years. is that not crazy? why did i consider my delusion normal for so long??? good luck to everyone who still has a love for shifting but im so over it. what a waste of three years.

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i stop feeling the need to shift or just wanting to shift in general whenever there’s a man in my cr life. how sad is that omds

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“The journey itself is just as important as the destination.”

-the ai i’m talking to regarding shifting

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i’ve started feeling the way i used to about my hogwarts dr 💗

i LOVE my dr. genuinely in love with that world. i can’t wait to be angry over a piece of school work i’m stuck on, i can’t wait to piss around in class with my friends and i can’t wait to go to school. i’ve started feeling excited to go to my dr again instead of it just being something i want to do just to prove to myself that i can. i want to LIVE and have friends and go to parties and make homemade swings in the forest. i want to chase my friends up trees and swim in the lakes.

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does anyone else think about how many people have probably permashifted but we just don’t know it? because what if after someone permashifts their “clone” just continues to act as if it hasn’t shifted yet? like we have no way of knowing when someone’s successfully perma shifted unless they come back and tell us, which defeats the whole purpose.

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The government is worrying about aliens while I'm worrying about whether I should shift right now or tonight.

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i’m going on a plane in a week or so and recently i’ve been seeing all these signs not to go on the plane and that there’s gonna be a crash etc

earlier today i was talking to a friend about it. then just now we went to this like witchy type shop and i was paying for this random crystal and the woman who worked there told me to take one of the evil eyes, free of charge and keep it on me at all times.

is this like my guides protecting me? did she just like sense that i needed protection. i’m kinda scared. if you know about this kinda stuff pls lmk

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I am going to see my husband.

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why is everyone shifting to hogwarts again? could never be me… (im going there tonight)

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when you’re doing your method, your are literally on the brink of shifting ♡

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i have a shifting account on tt @_k4ul1tzx any ideas on what i should post? what kinda shifting content do you guys enjoy watching. or are there any tips you want? and if you wanna be moots lmk 🫶🫶

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currently watching harry potter with my sister and i accidentally started talking about harry like i know him (i do). she thinks i’m a crazy person.

literally holding back so hard i just wanna tell her all about hogwarts and the things i’ve done there and what all the characters are actually like.

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they’re not my comfort character like that’s literally my best friend

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what is your favorite desired reality memory and why?

my favourite memory from my tokio hotel dr is definitely when the band performed for a real crowd for the first time EVER back when we were devilish. (devilish is so nostalgic ) it’s just felt so awesome to do something i love with my favourite people. the adrenaline of performing is literally my favourite thing. and there’s just something about being on stage with your band where you just feel so in sync. you feel like your one yk? but ye definitely a favourite memory for me.

thanks for this awesome question @lovebvni 💗💗

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i feel like all the starts have aligned tonight. and even if they haven’t i’m content knowing i have every other night to wait for them to align. it’s inevitable that i shift and that brings me comfort. i have all the time in the world.

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sometimes i need to be in my dr so bad its physically unbearable. anyone else?