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i wish someone had told me at 13 that depriving yourself of food and sleep is very much a form of self harm

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What is WindSoap?

WindSoap is a space created by two people, Wind and Soap, to be unapologetically unafraid and uncensored in the words we have to say. We’re idealists who’ve had to learn firsthand the harsh realities of life and just want more for those who are in the same position as themselves and their former selves.

It started out as an idea for a podcast; it came from the deepest of deep conversations we would have, on topics from life (living it and wanting to end it), self-identity, boys, and even the parts of the female body we’ve all universally never been taught about and have to search outside of ourselves to find out more about. We would talk for hours — and to this day still do — about things that so many people are too afraid to, especially because it comes from two unique perspectives.

WindSoap is exactly that, Wind and Soap; we met as international students in Beijing who during the first years of study didn’t know much of each other besides the others existence, and it wasn’t until a mutual friend and the strange circumstance of the God awful cram week for finals in a coffee shop really brought us together. We couldn’t honestly tell you the exact point when we became friends, but what we can say is that seemingly overnight we went from being virtual strangers to the purest of confidants, how we became close friends, none of us can recall. Which is the best way to become friends with someone, not the fickle attitude of hating someone you don’t know just because it’s the norm until you somehow get to know them and realise how wrong you were, but that’s something for another day. The greatest thing with us is we’re the comical odd pair, the best of friends to the point of being sisters despite this great divide separating us (distance), and the obvious telling us apart. Short and tall, Indonesian and Zimbabwean, our differences in culture, rich history, race and social standing are what could have stopped us from becoming what we are now and our similarities in love, life, and experience are what has prompted us to create something not just for us, but for someone out there who really needs it.

I think that WindSoap is something that came from an idea birthed by two people who found comfort, safety and acceptance in themselves. Two people who managed to shoulder the weight of their childhood, adulthood, and its scars on their own for so long, they didn’t know it could be possible to find someone who would always be there for them; on their darkest days while crying heavily into the phone or on their dumbest days while one disways the other from shaving their head but ends up praising them for it in the end because that’s what friendship is all about.

The night we came up with our podcast idea we went all in, came up with the name “WindSoap”, the tagline and more or less the basis of what it would be about. But with toying with the idea of starting a podcast and having certain entails in place is now an idea that’s been shelved indefinitely. But, from it sparked the idea to rather start a blog together, with both of us so far apart, it seems like a better alternative. The same name and tagline as well as content, but instead of it being a spoken conversation one could feel like their listening in on or are a part of, it’s a written one.

Even after taking the first steps towards it we both got caught up in our own lives away from the blog, but its always been something on the backburner, and now after all this time is something we’re ready to give to the world; no excuses.

Welcome to WindSoap, the inner vaginal monologue. A blog that’s simply a conversation about all the things you have late night conversations about, and all the things you’re also too afraid to say out loud and just generally, want to know so much more about. Its a conversation and a place where we’ll be able to explore and share our views and interest with freedom and no judgment. It may be brutal, and it will be honest, it may even be a bit graphic but its here, and we’re happy to share this with you and start this journey.

Wind & Soap.

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I firmly believe that mr. Sheffield was fucking CC and she had every right to be bitter

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I use this sentence way too much in response to the things people say to me..

“that sounds like a you problem” is literally one of the funniest ways to respond to criticism

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When I started reading this I honestly couldn’t decide if you meant Potter or Styles

halloween with harry would include:

watching horror movies late at night, cuddled on the sofa under blankets

at tense parts of the movies, he scares you, making you miss what happens in the movie

he always wants to answer the door for trick or treaters and tells you his favourite costumes that he's seen

doing cute couples costumes at halloween parties

going to a pumpkin patch to pick your pumpkins

harry always picking the biggest pumpkin he can find, often requiring the two of you to carry it back to the car

pumpkin carving dates, where he makes it a competition of who can do the best pumpkin

baking treats together: cookies, brownies, cupcakes

decorating the house all spooky

you helping him do makeup for his costume

he makes hot chocolate with cream and marshmallows while the two of you sit warm by the fire

each year, you and harry visit a haunted house and walk through it, trying to spook each other

ghost hunting in abandoned, creepy places

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Need to start doing this

it can be tempting to live your life like a prequel. to live as if you’re setting up your own story.and once you lose the weight, once you have the money, once you graduate school, once you’re in a real relationship, once, once, once. then finally, you’ll begin to live, and everything you do up until that point is some kind of half-life, some unimportant foreword you can skip. don’t do this. inhabit your life completely. sink fully into the wealth of your existence. the power to manifest is in the fearless owning of who you are, so that you can shape where you’re going.

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please put “yeeted the fuck off this mortal coil” on my tombstone

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There’s this thing about doctors... when they touch you... so tender

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All do a sudden, I am now very creeped out by twins..

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Took me a second

King David: *plays a regular, non-secret chord*

The Lord:

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If you have a child and they are creeped out by a nephew or older brother touching them or looking at them a certain way, you need to have a serious talk with that person and keep them the hell away from your child. Don’t minimize it or tell your kid to hug them anyway, that kid is picking up danger signals they don’t even understand yet. But so many families will tell that kid they are being a brat.

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I have stretch marks.

Reblog if you do too. Just to prove that it is more normal than what people actually think.

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Somebody tell me why the hell I have the my life as a teenage robot theme song stuck in my head and I don’t even know the words???

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So I was going through my drafts and found this post I made sometime at 5am after I woke up to pee..

Sometimes I forget that I don’t have vision and I fall asleep with my glasses on...

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Baddest

2017: dumb bitch

2018: sad bitch

2019: bad bitch