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testing this does this work ok??? 

(mind the volume it’s heavy metal)

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Hey I'm still alive, just have been having a lotta mental and physical health stuff going on. I did finally decide on some names for the characters, though! As well as a bit of personalities!

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The wand user is named Ethel Hart. Xe works very hard at school, and xir biggest fear is being seen as a failure. Xe works a bit too hard to avoid that, which may eventually cause burnout. Xe doesn't have a special interest, but rather, cycles through sort-term hyperfixations on various nonfiction topics to read about. As such, if xir memory is functioning right, xe has approximate knowledge of several things. Buuuut xe has an issue of getting facts mixed up in xir head sometimes due to swapping interests so often.

For example, xe can tell you some fun facts about spiders if you encounter one, buuuut xe might forget which ones are poisonous. Perhaps the three are fighting a snake monster. Are its bites poisonous? Was it round or diamond heads that have pois- whoops too late, Chrissy got bit. Guess Ethel'll find out which it was soon enough.

Xe lives in a college dorm as xe desperately tries to figure out what xe wants to major in for xir bachelor's degree. There's so many choices! There's so much stuff to learn! Deciding on just one stresses xir out.

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Bear arms/hands user is Christina "Chrissy" Robinson. She is mute, and uses an AAC device to communicate with others. She does know sign language, but only really uses it at home when she doesn't have her AAC with her, such as if it's dead or she left it on the couch when going to grab some food.

She lives with her sister, Pauline (Polly), who acts as her caregiver and helps her out whereever she can. Their mom is a doctor, and isn't home a lot. She pays Polly to help care for Chrissy since Chrissy has trouble with certain things. The two girls have only recently moved to town to be closer to their mom's workplace.

I'm thinking I might have Chrissy's dyspraxia be rough. Like... She has difficulty balancing when going up and down steps, trouble gripping small objects like forks and pencils and such, and she tends to either drop things or grasp them too hard. She also tends to fall a lot, if not careful.

I'm flip flopping between weather or not she minds eye contact, but anyway,

Due to her dyspraxia she has difficulty doing certain things like cooking, cleaning, bathing, and other things. Her sister helps her as needed, and Chrissy also has some devices and tools that help her out. For example, a spoon with a thick handle that's easier for her to grasp, with a mechanism to help itself stay balanced even if her hand goes shakey. I'm not sure what else though! If anyone has ideas, let me know. Perhaps a cane would be helpful? Idk. My dyspraxia isn't that severe, so I'd like to hear some from those who struggle with it more than me!

As for Christina's personality, she's sarcastic, blunt, and she's a bit abrasive when it comes to interacting with new people. She doesn't trust easily. Growing up she was bullied a lot and had some friends betray her trust, so now she's a bit standoffish with new people as a sort of defense mechanism. Friends can't betray you if you have none, right? People can't attack your insecurities if you hide them behind enough false confidence, right?

She read the words "fake it til you make it" and she FELT that shit. In junior year of high school, she started closing herself off, whilst putting on a show of false confidence. She began insulting people back when they made fun of her, and eventually they seemed to shut up and stop bothering her. So that's been her strategy for the last few years.

As such, she might be a bit of an asshole at the start. It'll take some work for her to open up to working with the other two. Knowing her she'd probably try to go it alone several times and get her ass kicked hard a few times before begrudgingly admitting she needs their help.

Maybe as she befriends them and slowly lets them into her heart, she'll realize that not everyone will betray her and that she can trust people again.

I'd say her biggest fear is being all alone. As much as she intentionally tries to drive people away so that they can't hurt her, she's also fucking terrified of being fully alone. She wants people to love and trust, but she feels like it could just lead to more pain. And yet... She doesn't want to be alone.

As for Zaps, I'm still working on her personality and her whole name, but I'm thinking she'll try out "Hannah" first

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Happy Ok Ms. Rona wrap it up hoe Wednesday

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Shit, sorry for lack of updates! My desktop has been fucking up for a while now, and it's hard to do the art on my laptop due to limited desk space.

Hoping I can fix up the desktop at least a little soon

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Inspired by @fangirltothefullest ‘s ADHD Superhero post:

An autistic magical girl! Having a rough time being interrupted during her day to fight monsters. 

Negative sensory overload with the new outfit that probably is waaay to frilly and itchy and the hair accessories are probably a pain too.

Not connecting with her teammates. (At first. Magical girl shows are about friendship after all!)

Transforming when she’s alone just so she can stim with her magic wand that is weighted really nicely and it just fun to fidget with.

Attacks being super strong when she gets excited and shouts it out.

Maybe she has a costume that feels nice to wear, and she stims by transforming and twirling in her pretty skirt!

Having to deal with meltdowns fighting monsters that disrupt her routine or have attacks that are SUPER overstimulating.

Using attacks that don’t require command words when she’s feeling non-verbal (or just is non-verbal.)

