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Israel mistook three hostages for Palestinian civilians and killed them.

Israel killed 20,000 civilians and counting. I wonder how many Palestinians of these 20,000 killed will make it on the front page of CNN, or any news outlet for that matter.

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i want to be tender again. i want to be soft

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tonight i am going to live forever. i am dead yesterday and i am dead tomorrow. i have died everywhere else but here.

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judy grahn, from another mother tongue: gay words, gay worlds, 1984

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it's literally so fucking wonderful to be alive and to love. like do you even understand. i don't know why i even fucking bother to live anymore until i hear my sister laugh and look into my brother's eyes and eat my mother's food, and i remember. this is why we are here. to sing and laugh and eat and love.

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i think that in another life i was still born. that my parents buried me and that right now i'm rotting. i can almost feel it sometimes; the maggots eating away at me, the worms crawling underneath my skin. i think i am dead in this life too.

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existence is suffering and we're all just trying to make it bearable

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do you want to split an orange with me? i want you to know i love you.

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i think there’s really nothing we can do in terms of bracing for the future except for trust that whatever life throws your way you’ll be able to handle. just trust that you’ll manage, that we’ll make it through.

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can i make this suffering artistic? can i make it beautiful?

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i'm trying to forgive, but there's a part of me, the part of me that they hurt, that resists. like forgiveness is a betrayal to my hurt and my rage.

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if theres a god up there, he is anything but kind