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Hey. Hey you. I'm in the @impandskizz-zine >:))

Also I made a new pfp, full version under the cut :D

I guess this is my sona now? I've spent a long time designing them (just ask Enkay lol), and also been practicing backgrounds recently, so this feels like the culmination of a lot of things. I'm very happy with how it turned out!! Good colors :)

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It's been a while since you updated so maybe I'm bothering you over an abandoned fic, if that's the case I'm so sorry D:

But I've just finished reading your This Side of the Screen fic and I am OBSESSED. It's so good, I love how you write all the characters, the general writing is incredible and the artwork is so gorgeous.

You're super talented!!!! Hope you're doing well <3333

You're not bothering me!! It's just been very difficult for me to work on for a lot of reasons, one of the biggest being that I actually dropped out of college this past semester for mental health reasons. It was kinda a vent fic, in a way, and a lot of the inspo came from my own college experiences, but it's also generally been hard to consistently work on anything at all. The lils au is easier because Enkay is working with me and reminds me all the time, plus we'll just talk and talk for hours about our world, which makes me want to write. It's just something tsots doesn't have.

THAT SAID! I have not abandoned the fic (yet). I've considered it, but I really want to finish, since it's the first thing I've ever posted. That might mean I cut a few chapters out, but so be it, I want it done. I'm not sure exactly what I'll end up doing, but for now, the next chapter is already a couple thousand words and climbing, slowly but surely. I would give a timeline for when I'll have it done, but tbh, I have no idea.

Thank you for the kind words, though! Honestly, the biggest thing I need to do is just put aside a set amount of time daily/weekly, because whenever I do sit down to write, I end up putting out around 1000 words. If I could just do it consistently (daily would be the goal, tbh), the whole thing would be done in a couple months. But alas.

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Werewolf Pearl needs to be a more common headcannon. I mean, it's right there: wolves, the moon, the crazy, 5 am pearl, etc etc

If you want to know about Werewolf Pearl in my au, click this post :)

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More background + colors practice!! He forgot he doesn't have wings..,

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oh my god I love the new art so much!

the slight iridescence of skizz's wings... impulse's tail loosely curled around his legs... absolutely adorable!! them kissing on a picnic blanket makes me think of that really sweet skizzpulse fic you wrote, now I've got the urge to go reread it again lol. and the background is lovely!! I especially like the way you did the clouds and the trees, but the whole thing's gorgeous!

really awesome, thank you for sharing!

This sort of thing makes me sooo happy you have no ideaaaa !!!

I wasn't originally gonna post that one, it was just meant to be practice, but I really loved how it turned out, and I'm so happy people seem to like it, too! I'm actually gonna make more pieces in that style, so thank you thank you for your kind words :D

I didn't even think of the lil skizzpulse ficlet I wrote lol, but you're right that it does fit perfectly :)

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Trying to practice backgrounds but the stupids haunt me

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LOOK AT THEM ALLLLLLLL, LOOK AT THEM.

I don't even know how long this took rip, I kinda wish I would've kept track, but alas. Worth it though! I've always wanted to participate in one of these month-long challenges (though, I thought I'd be doing writing instead of art, maybe next time ;), and I'm so happy that I actually got everything done! And with the bonus Empires and Life Series peeps, too :D

Anyways, I just wanted to make one large post with all the full photos, so there you go, you're welcome. I like that you can see the progress in my art style through the month (though, these aren't in chronological order, so good luck knowing which came first lol)

Also lots of love to @enkays-den for brainstorming all these photos with me, helping me find references, getting backgrounds, everything!! Not to mention, ya know. writing the thing with me?? Best creative partner everrrrr

Tagging this is gonna be a nightmare...

EDIT

apparently tumblr only lets u have 30 tags, i just spent forever writing all them but alas. they have been deleted. so here's more random thoughts, then ill just tag the important stuff (even though theres 37 people....)

#also unexpected favorite:#wels and katherine#i dont watch either of them#but their DESIGN#ITS SO GOOD#i love them#and their lore is fire#btw everyone has in-depth developed lore#this is the most planning ive ever done for a fic#probably bc im working with enkay#and theyre obsessed with worldbuilding#like#our conversations are so good#i love making this story#so i hope yall love reading it#<3

Also if you want to see the other links: All journal posts, @hermitadaymay fundraiser post, and go follow @enkays-den for all the hard work they do!! + click to see our fic ao3

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@enkays-den you are stronger than any US Marine, my guy, you name the drabble and I will try my best to write it holy fuck

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About the 'Skizz Situation' and why the fan community is not being a good representation of what it wants to claim.

