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Finally back to fronting. Time to un-gain the weight my headmate put on us 🙃

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Headmate took front and ate and won't tell me what we had. Not logging today i fucking guess.

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Sorry for not posting the full log, it's been a really busy day. Ate out for dinner, no cals on the menu but i estimated around 700, which makes my daily total around 860. Was on my feet all day & did 45min of yoga. I'll be back to the usual programming tomorrow <3

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I bought my first dress today and oh. My god its perfect

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Log Thurs Feb 27, 2025

Weigh in day

Last weighed: Monday

Last weight: 124.0 lbs

Current weight: 122.8 lbs

Current bmi: 19.2

Gained: no

Lost: 1.2 lbs

In:

3 pm - black coffee - 0cal

4:25 pm - 0 sugar snickers - 110cal

6:15 pm - 3oz chicken breast w/ ginger adobo sauce & mashed potatoes - 315cal

8:30 pm - tea w/ milk - 22cal

8:30 pm - 2 gingersnaps - 60cal

9:30 pm - plain herbal tea - 0cal

11 pm - plain herbal tea - 0cal

Total cal: 507

under hard limit: yes

under soft limit: yes

Water - 68oz

Out:

Exercise:

walking: 2.5 miles in 50min

squats: 100

leg lifts: 10 sets each side, 4 sets together (sets of 20)

planks: 1 minute × 2

Purged: no

Est. Cals out: 180

Est. Net cals: 327

Today I still felt gross even though I did pretty well all things considered. Wish i could've hit 200cal burned. I feel so tired though. Trying to show myself some grace without falling out of control. Thinking of reaching out to people to be accountability buddies. I wish the results were faster. I'm gonna buy some plain seltzer water so I'm more likely to actually drink water during the day. Hoping my knees feel okay enough for some cycling tomorrow :)

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I know i missed yesterday. I was in the hospital (I'm okay, it wasn't anything too bad. May need surgery but it's not urgent.) I wasn't able to do my usual workout routine or walk, and my aunt took me out for dinner afterwards at a place with no cals on the menu. I feel like a failure a bit, but I know i can catch up. Trying to show myself a bit of grace. Almost done with today's log. Love u guys.

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a compiled lists of foods that encourage brain function 𖤐

i know a lot of people, including myself, have a ton of exams coming up. and even though bmi low grades high is literally impossible, i thought it’d be useful to make a list of those foods for those who will find it useful ! 🫶🏼

🤍 fruits & veg

- blueberries

- blackberries

- blackcurrants

- pomegranates

- strawberries

- oranges

- banana

- avocado

- broccoli

- red cabbage

- leafy greens (think spinach, lettuce, kale, etc)

- cauliflower

- mushrooms

- peppers

- sweet potato

🤍 poultry

- egg yolk

- fish (think salmon, mackerel, trout, herring, sardines)

- probably more, i can’t find it all right now

🤍 other

- nuts (specifically walnuts & almonds)

- pumpkin seeds

- wholegrains

- sage

- rosemary

- turmeric

- bone broth

- dark chocolate

- coffee

good luck everyone🫶🏼

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tips that aren't the same list from 2006

you know exactly what dumbass list I mean, and none of that shit is practical, it's giving uwu ana butterfly and we all know it

hi, I'm angel, I'm a nutrition major, and here are tips to keep yourself safe and hide your eating habits that actually make sense. this will not be in any particular order, but

avoid ketosis. i know, i know, you heard it burns fat faster! it also makes you smell like a dog rolled in sharpies and makes you stupid. i'm not kidding, you will be slow as fuck. avoid keto at all costs, carbs are better and healthier than being caught and dumb

take electrolytes and pay close attention to your potassium intake. if you neglect this, you will damage your heart and muscles and run the risk of having a heart attack. i use liquid IV because I have POTS and need the extra sodium, but that brand is also good for ED-havers because it has extra b vitamins

take ultra strength prenatal vitamins. they contain extra folate, fish oil, and dha, all of which are necessary to protect your heart and brain when you're not intaking much food.

For other supplements, I recommend Metamucil to keep your bowels going, iron, vitamin c packets (will make the iron absorb better, I personally use the +immunity ones), b-complex, calcium-magnesium-zinc, and vitamin d. Make sure the b-complex contains b-12. Feel free to send me an ask or dm me for dosages because some of these will depend on where you live geographically or what food you are eating.

find a protein shake you like. I'm a muscle milk bitch personally, but fairlife, premier, etc, are all good. make sure it isn't a meal replacement shake, and make sure it contains at least 20g of protein. these contain vitamins beyond protein that will help you stay healthy. the protein will also keep you full. i recommend using it as milk in coffee because the coffee will also suppress hunger and act as a mild laxative without harming the bowels. don't take your iron along with this, as dairy will hinder the absorption of iron.

