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I already have two if I tried iron supplements will I go supercritical and explode??? /gen I'm entirely serious

STOP! before you decide you are irretrievably doomed, try one of the following options:

transition

bdsm

iron supplements

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Behold.

A perfectly ironed trans flag...

What devilry hath created such.... straightness?? Such geometric consistency??

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Hell yeah

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This will fix me

i don’t need therapy i just need to go up like at least three cup sizes

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They took everything from us

God forbid a chick wants some raunchy transbian smut ffs

/gen for a sec best advice is to find amateur creators. The industry will always be terrible but that doesn't mean there aren't people expressing themselves and their identities genuinely out there. Grifters will grift no matter who gets hurt because of it

one time i was chilling and watching some porn with some trans women in it but then i realized that it was actually just a bunch of cis women with really convincing prosthetics. and then i realized that there’s a whole industry for fake tgirl porn. and it sorta felt like watching my entire family get murdered in front of me.

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SHOOTING CIVILLIANS POINT BLANK. SHE WAS TRYING TO GET HOME AND THEY SHOT HER FOR NO REASON. GET THIS FOOTAGE OUT!

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Waking up in the middle of the night with the greatest urge to create, but knowing I need sleep in order to function well enough to complete neccessary tasks tomorrow. The manic will leave me by then and I'll have to wait for a double coincidence of ample free time and mania.

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Good morning all!

I made this 45 minute set right after coming back from a music festival, neglected to post it here for a few days.

Some bangers on there, hope you enjoy and happy pride :]

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Actually fuck it I'll try elaborate

This cruel, horrible world might end tomorrow in some stupid bullshit nuclear war, and I'll never have experienced half the shit I would've had I been born cis. Never found love, never held someone, never felt completely comfortable and vulnerable with another human being, never had passion for anything. All I would have to show for myself is a lifetime of missed opportunities and a realisation made far too late and a handful of good memories.

It's virtually impossible to live to your potential when you are dysphoric. How can you even consider a career, passions, relationships when that shit is weighing you down constantly?

Sometimes, I don't feel like my body exists. Like someone draped a sheet over reality and that I'm just going through the motions of being alive. I've had glimpses of proper reality in the past months, but as the joy of transitioning faded, I don't really know what I even have. No hobbies, no friends, just a complete fucking loser. I sure as hell treat myself like I don't exist. To be honest, I don't care what happens to it most days.

Can't even bear to look at myself in the mirror some days without seeing some deformed creature and breaking down. How do you live a life like that???

I do at times ask what is the point of going on, like my entire reason for existing is to spite hateful fuckers and not much else. I just don't know how to get out of this, I convince myself things will get better, but they just aren't.

It never was just about hating the look of my body, which can be changed easily. It's feeling like I just don't have a place in the world, and it colours everything I do. As though I don't exist save for how other people say what I am.

Fuck dysphoria

That is all

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Fuck dysphoria

That is all

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this is awesome and cool

Well let’s go back to the middle of the day that starts it all

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Love Should Be Unconditional.

Trans girls who love each other even when we don’t “pass,” who kiss each other’s cheeks even through dysphoria tearing at them internally, who still flirt like lovesick fools mid-breakdown—there’s something sacred about that.

Like, yes, I’m going to grip my trans girlfriend’s shoulders and look her in the eyes and say, “You’re beautiful.”

And if she rolls her eyes and says, “But my voice—” I’ll kiss her right then and there to shut her up.

Because it's not just love.

It’s two girls choosing each other in a world that told us to hide.

It’s soft hands wiping each other's mascara tears and going, “You’ll get there, babe. Let the estrogen cook.”

And if that doesn’t work?

Then I’m pulling her into my lap, stroking her hair while she grumbles, and whispering all the sweet, sinful things I love about her until her pout fades and she’s melting into me.

Because she deserves to feel adored—even when she’s spiraling.

Especially then.

This is trans romance:

Messy, mutual, playfully horny, tender as hell.

And no amount of expectations will ever ruin that for us.

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Didn't realise what the male gaze was until I got on a bus and was stared at by this fucking weirdo a few weeks back. Guy thought he was fucking slick trying to chat me up as if I was too stupid to realise what kind of person he is. The complete lack of respect to stare at someone commuting home FROM WORK and think that is an appropriate to try chatting them up is fucking disgusting

Honestly, seeing people (men mainly) STARE at you from the corner of your eye is fucking terrifying and I don't want to experience that again. Ewphoria I guess

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Every cis man has a biologically coded cup size, and they would never find out... unless?

The human body's response to HRT is actually admirable in the sheer indifference. Just pure I Don't Give A Shit, I Just Fucking Work Here compliance to the new instructions. You can get testosterone injected straight into your body and it doesn't even question where that shit came from, coming back from a coffee break and just going

"Okay, everything seems to be in ord- oh fuck now what? Oh huh. Alright fine. New orders came in, cancel the menstrual cycle. Dig up the genetic balding patterns from somewhere, I don't fucking know they're buried somewhere in the dna. I'm greenlighting the growing-hair-on-your-toes thing. Yeah just cancel the ongoing maintenance processes, new orders came in so this is apparently what we're doing now."

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Don't follow the lights master hobbitses

River of rule

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Selfie Sunday yippee!!!

Happy pride all

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This is why you collect dysphoria hoodies

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