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I hate it when you’re reading smut and you can’t figure out what position they’re in.

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Small update to say a few things:

First (and randomly), I love my commenters and bookmarkers. Y'all are srsly the best lol. Occasionally, I'll get a comment on something and just moon over it, and it spurs me to work on one of my WIPs. Even more occasionally, I'll realize I haven't checked the bookmarks for that (whichever) fic in a while, and god we're a wild group of readers. I just saw one tagged "shame basement," and started laughing uncontrollably.

Secondly, yes, I'm here and alive lol (but ty all for the sweetness of ur check-ins). Things have been...weird, and decidedly hard, since lockdown, and even though that was years back, now - god it rlly was, wasn't it? 😬 - I'm still sort of working my way back to being able to do the things I was doing before then. And I have the bad habit of going to ground when things are rough, so I'm rlly sorry for any concern. But yeah, I'm here, and I haven't abandoned any fics, they're just...slow to finish lol. Like me, they're WIPs. ❤

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What it feels like a tomato

Yes.

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hi!! just read that old black magic for the first time and oh. my god. it’s fucking beautiful. something about the insanely skillful gorgeous drarry fic i’ve been reading lately makes everything else i read seem like crap lol, it’s just so well done and arresting and moving and just on another level. i’m so happy it exists and i’m so grateful to you for the gift of it.

wondering if anyone’s ever drawn draco in his fucking outfits with the goddamn laces?? i wasn’t sure how to search for that so thought i’d ask :) thank you thank you!!!!

Not that I'm aware lol (though if anyone knows of drawings like that, please tag me in them! 😂😍)

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Cant stop thinking abt this one again

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Two identical infants lay in the cradle. “One you bore, the other is a Changeling. Choose wisely,” the Fae’s voice echoed from the shadows. “I’m taking both my children,” the mother said defiantly.

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"your fave ship is problematic" yeah, I want to make it worse

"that character is irredeemable" that's why I love them

"how can you even write that" watch me

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hi! i'm sure you've received every variation ever of this question, but are you still writing drarry or has the ship of fandom passed? just wanted to say i miss reading your works and you've been a blessing to the fandom!

I'm still writing, I promise. It's much slower-going - personal, rl issues take up much more of my time these days and, ngl, She Who Will Not Be Named's stance on trans women has palled some of my enthusiasm to contribute to her overall fandom (tho I love most of the ppl in it and find that subscribing to Death of the Author helps a lot) - but work is happening, I swear, lol. Big hugs to everyone who's waiting for updates and new fics. They're incoming, I just dont know exactly when I'll feel ready to post. Soon, I hope. ❤❤

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Happy pride 😂😍😂🕊

a pigeon at pride

Via: Vinny Thomas

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Is. Is there such a thing as a good stroke? Bc I may have just had one lmao.

This is the coolest thing ever. 😍😭😍💀💀

The Claiming of Grimmauld Place by @bixgirl1 

With beautiful art by @m4g0rtz 

For @babooshkart’s birthday! ❤️

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This was the loveliest thing to read, and moved me to near speechlessness. The credit is all due to you and your own courage, ofc, but I'm floored and touched to learn that I and others could have helped shore up that courage for you a little. ❤❤❤❤❤

hi rooney, thank you for your first letter to joy. i was wondering if there were there any books or other media that you found useful when you first started figuring out you were trans?

Hi nonnie!

Ah this is a great question - my honest to god answer is that getting more involved in fandom, reading and writing queer characters, was my main way of figuring it out. I remember seeing the term "gender envy" floating around and suddenly all these pieces fitting together to explain the type of yearning I felt when I saw Marauders fanart, for example.

I spent a really long time not reading M/M romance because I was terrified of objectifying them (yet another reason why internet discourse sucks) and yet as soon as I started reading it, I was like, "oh right, this is how I feel, this is what my attraction is like, this is how I want to be seen." Some writers that were crucial in me feeling okay with exploring my sexuality and how that might relate to my gender (because for me, the two were very connected) were @lqtraintracks @bixgirl1 @shiftylinguini @l0vegl0wsinthedark - I didn't realise I'd felt like I was dirty or wrong for being a queer man until I read queer men having sexual relationships, and layers of stigma were stripped off.