Before I get started, I need y'all to read this with an open mind and an open heart. This is not an attack on you, or at all. It is me pointing out what I see and hoping to bring stuff to your attention. For those who don't know, the 'light' (and ultimately not entirely correct) synopsis going around is that Skizz got a donator asked Skizz to say 'trans rights' and he didn't because it was 'too political'. The reality? Skizz was chilling and vising with his chat having some good times and stuff, didn't vet the dono before starting to read it outloud, and that dono more or less said that they were a 'long time' viewer of Skizz and (the wording almost felt aggressive/accusing) didn't feel he did enough for the community and wanted him to say Trans rights. Skizz in the moment and trying to keep things light said he was just wanting to vibe with his chat and didn't want his channel to address things too 'political' (he clarified later he meant Polarizing) and he has nothing against nobody. He then followed up in the comments that clarification (which, lets be real, it is polarizing) that he didn't want his community to foster hatred in his comment section and its not the forum to have those debates (which is FINE. He is allowed to have boundaries. Those boundaries were set not just for himself but to protect his LGBTQ+ watchers) and of course he supports the LGBTQ+ community and Trans rights. Something else I wish to point out: This donator claimed to be a long time viewer of Skizz. Frankly I don't believe them or anyone who who is listening to any of this. He has been MORE than open about his support of the community in the past, and often. His last stream before all this was even him talking with Gem and Lizzy, two Bi women, about Bi stuff. That dono was made to stir the pot. To either make him say something to cause hatred in his comment space, or make him slip up and get the community to dislike him. So- how is the community a poor representation of what we claim? Well a lot of the claims the LGBTQ+ community makes is wanting people to grow. To want Allies. To support other discriminated groups. So- They see this Man- this DISABLED man (Skizz has MS) who has OPENLY SUPPORTED them in the past, make a slip up of words, and refuse to understand where is is coming from, why he may want to keep things 'good vibes' and just more normalized (because the very much Gay coded jokes and stuff he and Imp and Gem and the others make NORMALIZES the community which is AMAZING), Who himself is straight and comes from a very red state so may not 100% understand how to word what he means correctly, and basically tries to burn him at the stake. To take away his income. People want to Boycott him over this. To basically destroy his life. (Because he quit his Job to be a full time content creator, and he is still a very small one at that.) Tell me, how does that make anyone ever want to support this community? How does that show kindness and understanding? To make people want to grow? How does any of this treatment make you the better person? Because, long story short, it doesn't.

Now some of you are bringing up his mods, how two may be trump supporters. True or not (I haven't seen evidence of this? But I won't dismiss it), you also need to think of a few things in terms of that. They have been his mods for 5+ years. Mods often are close and friends of the streamers, especially small streamers which he is/was. People, can be friends with people of different political parties. You may not want to, but when I tell you that cutting people off because of a political opinion is new, its NEW. And a lot from the older gen wouldn't even dream of it. Furthermore they are (as far as I know) volunteers. He does not pay them (again, small streamer). He needs mods to run his channels and without them he can not do his job safely, especially for his community. And many people will not do this job for Free (at least not well). He can't just replace them overnight. Give him time to have those hard conversations if he chooses to have them. It's not like they have even brought those beliefs into their work or his streams. Long story short, Be good. Not just to each other but to Skizz himself. Have the understanding you would want people to have for you if you slip up with good intentions. Crucifying someone who supports y'all does nothing good for this community.

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Having experienced a lot of it in my 20s, I think some of the worst, pettiest, most straight up this-is-just-bullying-you're-passing-off-as-praxis incidences of Queer Infighting endemic to young people can be best understood as attempts to exercise power by people with very little power.

Like you're 22, you're queer, you've just become a Marxist, the scope of World Suck is overwhelming and you have $30 in your bank account. What can you do to feel like you have any power? Well, you can try to get your frenemy cancelled for cosplaying a character from a problematic show. You can write a public callout post over someone's obviously friendly use of a slur you don't think they technically have the right to reclaim. Doing this stuff can make you feel like you have power and your actions have an impact. Unfortunately the impact in question is a negative impact on other marginalized people. But that often takes some maturity and self-reflection to notice.

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Day 38: Fwhip!!! (LAST DAY!!!!!)

WE DID IT!!!! All the Hermits, Life series, and even empires folks are in our story :D And they all have complex, developed backstories that Enkay and I have come up with. If you've been around for the whole month, we both really appreciate you! We'll be getting back to the actual writing part of writing now, so look forward to more chapters coming soon :D Walleye out!

For the last time: All journal posts, @hermitadaymay fundraiser post, and go follow @enkays-den for all the hard work they do!! + click to see our fic ao3

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Day 37: Katherine!!!

My other unexpected favorite!! I absolutely adore her and Wel's design. They're some of my favorites :D I'm even including a colors version under the cut, I love them so much :))

As always: All journal posts, @hermitadaymay fundraiser post, and go follow @enkays-den for all the hard work they do!! + click to see our fic ao3

Unfortunately the background can't be color converted right now, but here's the base colors I used! I love them soooooo much <3

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Day 36: Sausage >:3

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Day 35: Pix

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Day 34: Scott

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Day 33: Oli :3

And we get to release the full version of this photo! This is the trio I was most excited to design :D

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Happy pride month! Inspired by this clip

Here's the lil bit of story I came up with:

They were going to have a party, but all their friends cancelled/nobody showed up. Skizz is upset bc he was gonna make Impulse play spin the bottle. Impulse jokes that they can still play, they agree to do it with stuffed animals instead and like,,, really commit to the bit. Full make-out session with a plushie. The idea tickles them so much they can't stop laughing. And then... well. Things don't go according to plan :) also skizz is so eager to spin bc he wants to kiss Impulse again