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" I don't wanna get mu hopes up "

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Another Relatable Banger 🎶

"I think I'm misunderstood

I think I'm just under good

I think I'm not so bad

Tell me what's wrong with that

I think I'm over my head

I think I'm over depressed

I know I overthinkI know I overthink

Spending nights over sinks

Throw up 'cause I can't find out why I'm sad

Everything is bad, but it seems fine

No signs of struggle, always neglected

Boy in the bubble can't be affected

Can't get in trouble, can't get seem to get that

If not for trouble, no learning lessons

If not for trouble, no learning lessons

If not for trouble, no learning lessons

Trying to be subtle, trying to be gentle

Physically fit but sick in the mental"

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Neurodivergent experience in uni is like... 😵‍💫

"Caught in between living hell and a dream Tearing apart at the seams.."

I said f you to the haters that thought I wouldn't get far or be able to tackle hurdles. This was my dream. I am now depressed and alone. Go figure the irony. Anyone else at UCD feel this way?

Also I have no clue on how to describe my emotions besides to share songs as I am unable to articulate myself

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In my head, I feel the panic 💭

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Everything is scary.

My heart is pounding.

Thinking about situations that have yet to come.

Frozen.

Life feels wasted.

Unsure and uncertainties.

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This literally is how it feels to have anxiety. Anxiety has been kicking my butt lately.

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I want to feel love again...

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Lonlieness

"Where do you go when you're healing way too slow.." 💭Citizen Soldier x Lexx

Invisible, longing for connection yet have succumbed to emptiness. I'm the star pupil and people comment on my kindness and how nice I am. However, those comments fall on deaf ears since I'm so alone. No one reaches out to me or checks on me but I'm the one they go to one they are in a frenzy. Been where I am for about two years. I don't cross my families mind or anybody else's. No text, no calls without my initiation. I can fade into the background and cease to exist no questions ask.