I'd also say TikTok was pretty useful - the app can be a hellhole, beware, but the transmasc community is amazing and provided me with such positive representation. I think figuring out I was trans was hard because I never felt like I was "born in the wrong body" or rejected girly things. As a kid I was so socially isolated and obsessed with books and stories that I didn't pay much attention to what I wore, or how others perceived me (yay autism). And as I got older, I was always uncomfortable with my body, so I just tried to be more and more femme to fit in. My transness showed up for me through eating disorders, bad relationships, indecisiveness picking degrees or careers, and other things related to the simple fact that I didn't know myself. And seeing other transmasc people on social media who felt the same way, had figured it out later, and were sharing that, made everything click.

It's why I suppose I've never found books or documentaries or anything that particularly spoke to me - my trans journey lies pretty far outside the socially accepted narrative we've constructed to justify transness. I'd just say to try and find your people, try and find representation, make trans friends, and you'll get there. There's no rush, and you can take all the time you want. Sending you so much love xx

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Happy 10 Year Anniversary, @lqtraintracks!

I have waxed poetic about my admiration for @lqtraintracks on Tumblr, on Discord, in AO3 comments, and in their DMs. It is no secret that I’m a massive fan of their work, and I’ll get into one of those fics in particular later.

I’ve said this before, but I posted my first fic on AO3 in April and I finally caved and made a Tumblr in June. I remember making my profile and my intro post, and following the authors I knew of at the time and could find. Lqt was one of the first, if not the first person I followed.

Soon after, I got a notification. “lqtraintracks started following phoebe-delia”

The person who had written some of my all-time favorite fics, and who was a big reason why I had decided to start writing Drarry in the first place, was my very first follower on Tumblr.

I lost my fucking marbles. And when I found them, I lost them again.

Once the shock finally settled, it occurred to me that this person had 1. Never knowingly interacted with me before (I’d commented on Right Hand Red under another username) and 2. Had probably seen my bio and intro post about being a new Drarry writer and then just…followed me back.

It was then that lqt became a role model for me for more than just writing.

I have made a conscious effort to be as generous, heartfelt, and open as lqt was and continues to be. Since then, they have been kind and patient with my constant fangirling, and they have even taken the time to read a few bits of my work on Tumblr and reblog them with lovely feedback. I’ve gotten asks in the past about which comments mean the most to me, and while a few heartfelt ones on AO3 come to mind, so does even the simplest praise from this writer and person I admire so much.

While I will always and forever be a fan of their work, I am extremely grateful for the chance to get to know them a little better as a person. One of the highlights of my birthday was talking with them over DM, and there have been other chances for us to connect. When I first started reading fanfic a couple years ago, their writing (and fic in general) was a big escape for me during a hard time. Now, this year has been incredibly difficult for reasons that I won’t share here, but lqt’s words—both in fic and in conversation—have made this time more bearable for me.

I am by no means the first or the last person to have been forever changed by Lqt’s work and their kindness, but I feel remarkably lucky to have befriended the person whose work I read late into the night, tucked into bed and wondering if I’d ever be as free as Harry and Draco speeding down the highway.

I’d say I can’t believe you’ve been writing fic for 10 years, but it’s obvious from your skill, your insight and your generosity. I think we all discover fic and fandom at the right time—much like how a certain Wailing Warner knows when it’s needed most and when it’s not. For me, I found your fics and RHR at the time I needed them. I joined the fandom and made a tumblr at the time you happened to be on to return my follow. Your WOD gift fic came at the lowest point in my life so far—when I’ve needed it most.

That being said, I now get to ramble on about the only fic to rival RHR for my favorite by lqt: 28 Minutes in Heaven, the one they wrote me for the WOD gift exchange. It is 11k of party games and falling in love and banter and humor and not knowing what you’re doing but allowing that to be okay. It has been pulling me through the moments I’ve needed it and I cannot rec it enough.

Thank you, lqt, for being there for the last ten years, making the work for us to find at the exact right time.

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im sobbing

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I love the way every time I reread, I see something new. Laurent did all of this stuff and held important meetings THAT DAY, NEXT TO DAMEN’S BED still in the dirty bloodstained chiton because he refused to leave him. Amazing

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10 outta 10 would watch