Struggling to mask around so many new people (her teammates.) Infodumping to her new teammates when she’s comfortable enough around them.

Petting the magical mascot.

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nothing funnier than making an oc just to give him a problem. get fucked sketchbook boy

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Some ideas:

Bear Hands/Arms, Kristina Robinson:

Kristina is nonverbal and uses AAC. She is autistic, and needs help doing things like showering/bathing, cooking, making appointments, and driving. She cannot look people in the eyes. She's very particular about the food she eats and the texture of her clothes, but when she finds some she likes, she really likes them!

She doesn't work, but volunteers at the local library helping the librarians. She loves it!

Her sister, who used to help her with her daily life, has gone missing, and she's been struggling to get by on her own. Her aunt tries to help, but is often busy.

Kristina may not speak aloud, but she's for sure not quiet. She's not afraid to tell someone off with her AAC. After being infantilized a lot of her life, she's 100% done with people's pity. She often does understand sarcasm and jokes, especially since she likes to use sarcasm a lot. Which she finds especially funny since her resting face is usually quite deadpan, as is the AAC voice.

Her goal is to try to get by whilst trying to do everything she can to find her sister.

don't think I've forgotten here, my ass has just been getting kicked by depression and severe adhd

So meanwhile have their names!

Bear Hands/Arms User: Kristina Robinson

ZipZappers (Speedy Shoes) User: ??? Taylor (She doesn't have a set first name in Canon yet, as she'll be experimenting! So for now I'll just call her by her last name, Taylor!

(small spoiler: I'm thinking Hannah might be the first name she tries!)

And finally we got

Wand User: Michela Davis

I'll have to make full profiles for them sometime! I still haven't drawn Michela, but I know what she looks like!

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I'm not dead, just having health issues still! Gotta love the American Healthcare system. Really need a new cpap, but they're like $800 or more, so, rip. Trying to figure out what to do

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Update: cpap is helping a little bit since I got a new mask! However, Adderall is causing me mania.

There's good news though; I got a new therapist and a new psychiatrist!

TW: talk of my prior shitty therapist and psychiatrist below the cut

:readmore:

My last ones were horrible and didn't listen or understand. Hell, one told me to "just try harder"! And they kept telling me to get a job when, like, the disabilities I need help with are what's keeping me from getting a job!

Both of them always forgot to schedule the next appointment, and it was especially bad with the psych because he would put me on a med or raise my stimulant med, but then not schedule a follow up to check on me!

I've been struggling with my Adderall causing mania, but when I tried to tell my therapist, she didn't even try to recommend me something else. I tried asking if it would help if my mood stabilizer should be raised too, but the question was ignored.

So hopefully, I can eventually work shit out. I really wanna start this.

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hannibal’s name rhyming with cannibal is like vague enough to be a coincidence but he’s also a fancy chef who always serves organ meat and/or raw meat dishes that exactly line up with whatever body part disappeared from the FBI’s most recent batch of bodies, and he serves it to the FBI, who doesn’t notice

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This is a comment someone appended to a photo of two men apparently having sex in a very fancy room, but it’s also kind of an amazing two-line poem? “His Wife has filled his house with chintz” is a really elegant and beautiful counterbalancing of h, f, and s sounds, and “chintz” is a perfect word choice here—sonically pleasing and good at evoking nouveau riche tackiness. And then “to keep it real I fuck him on the floor” collapses that whole mood with short percussive sounds—but it’s still a perfect iambic pentameter line, robust and a lovely obscene contrast with the chintz in the first line. Well done, tumblr user jjbang8

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Gotta get a different cpap mask. This one constantly is either blowing air into my eyes or I have to pull it so tight that my nose hurts so much.

Trying to schedule a new fitting!

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Hopefully this means I can actually get to work on stuff soon!

Got my APAP (Auto CPAP) set up today! 🤞 Fingers crossed!!!🤞

It may be a bit of an adjustment for me to get used to, but my God if I can get proper sleep I can finally get to work on things I need and want to do, hopefully!

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Plumenolgy in a few days to hopefully finally get help for my horrible sleep apnea! Maybe I can FINALLY fuckin sleep good for once once I get a APAP or something.

Meaning hopefully I'll actually have more energy for once.

Not looking forward to the price without insurance tho.

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Small update to my health issues that might lead me to being able to actually focus on making content soon!:

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don't think I've forgotten here, my ass has just been getting kicked by depression and severe adhd

So meanwhile have their names!

Bear Hands/Arms User: Kristina Robinson

ZipZappers (Speedy Shoes) User: ??? Taylor (She doesn't have a set first name in Canon yet, as she'll be experimenting! So for now I'll just call her by her last name, Taylor!

(small spoiler: I'm thinking Hannah might be the first name she tries!)

And finally we got

Wand User: Michela Davis

I'll have to make full profiles for them sometime! I still haven't drawn Michela, but I know what she looks like!