don't take laxatives. you're going to give yourself IBD. maybe once a month as an extra cleanout you can do a little miralax, but the natural route is always better. regularly drink coffee and drink specifically senna green tea, they're both natural laxatives. the metamucil i recommend will also keep you going. if you need a bigger laxative effect, blend a whole peeled and seeded orange, a few inches of peeled fresh ginger, juice from a whole lemon, add a tsp each of cracked black pepper and turmeric, blend with coconut water until it's a thin smoothie consistency. drink that, you'll be good.

the best thing you can do for yourself is hide your behaviors behind health food gym girlie orthorexic behaviors. nobody takes orthorexia seriously and they encourage those behaviors. you can cut out whatever the hell you want if you're crunchy and healthy about it.

don't go too crazy about it. old tips would tell you to act like you loved food and it's really obvious. being obsessed with food and cooking is weird and obvious. don't talk about food constantly and make it your whole personality to try to hide, it's bizarre and one of the signs they tell parents to look out for. you have to be nonchalant. food is whatever. you like it, you have favorite meals, but you get tired of tastes quickly, you're picky about textures, you don't like it once it gets cold, etc. it's just fuel and it's meaningless to you. you eat for your health, not for pleasure.

high impact workouts like HIIT and running may not be the best idea. some studies show that high impact exercise stimulates hunger hormones in some individuals. pilates, ballet, and yoga are low impact, high results, and give a very desirable aesthetic. they're also quiet and can be done with a yoga mat and maybe a theraband.

get a job. get a hobby. join a sport. being out of your house as much as possible gives you the largest opportunity for excuses. oh my job catered lunch, oh there were snacks at practice, oh so and so brought something to the knitting circle. this can also be an opportunity to earn or save money (or swindle your mom out of cash by obtaining money for concessions at games and then only getting a diet coke)

if you control your own food, maximize your nutrition. salmon, tuna, sardines. kale, chard, spinach. beans, lentils. berries. protein pasta. pasture raised eggs. the fancy filtered fairlife milk. your body will hold out so much longer if you're keeping it fueled with proper vitamins and minerals.

track your food using cronometer - if someone sees it on your phone and asks, you have a perfect built-in excuse. oh, you don't care about the calories, but it tracks vitamin and mineral intake, and you're trying to make sure you're getting enough of those because you have, say, an iron deficiency or you're worried you're not getting enough omega-3s.

anorexic hair is really obvious. it's from malnutrition and stress. absolutely ensure you're getting enough omega-3s and other fats in your diet (avocados, eggs, oily fish, nuts like walnuts) to avoid the anorexia hair and the sallow, dry skin. this is also why i insist you take vitamin d, iron, vitamin c, a b-complex, and a pre-natal with folate and dha, those will also protect your hair and skin health. also make sure you're trimming dead ends, get a deep conditioner and/or bond repair treatment, do scalp massages, and if it does fall out, start using a mousse for volume and get a cut to maximize volume to hide it.

keep up your oral, skin, and nail health, too. these can also be obvious indicators. if you're taking the vitamins and keeping to the foods i'm recommending, it'll help, but make sure you're brushing and flossing, use the nasty brown listerine, a good dry skin lotion like curel, and a nail oil. keep your nails short if they start peeling, but if they're peeling, you need to take more vitamin d and iron, or you could have celiac disease.

there's no such thing as a broken metabolism, and you can't boost or slow down your metabolism. those are myths. the only way to make your bmr higher is to have more muscle.

extra tip: if you start fainting, tell people you have or think you have POTS. work smarter not harder.

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I did it before, I can do it again

I did it before, I can do it again

I did it before, I can do it again

I did it before, I can do it again

I did it before, I can do it again

I did it before, I can do it again

I did it before, I can do it again

I did it before, I can do it again

I did it before, I can do it again

I did it before, I can do it again

Lose the weight. You did it before, so you can do it again.

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Log Tues Feb 25, 2025

In:

2:15 pm - 16oz tea w/ fat free milk - 18cal

2:45 pm - 1 cup low sodium chicken broth - 5cal

Total cal: 700 (rounded)

6:15 pm - 50g soda bread - about 170cal

7:30 pm - 3oz chicken breast, mashed potatoes, chicken gravy & corn - 420cal

8 pm - 3 gingersnaps - 90cal

under hard limit: yes

under soft limit: no

Water - 64oz

Out:

Exercise:

walking: 1.5 miles, 25 minutes

squats: 2 sets of 20

leg lifts: 2 sets each side, 2 sets together (sets of 20)

planks: 1 minute × 2

Purged: no

Est. Cals out: 118

Est. Net cals: 582

Had 3 doc appts today so i couldn't fit in much exercise. I almost passed out during my last appointment, ate the bread when i got home to curb it. Immediately felt guilty & gross abt it. Was embarrassed about almost passing out when i had already broken my im fast for the day. I thought it would feel validating like it used to, but this time i just felt weak and like a fraud :/

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Log Mon Feb 24, 2025

Weigh-in day

Last weighed: yesterday

Last weight: 124.6 lbs

Today's weight: 124.0 lbs

Gained: no

Lost: 0.6 lbs

In:

