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His Name is Will

I used the painting "Erased Self-Portrait (1999)" by William Utermohlen and personal experiences with my grandpa to write this story. This story is mostly fiction. There was a man named Will or at least William who loved to paint.

This is a prose piece that I wrote for a media literacies class of mine. I took the class during the 2022 Fall Semester. The assignment was to take a photo and analyze it and then write a short story based on the photo. This story had to be fiction. So I used the painting “Erased Self-Portrait (1999)” by William Utermohlen and personal experiences with my grandpa to write this story. This story…

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I Missed You Too

For a long time I was afraid to write. That sounds weird but I think I go through these phases or at least I just now realized that I do. The fact is, my blog is less than perfect, poorly edited, unfiltered, and dangerously ordinary.

For a long time I was afraid to write. That sounds weird but I think I go through these phases or at least I just now realized that I do. I love my blog but those intrusive thoughts never go away. What if nobody cares? Does what I am saying even really matter? I’ve been told that I’m too emotional and nothing really matters in the “grand scheme of things”. I feel like all I do sometimes is…

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The Last Christmas

I have a secret to tell you. I always spend at least one of the two Christmas nights completely alone, even if only for a few hours. While Santa does his rounds and all the parents and children sleep, I lie awake.

I have a secret to tell you. I always spend at least one of the two Christmas nights completely alone, even if only for a few hours. While Santa does his rounds and all the parents and children sleep, I lie awake. Thinking and hoping to dream of the last Christmas. The last Christmas that ever truly felt like Christmas was Christmas, 2004. It was quite the year. It was the first time I had ever…

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School's Out!

I am officially done with the Fall 2021 semester! It has been fun and a lot of reading. I had to put my posting on pause for a while unfortunately.

I am officially done with the Fall 2021 semester! It has been fun and a lot of reading. I had to put my posting on pause for a while unfortunately. It was not something that I wanted to do but it was something that I felt like I needed to do in order to get things done towards the end of the semester. There is this weird feeling where you feel like you’re falling in place. Like you’re falling…

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The Social Medias

I finally just sat down and forced myself to write, there was so many things I wanted to write. This post won't be as long as my other ones but it is about something that I have been wanting to talk about and I'm actually very excited to talk about.

It has been a minute. I finally just sat down and forced myself to write, there was so many things I wanted to write about and experiences that have happened recently that I don’t even know where to begin. Also, I honestly, just haven’t sat down to make the time. I’m sure once I start writing it’ll eventually come out. This post won’t be as long as my other ones but it is about something that I…

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Heavy Heart

I woke up with doubt. I woke up in the middle of the night feeling lonely. I can't do that again...I can't give in this time. As much as it hurts, I need to try to stay strong. If I keep giving in when will it stop?

I woke up with doubt. I woke up in the middle of the night feeling lonely. I miss the sound of little feet running around the house. I miss hearing her yell and her laugh. I miss becoming the tickle monster and chasing her around the house only for her to stop so that she can be tickled. I miss her running up to me with books she wanted me to read her. I miss the small scale lightsaber battles…

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I Give Up.

I'd like to apologize if what I've written offends anyone. I'm sorry if I've caused you any sort of pain or great emotional turmoil with my words. If you don't agree with anything that I've written and thinking I'm totally wrong, I understand.

Something has been bothering me, I’ve been debating on writing for a while. I’ve been told that some of the things that I write are bothersome. I’m not sure if it’s on my blog’s Facebook page or on my blog itself. But I wrote something that hurt someone. So, I’ve been away from the keyboard for a while. I’m torn. Do I keep writing for myself and for hope that others can relate and not feel…

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Roses

I am officially on summer vacation! For a week anyway...at least it was when I wrote that first sentence.

I am officially on summer vacation! For a week anyway…at least it was when I wrote that first sentence. I’m finally done with summer school. I’m about to start my fall semester and honestly, I needed the vacation. It wasn’t really much of a vacation. I ended up spending the entire time helping Jack move things into his new apartment. So it was fun but…well I don’t want to say not fun because it…

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My Poor Pepper Pepperoni

My Poor Pepper Pepperoni

Okay, so I’m kinda late on the post here. I really tried, but something keeps coming up. I apologize for being late on the post. There has been some ups and downs this week. I hadn’t really made time to write. I’m not used to having to dedicate myself to something. It feels kinda great most of the time actually. This week has been all about me playing catch-up. At least with the blog. But I’ll…

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Tuesday March 30, 2021

Journal Entry: Tuesday March 30, 2021

Today’s adventure was reading to Jack. Well, that’s what I’m actually doing right now. Or I was before he mentioned that I needed to write in my journal today. So here I am “taking a break.” Before diving into part 3 of Station Eleven by Emily St. John Mandel. I honestly don’t know how many times I’ve written her name and forgotten it. Instantaneously. That’s with most authors though…man that…

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Thursday March 4, 2021

Journal Entry: Thursday March 4, 2021

Another day in the Quar So, I heard a rumor. I’m not sure just how true it is, but I heard my mom say that Governor Abbott is not requiring people to wear masks soon. They will no longer be mandatory. I’m not sure how comfortable I feel with that. Even though I’m going to get vaxed on Saturday, I still feel like I won’t feel safe even after my second dose. I just hope it doesn’t spike again. It…

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From The Spiral Diaries

New Category Alert! "From The Spiral Diaries" is live with it's first post coming soon!

These are pages from my own personal diary. When I’m not writing here, I do try to keep a steady journaling habit, though life always seems to get in the way of that. These pages might be a little more personal and way more informal than my standard blog posts.

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Tired Of Being Tired

There is something that doesn’t get talked about much in everyday life. It is a very important part of our mental health, yet we don’t really hear much about it, at least I don’t. I honestly didn’t even really think about it until it was brought to my attention by those closest to me. Anyone want to guess what I’m talking about? Anyone at all? Burnout. It should be talked about more and it…

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Dear Binge Eating Disorder

Dear Binge Eating Disorder, Why do you do this to me? You do this to me every single time. You make it almost impossible for me to take care of myself? It doesn’t matter how hard I try, you’re always there to remind me exactly why I shouldn’t listen to you. Because of you I eat in my room, unless no one is around. If I do eat out of my room, I’m real anxious about it. Because of you, I eat…

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Trapped

Trapped What do you do when you've run out of things to say? How do you just move on? What do you do when you say one thing and everyone else says something else?

What do you do when you’ve run out of things to say? How do you just move on? When does the pain stop? What do you do when you say one thing and everyone else says something else? I don’t like being in the middle of drama and I don’t like when I feel like it’s all in my head either. It makes me feel crazy, like I don’t actually know what’s going on and I’m imagining it. But I know that I’m…

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Everyone, I'm Sorry

Everyone, I'm Sorry I’ve been keeping a secret. There's some things that I just don't talk about. My scars run deeper than they appear. In the almost twenty-seven years of life that I have had, a lot has happened to me.

I’ve been keeping a secret. There’s some things that I just don’t talk about. My scars run deeper than they appear. In the almost twenty-seven years of life that I have had, a lot has happened to me. Sure there’s some people out there who have it worse than I do, but those people aren’t me. Everyone feels things differently. I apologize in advance for any triggers anyone might experience while…

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Welcome Back, Eating Disorder

Welcome Back, Eating Disorder

I wish I knew what was wrong with me. I wish I wasn’t like this most days. I probably sound like a broken record at this point. I wish there was something I could do to make things better. At least for a while. I know people don’t do it on purpose. At least I hope they don’t. I had a relatively good day today, I got some writing done, I changed the layout on the site a bit and I even cooked. I…