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Guysssss I got accepted for financial aid so I’m able to go back to college!! I’ll be going back in the fall semester so my goal is to lose as much as I can before then. Plus there’s a gym on campus so in between classes ima just walk on the treadmill 😇

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❣︎WIEIAD❣︎ 2-16-25

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Dinner: bagel 270 c@l, cream cheese 100 c@l, tuna 140 cal, tomatoes 2? C@l I had like five lmao, olipop 35 c@l

Sweet treat: chocolate rice cake 60 c@l

Total consumed: 605 c@l

Total burned: 700 c@l

Net total: -95

Grateful for an extremely busy day at work and for wandering the mall for a few hours without my wallet lmao

I coulda used a rice cake instead of the bagel and tbh I really thought about it but I knew I wanted the bagel and honestly now that I’ve had it I can 100% say I will not have an urge to binge at all tonight bc of it.

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Real

I am fueled by nicotine, caffeine, and vibes

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TW sh!!!!!!

Do u ever sh and then go to bed and wake up the next morning like oh.. right 😀 bc u see the frè$h cvtz on ur arm like omg I WAS trying to r!p my soul from my fle$h last night I forgot !!

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I hate how long it takes

I wanna see progress quicker

I want to look better now

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❣︎WIEIAD❣︎ 2-15-25

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Breakfast: coffee with almond milk 40 c@l

Lunch: one medium banana 105 c@l vegan ramen 180 c@l

Snack: chips 150 c@l

Dinner: 3 eggs 214 c@l cheese 100 c@l impossible sausage 110 c@l

Total: 900 c@l

Burned: 500 c@l

Net total: 400 c@l

I coulda done without the chips tbh but we were so busy at work and I felt dizzy :/ gonna fast tomorrow until OMAD and I plan to go on a walk around town after work so hopefully this won’t cause me to g@!n

Gn friends 💛

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Almost just threw my scale against the wall 😀 that thing is so lucky I’m here with my parents rn or it’d be in pieces istg

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need to get skinnier faster. like. hurry it up.

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I just chugged so much coffee I am BUZZING

But I’m not hungry 😇

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❣︎WIEIAD❣︎ 2-14-25

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Dinner:

Quest pizza: 650 c@l

Homemade ranch: 10 c@l

Ice cream bar: 200 c@al

Ate: 860 c@l

Burned: 280 c@l

Total: 580 c@l

I tried to be a bit more gentle with myself today I was having a bad SH overthinking day so I wanted chocolate to help my PMS lmao I know I suck. Pic below is of the pizza it’s a quest pizza and the whole thing is 650 c@l and SOOOO filling

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60 c@l ranch dressing recipe:

Time: 5 minutes

Serving: 1

Ingredients:

Two tablespoons of miracle whip 40 c@l

One half hidden valley ranch packet 10 c@l

Almond milk 30 c@l per cup

Lemon juice 0 c@l

Dill seasoning (bc I love dill) 0 c@l

Directions:

Mix miracle whip and ranch packet together until combined

Add splashes of milk until desired consistency is reached

Add lemon juice and dill to taste

Enjoy !

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Oh to be ✩skinny✩ and in love

I’ll win when this is my reality

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Sylvia Plath

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Mental breakdown bc my dad made my favorite food and I CANT EAT ANY OF IT

I already planned out my one meal for today

I can’t go over

I can’t eat it

I can’t eat it

I won’t eat it

No way I’m sobbing over food ?!??!??!

Just girly things

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Tw stupid little vent

I’m so fucking sad today bro. Idk if it’s bc it’s V day or what but I’m so upset with my body and how I look. I can’t even have a crush on a guy until I get skinny and I feel so worthless 😀 Ana is supposed to help me feel control but I’m spiraling more than I’d like to even admit it’s horrible.

And on top of that it’s not like I can even talk to anyone about it. None of my friends understand and either look at me with pity or tell me to just fucking get over it like I haven’t been trying since I was fucking 13. Ik im just screaming into the void but goddamnit if I’m not sad tired and lonely all the fucking time

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