1:45 pm - 24oz coffee w whole milk - 40cal

4 pm - small apple & 1 tsp pb fit - 105cal

7:30 pm - 2 battered fish fillets w tartar sauce, potato wedges, and sautéed broccoli - 467 cal

8:30 pm - tea w fat free milk - 22cal

10:30 pm - 2 ginger snaps - 60 cals

Total cal: 694

under hard limit: yes

under soft limit: no

Water - 64oz

Out:

Exercise:

walking: 1hr 10min, 3.75 miles

push ups: 3 sets of 15

leg lifts: 10 sets each side, 4 sets together (sets of 20)

planks: 1 minute × 4

Est. Net cals: 429

Purged?: no

Est. Cals burned: 265

Feeling slightly better than I did about yesterday's. The feeling of my legs squishing against the mattress when I lie down is disgusting me. I may just keep going after I post the log.

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Hi!! Welcome to my blog :3

I'm Pj, I'm 21! I'm not new to tumblr, just back after yet another failed recovery attempt 🙃

Fair warning, this is an ED blog & will contain body checks & numbers related to weight & calories. I will try to censor things best i can, but if anything like that is triggering for you, i recommend leaving now. I'm not here to stop anyone from recovering, and I'm not trying to undo or minimize others' recovery goals and/or progress. The purpose of this blog is to record my actions & experiences and find a sense of community :)

Stats, tags & more under the cut <3

I have been disordered for a while now, so my numbers are kind of all over the place 💀 i was diagnosed with anorexia in 2020 and bulimia in 2023. Currently I would most fit the criteria for ana b/p. have attempted recovery more times than I can keep track of, but i always end up back here :/

also, before I start, my dms and asks are always open if anyone needs advice or wants someone to help keep each other accountable :) please only dm me if you're 18+ though, I'm not comfortable with helping minors with this stuff unless it's recovery or harm reduction related, it just feels gross to me. 👍

Stats!

Height: 5'7

HW: 190-195 lbs (unsure of the exact number) (approx. bmi 30)

LW: 97.1 lbs (bmi 15.2)

CW: 122.8 lbs (bmi 19.2)

GW 1: 115 lbs (bmi 18)

GW 2: 100 lbs (bmi 15.6)

UGW: 85 lbs (bmi 13.3)

I generally weigh myself Monday, Wednesday and Friday, but occasionally I will weigh in an extra day or 2 if i feel like it's necessary. I will try to keep my pinned up to date :)

Daily routine & limits!

soft limit: 600 cals

Hard limit: 900 cals

Everything over the hard limit has to either be purged or exercised off (this is in addition to my daily 150+ cals burned!)

I try to walk at least a mile every day, but I am physically disabled and it's not always possible for me to do so. I do my best to make up for missed mileage on low symptom days.

My other exercises include leg lifts, JustDance, squats, chin ups, push ups, jumping jacks, planks & sit ups. I rotate my activities based on the day to give my body a chance to rest & avoid injury. My daily goal is 60 minutes of whatever exercises I choose & minimum 150 cals burned, but I usually just go until I get too tired or I feel like I'm over-exerting. On days when it's too hard to move, i let myself rest and just stick to my usual cal limits. I used to be a lot harsher about it but nowadays i can actually rely on future-me to make up the missed exercise, and I'd rather make it up a day or 2 later than risk getting injured and having my movement restricted for much longer than that as a result 💀

Tag system!

My daily logs & notes: #logs 📖

My body checks: #gallery 💝

Meal photos (not common for me, but may happen!): #eats 🍳

Updates & announcements: #loudspeaker 📣

Venting: #vent 🙃

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Log Sun Feb 23, 2025

In:

5:30 pm - 24oz coffee w/ milk - 40cal

6:20 pm - blackberry liftoff packet - 15cal

7 pm - 2.5oz pasta with tomato sauce & half an Italian sausage - about 450cal (not entirely sure as i didn't make it myself)

9:45 pm - 25g slice of soda bread - about 85cal (again, not totally sure as i didn't make it)

10:15 pm - tea with milk - 30cal

10:20 pm - 2 gingersnaps - 60cal (30 each)

Total cal - approx. 680

under hard limit: yes

under soft limit: no

Water - 56oz

Out:

Exercise:

Walking- 55min (about 2.6 miles) (slower than usual bc of ice & traffic)

Leg lifts- 8 sets individually, 4 sets together (sets of 20)

Chin ups- 20 total (went as many in a row as i could, avg was 4 bc my arms are weak as fuck 😭)

Push ups- 3 sets (sets of 15)

Squats- skipped, i slipped on ice on my walk and my knee was too fucked for squats 💀

Purged?: no

Est. Cals out - 240

Est. Net cals - 440

Overall not too bad. I'm not that happy about it, but I'm not as disappointed as I've been with myself lately. Desperately hope I keep up like this.

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