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Do you have any advice for a character who has a sort of sacrificial lamb complex? A savior complex but not as in a hero to save the day, but as in they don't believe they deserve to save themselves?

How to Write a Sacrificial Character

Backstory and Motivation

Traumatic Past: Explore the character’s history. Perhaps they’ve experienced abandonment, betrayal, or loss, leading them to internalize the belief that their worth is tied to suffering for others.

Family Expectations: They may come from a family that emphasizes self-sacrifice or has a history of martyrdom, teaching them that their own needs are secondary to others.

Guilt and Responsibility: The character might feel an overwhelming sense of guilt for past failures, believing that they owe it to others to endure hardship or take on burdens.

Internal Conflict

Self-Worth Issues: Illustrate their struggle with self-worth. They might dismiss compliments or feel undeserving of happiness, using phrases like “I don’t deserve this” or “I have to earn my place.”

Desire for Connection: While they may push others away, they also yearn for connection and love, creating an internal tug-of-war between wanting to be saved and believing they are unworthy of it.

Sacrificial Actions

Small Acts of Sacrifice: Show them making small sacrifices for friends or loved ones, like skipping meals or taking on additional work, which reinforces their belief that they should suffer for others’ well-being.

Dramatic Moments: Create pivotal scenes where they are put in a position to sacrifice themselves for someone else—physically or emotionally. This can highlight their motivations and lead to significant character development.

Interactions with Others

Supportive Characters: Introduce characters who try to save or help them, but the sacrificial character resists, believing their problems aren’t worth the effort. This can create tension and deepen their internal struggle.

Small Acts of Kindness: Have moments where others go out of their way to help them, reinforcing that they are worthy of care and support. This can include simple gestures, affirmations, or sacrifices made on their behalf.

Conflict with a Mentor or Friend: A mentor figure might challenge this belief, encouraging them to see their value and fight for themselves, leading to moments of growth and resistance.

Gradual Change

Moments of Clarity: Show them having fleeting moments of realization where they understand their self-worth, possibly triggered by a significant event or dialogue with another character.

Catalyst for Change: Introduce a scenario where they must choose between self-sacrifice and self-preservation, forcing them to confront their beliefs head-on.

Life-Altering Experience: Put the character in a situation that forces them to confront their fears, such as a near-death experience or a pivotal choice between saving themselves or others. This moment can act as a wake-up call to their worth.

Acts of Courage: Have them step up in a crisis, leading to a moment where they save someone else and realize their capability and value. This can help them see that they have something to offer.

Turning Point: Create a climactic moment where the character realizes they deserve to save themselves, possibly triggered by witnessing someone else sacrifice themselves for them, prompting a realization of their worth.

Final Confrontation: In the final confrontation (with a villain or personal demon), let them stand up for themselves, verbalizing their worth and challenging the beliefs that have held them back.

Symbolism and Themes

Recurring Motifs: Use symbols that represent sacrifice and self-worth, like broken mirrors (self-perception) or shadows (their past). These can help reinforce their internal struggles visually throughout the narrative.

Redemption Arc: If they ultimately find a way to save themselves or allow others to save them, showcase this as a powerful moment of growth, suggesting that self-worth and love are intertwined.

Emotional Depth

Show Vulnerability: Allow the character to express their fears and doubts, whether through dialogue, journaling, or introspection, making their internal battles relatable and poignant.

Balance with Humor: If appropriate for your story, consider moments of humor or lightness to juxtapose their darker thoughts, showing that they are more than their complex.

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Still alive, getting back into writing, picked ATOH back up.

That is all 🙇🏿‍♀️🙇🏿‍♀️

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Being heartbroken sucks.

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Hi guys, bet you thought you wouldn't see me again! 

Lol its been a terrible couple of months and I have already written this post at least 3 times but I've never been able to fully get across what is truly going on and how to articulate it.

I'm gonna try to keep it short and to the point however, cause I know some of you all don't really care about theatrics.

 ATOH is still in production. Yes, you heard right, I am still working on it. I am just going through a slump. And it's not necessarily that I am in writer's block. I wish it was writer's block honestly, that would be so much easier to deal with…

Under the cut is more details. A little personal, I suppose 👉🏿👈🏿

 I'm extremely depressed currently, and for a while, I hadn't even known I was depressed! This has truly threw me for a loop yall 🥴🥴. I honestly have no idea when I will be able to fully get myself out of this but I've been trying for a very very long time and it just doesn't seem like it's coming to an end. 

During this time, I've managed to gain some energy to work on edits given to me by beta readers but I cannot say for certain that this project is something I can turn my full attention towards anymor. I'm not putting a ATOH on hiatus because I hate that. And I'd hate to put my game on hiatus for fear that ill completely forget about it. Instead, I'll sayil that production, ie., editing, writing, etc., is going to be extremely slow. The good thing is and I keep saying this over and over is that this new chapter or i should say the new portion of the game is ready for drop. I just need to go ahead and finish adding suggestions but again I just need to gain the energy to do so.

