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“The sea is emotion incarnate. It loves, hates, and weeps. It defies all attempts to capture it with words and rejects all shackles. No matter what you say about it, there is always that which you can’t.” - Christopher Paolini

via @quotemadness

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Pretty 💕

A style emulation piece I did for class a year ago which imitates styles from two shows I love Steven Universe and Gravity Falls. But I also threw in some Zelda-esque fairies.

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reminder that 30 isn’t old, it’s very normal to not accomplish everything in your 20s, and that it is never too late to learn that thing you’ve always wanted to learn. you’re always growing. that’s a good thing. 

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map of the soul: persona comeback trailer

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Mad Max: Fury Road + Onion Headlines

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I hope all of yall find $20 on the ground tomorrow.

And I mean that.

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““But I must admit I miss you terribly. The world is too quiet without you nearby.””

— Lemony Snicket, The Beatrice Letters (via goodreadss)

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never use a person to forget another 

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You deserve to spend time with people who make life better, a little more vibrant and less dark. You deserve to be with people who challenge your views and aid in mutual growth. You deserve to be around people who make things like going shopping a small adventure and a fun task. You deserve a friendship where there is trust that the things spoken between you will stay there, that only positive things are said about each other behind closed doors, where they look out for you and your best interests because they care. Friendships like this shouldn’t have to be rare, be picky until you find people worth giving your time to. These are the friendships that stick around. The ones where you feel unconditionally wanted and deserved, don’t settle for less.

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For you. Here's a few extra just in case. ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

{\__/} ( • . •) / >♥️  i give this to everyone that is struggling right now. it’ll be ok.

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My Return & My New Beginnings

Finally back on this dash after losing myself to alcohol and a brief interlude into drugs. My memory took a hit and I forgot all about this blog until I was cleaning out old emails from a not so often checked inbox... Oops 😅 hey it's hard to keep up when you have like 8+ emails and all the passwords are changed years ago.

For the time I've been gone, I lost my gallbladder, survived a drunken suicide attempt, a mystery fall which I still don't have any clue how I got home (🤔 maybe one day it'll be revealed), I learned that LSD is NEVER a good idea for high anxiety ridden people like me. That one is a hard lesson I'm still trying to overcome. (The PTSD is real...almost 3 years and still get flashbacks and have health/mortality anxiety triggers. Fun.)

I admitted to having a problem with alcohol, and seeking sobriety. Took me 6 months to stop denying it fully, then was clean for 3 months and am now back up to 49 days clean. I don't drink, smoke, do drugs, or consume caffeine (not even pop/soda or tea. All herbal baby 😉)

Also, I go by a new name, Hi I'm Mia 👋🏻

In between the 6 months and 3 month reboot, I found solace in books. One of which has been the ground work for a lot of my personal growth. More and more I keep finding new things to love about myself that I couldn't accept during my drinking days and when my mental health problems were unchecked.

I found faith as well. Which in a way has always been there just disconnected. Again, a book helped me connect to the deeper side of this aspect of myself. I found that my love and belief in God is supposed to be personal. One on one.

A far cry from what I was taught as a little girl. It was always deemed as a bad thing if we didn't go to church on Sundays, or if I didn't pray every night for more than 5 minutes bad things would happen. But that isn't true, now that I've let go of my messed up perspectives of yesteryear. (that's a fun word 😁) And many years of spiritual anguish. I'm more full. Of life, love, and burning passion for learning and self improvement.

What the book let me in on is learning to be grateful for what's been blessed upon me in life. That God will find a way to those who wish to have a connection. That he doesn't need to be forced upon anyone. (which is why I stayed away, felt jaded by God because of the demands of each church and the specific doctrines enforced)

Both books gave me the lessons of perspectives I didn't have nor want before. Gratitude and openness to believing in something greater than myself. To break down how I feel and keep questioning. To know that my emotions aren't rational for the most part even though my BPD mentality tried to tell me they were.

It's not about my feelings, it's about my actions in which I chose to react with them that matters.

I look back now empowered by the dramatic changes made to my life. I'm more me than I ever have been. I'm reaching goals, breaking out of comfort zones, and taking each day as it comes with optimism.

Change is welcomed now where it was avoided before. I hold myself accountable for the first time in a long time. And it feels amazing.

❤️ ❤️ ❤️ ❤️ Book recommendations that helped my journey:

1. Unlearn: 101 Simple Truths to Live a Better Life by Humble The Poet 2. God Are You Real? By Arthur Adam 3. Recovery: Freedom From Our Addictions by Russell Brand 4. Unlearn: 101 Life Lessons Without the Bullshit by Humble The Poet

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start with “hey, sorry it took me so long to reply” and go from there!

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“Be with someone who feels like home and adventure at the same time.”

— Unknown

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