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Oh no! I liquified Noi!

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Just started my inner demons, I would literally kill myself for Noi </3

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I’m gonna start my inner demons after work, anything I should know?

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MY FIRST EVER ANIMATION!!!!!!!! I’ve been waiting to do this for ever! My dream to do the deviantart thing! And of course I had to do my girl Nana <3

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Why is Zane my favorite? Oh you know..

No reason…

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Ten years into aph and Aaron’s future, maybe they have kids and settle down or whatever and their kid is like “hey mom I’m so hungry I could eat Thorgi/Levin” does anyone see my vision

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Just saw the Minecraft movie. Let’s just say I clapped and cheered for only 2 seconds.

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Please spam me ilove to talk and yap

bring back tumblr ask culture let me. bother you with questions and statements

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The beginning of his transformation

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william afton as a concept is so gay. he's literally a manic theater kid with a fursona

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So fucking happy and sooo fucking sad all at once. Aphmau just posted a vampire video, while I’m in the process of making MY vampire Au. Ugh. I’m still gonna make it, my lore is different but I just wanna say that I started making this concept since like highschool and only started actually conceptualizing it into an ACTUAL Au like now, but whatever I’m slow as fuck :p

I will say from what I’ve seen: I’m very glad that gene and Zane are vampires in the video because in my notes I have the shadow knights are all vampire so that’s fun I’ll make another post comparing my notes and the video later

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Happy Valentines Day!

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The whole Kiki and Zane situation

Major Content Warning for sexual assault, unwanted pregnancy, and lack of consent

Yeah this is a thing. That we need to talk about. I'm keeping the whole amulet thing the same, I actually have a lot of thoughts about these amulets, where they came from, and why they do what they do, but in this situation I think it works. But we are not going to gloss over this situation at all.

I am necessitating downtime after the first major fiasco with Zane. I literally don't know what happens after that but there is as much time as I want for characters to just process that whole fucking ordeal. Especially Kiki. Give her time to process the physical trauma of having a child under such extreme circumstances, maybe show her going to the Irene Statue to pray or getting healing potions from Zoey or eventually Lucinda to help her body deal with the after effects.

Let Kiki be emotional about it. Let someone ask her how she's doing and that time she can't lie about it. She can't hide the miserable look in her eyes. She's tried to hide this from Leona, she doesn't want her daughter to have to deal with the burden of her origin and what it did to Kiki, but deep down Kiki knows she can't stop that from happening. She knows Leona will always be affected by this and she's completely shaken at the mere thought of having to explain it to her later in life.

And let other characters express thoughts on this!! I feel like canon absolutely ignores a lot of characters feelings, especially people in Season 1 Phoenix Drop, and will just focus on a certain part of a series of events while ignoring or rarely bringing up another. Like I honestly forgot this whole subplot happened when I went in for a rewatch a year ago and was absolutely mortified by how little the story focused on a fucking traumatizing experience that it just shows on screen.

Garroth shows up at Kiki's barn because at this point, the jig is up. Everyone in Phoenix Drop knows who he is and who his brother is. And most people know he despises Zane and that Garroth is fundamentally a different person. But he still shoulders guilt for how bad it got for some people. Especially Kiki. He saw the way Zane looked at her, the way he fancied her. Even when he and Irena both warn her about Zane, Garroth still feels like he didn't do enough to prevent this.

He agonizes over how to talk to her and ends up pacing near the staircase up to her second floor while he tries to work it out. Garroth forgets that his armor is fucking LOUD and Kiki can hear him in her echoey ass barn, so she just yells at him to come upstairs and get this over with.

Garroth is eventually coaxed into revealing how guilty he feels about this happening. He starts to blame himself for it, and Kiki very quickly shuts that down. The only person at fault is Zane. There's no way Garroth could have known the depths of cruelty his brother would go to, and she doesn't want anyone being blamed for this other than Zane. She decided to keep Leona and raise her as her own, in spite of the man who helped create her.

Garroth apologizes for trying to shift the blame and resolves to instead ensure Zane isn't able to get that close to anyone he cares about. And he takes his role as Leona's uncle very seriously. For the time he gets to before the season 1 finale, Garroth often spends time around Kiki and Leona. Sometimes he'll baby sit so Kiki can get some rest, or he'll tell Kiki stories of what his youngest brother was like as a child. He quietly omits any mention of the middle brother.

Irena and Kiki have long talks about parenting and how Kiki plans to raise Leona. Irena keeps giving her this sad look, and Kiki admits that she's much more damaged than she lets on. But Irena has enough on her shoulders. Kiki admits that she's been processing a lot of this with Brendan and Donna, who she considers her very dear friends, and that while she's so happy Irena cares so much, it isn't her problem to worry about. She isn't allowed to blame herself for it, and she isn't allowed to try and take more onto her plate for Kiki's sake.

Gods I love Kiki so much. She's such an underrated character and I really want to explore her and other underutilized members of the village quite a bit more in this rewrite. Really make Phoenix Drop into the incredibly fucked up found family it was meant to be.

And let's be clear that even after 15 years, 15 years of healing, of loving, of having a life without Zane, of having a life with the daughter she adores, Kiki is still healing. There are scars on her stomach that will never go away. She's fairly confident she'll never be able to give birth again and has come to terms with that. She doesn't let herself be very intimate with people anymore, and anyone who knows her isn't pushy at all. They're just grateful that Kiki is incredibly strong and unbelievably stubborn.

One day Leona comes downstairs and some of her hair is covering her eye the same way Zane's did. Kiki tries to hide how tense and uncomfortable this makes her, asking Leona in a fairly roundabout way how she'd feel about a haircut. Even if Leona isn't fully aware of the situation at this point, she can tell that something's got her mom acting a little off. And the long hair is harder to maintain when she's trying to hunt.

Short hair Leona. That's it.

Even if it takes forever to get to this point, there's something fundamentally healing about Garroth getting to meet Leona. A lot has changed in the time he was gone, but Irena prepared him for a lot of it. What she couldn't have prepared him for is how it would feel to see a 15 year old Leona racing around the island chasing after some other kid like a feral beast. Like I'm so serious Garroth is so close to crying when he meets her.

Once Leona realizes who he is, she's ecstatic because she's heard so many stories about her uncle Garroth from her mom!! She's always wanted to meet him!! Garroth has a massive complex around his family and their impact on the lives of those around him, but when he gets to see how happy Kiki and Leona are, it kind of just melts away and he gets to spend an afternoon playing with his niece in the forest.

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HI IM OPENING UP COMMISSIONS SO I CAN HAVE MONEY FOR MY LOCAL COMIC AND TOY CON!

I am willing to do basically everything except porn ! Tell me what you want, pay me 20-40$ USD and I’ll draw whatever basically I don’t care if you’re on my DNI im genuinely desperate for help right now I work from 10am-3pm EST so if I don’t respond right away that’s why but it would help a ton thank you

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Sorry I haven’t posted in a few days, I fucked my entire right arm up to my shoulder blade and it’s super sore as fuck like it hurts to even move or type.

But I’ve been trying to paint Ein and Zane on my duplicate meemeows and omfg getting acrylic paint on your wrist brace? Literal nightmare

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Free therapy is drawing your fave in fits that went hard in high school

Text says

- beanie made by mom (shaved bald spot)

(Which actually is the reason I’m wearing a beanie in the pic my mom shaved a bald spot in my hair and she made the hat)

- gauged to 4 (I had gauged ears! Now he does too)

- drawstrings are earbuds (which actually is true my hoodie had hidden earbuds I abused the fuck out of and actually got caught watching aph and Dan and phil during class)