Thank you, everyone who has stood by a trial of horro and it's slow slow production and who has continued to stand Bambi I really appreciate it and you guys are honestly like my light right now if you have any questions please don't hesitate to ask send a while for me to respond but I am seeing most of your messages and I do appreciate your guys caring and you're reaching out. 

Well, that's it for me guys byeee!

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A wild Kohaku appears!

*Throw pokèball!*

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even as a shadow, as a dream...

Euripides (tr by Anne Carson), Anne Magill, John Berger and Jean Mohr, Anna Akhmatova, Madeline Miller

buy me a coffee

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I have no idea why this gargoyle sex scene is so hard to write but I will prevail ☝🏿☝🏿☝🏿☝🏿!!

Don't clink your pebbles about it, I'm sure you will come up with something rock solid!

(I'm sorry I was possessed by a Dad)

Its ok!! I definitely needed to hear this 🤎🤎

This year has been A LOT for me in terms of work (I've taken a new position at my job and am GOING CRAZY)

I've been so drained for the past couple of months. I'm taking a vacation in December so I'm hoping that my brain will reset enough to where I can come back better.

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The Moon by Alice Blake

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Alvarez, Moore, and Khalid would 100% wear the acclaimed "hoochie daddy" shorts.

That is all.

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Iris van Herpen 'Architectonics' Fall 2023 Haute Couture Collection

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Don't know what happened but I had a moment and got something down...

All I ask is that y'all don't judge me!! 😭🥴

I have no idea why this gargoyle sex scene is so hard to write but I will prevail ☝🏿☝🏿☝🏿☝🏿!!

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I have no idea why this gargoyle sex scene is so hard to write but I will prevail ☝🏿☝🏿☝🏿☝🏿!!

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BAEEE IVE MISSED UUU 😭🥺❤️❤️ how r u doing? I hope ur doing amazing 🫶🏻🫶🏻 dont forget ti take care of urself much lovee

- Side

Side!! My love, I missed you too 🤎😩😩

I hope you've been doing well and that life has been treating you well~

I'm feeling much better now, at least better enough to interact with the IF community again 😗😗 I promise not to go ghost for that long ago. Honestly I thought I wasn't gonna come back for a while.

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Someone asked me about the Levels of Angst for each RO awhile back (WAYBACK) but I never could answer cause it always fluctuated.

But I've figured it out and listed below!

Yue Tu: 100/10

🐉🦊 what happens when a fox and the embodiment of death mate? A litter of hot messes(PLEASE DONT ROMANCE THIS MAN YALL)

Adakai Normal Route: 5/10

Adakai Low Sanity Route: 9/10

High-key depressing honestly 😭😭. I'm still trying to wrap my head around how I'm gonna write this 💀☠.

Faizan Normal Route: 6/10

Faizan Low Sanity Route: 10/10

Depends on how you view this one. I give it 10/10 for... obvious reasons 👹👺

Alvarez Normal Route: 3/10

Alvarez Low Sanity Route: 5/10

Fairly mid. You could say that this whole route is about them accepting their TRUE nature 🙃🙃. Which is totally bad for MC

Moore Normal Route: 7/10

Moore Low Sanity Route: 8/10

When you live long enough, fighting the force thats oppressed you for so long. you'll find yourself becoming the villain 🥴🥴🗡🗡🗡🗡

Lemme know if you want the One Night Stands/SOs.

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So... Hi?

Lol! It's been a while hasn't it guys? Definitely too long. I won't lie, I was meaning to update you guys in the beginning of July to announce that I was still kicking and alive. But time just got away from me and well--

So this is gonna be a rough, quick and dirty update while I still have the mental energy:

Overall updates to the Game

The Prelude has went from 93k words to 131k+ words.

UI has changed [again].

I'm hoping the saves will still work but im having the testers try it out to make sure it'll transpose.

If the saves are broken ill look into ways to try and patch them so no one has to start over.

Episode 1-Part 1 of the update is around 88k words (im rough-balling cause I don't remember where its at.)

I'm not gonna go fully into the additions and changes, I'll leave that for the changelog. But I have added some additional choices and am still doing so.

I just hope that there's enough content for you all to enjoy.

Clerical Updates

Incorporating beta testers comments into the game.

I've been working with the beta testers and they've pointed out a LOT of bugs for me and even some places where I could expand the stories plot.

Let me tell you guys, they have truly been a boon in this process and I really have to thank them from the bottom of my heart for their help.

Just working with different designs and trying to find ATOH 's 'face' if you will.

I think that's it.

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we really devolved as a society when we stopped using fully painted pictures on romance novels and started using cheap photoshop instead 

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—longing for love

what i could never confess without some bravado by emily palermo // nickie zimov // homosexuality by frank o’hara // normal people (2020) // the unabridged journal by sylvia plath // holly warburton