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Reminder, I have a Patreon!

New, exclusive art going up regularly, along with VR dance videos and short stories once in a while!

Benefits for SFW and NSFW tier members alike, and a third type of tier you can subscribe to in order to gain the benefits of both at a reduced price!

I also have a ko-fi, which I'm taking donations on so I can afford HRT!

You can find the Patreon here: https://www.patreon.com/CaxyMagic And the Ko-Fi here: https://ko-fi.com/davinaseltz/goal?g=49

(Or you can click the underlined names of the sites)

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Davina Seltz - Say So (by Doja Cat)

I like doing these little VR Dance Videos.

Oh and...Davina fans will be eating very, VERY well over on Patreon. This isn't the only video I recorded today, but it is the only one involving clothes...

Patreon can be found here

I've got six more videos, which will be uploaded every Friday at noon over the next six weeks, with the first one uploading today in a few minutes, all exclusive to NSFW tiers on Patreon.

I also intend to start uploading my sketches more, both sfw and nsfw, for Patrons.

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Raising money again, work isn't working out yet and my roommates are both between jobs now.

https://www.paypal.com/pools/c/93ubHV9iTJ

Spread word, donate, whatever you can do.

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Some pictures of my new avatar on VRChat! Base model was the Kitfox

Was fun to make, hopefully I can make more soon!

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Guess what!

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A quick vid in VR, been a while.

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Some goofery I had the other night with @that-one-enby-onyx in VRChat recently, along with friends Rio and NewGnu!

Pictures were all taken by @that-one-enby-onyx ^-^

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Another boost to this cause I had to get cell service to try and look into work-from-home jobs and it set me back on savings. :(

I promise guys I'll get back to writing and such as soon as I can, but right now I need to focus on the things that bring in money so I can get out and be somewhere that will allow me the chance to do so.

I hate to do this but

I need help. I need

so much fucking help.

There are a few major things I need.

TL;DR at the bottom, but I'd appreciate you read this to fully understand the situation I'm in.

I need to reacclimate to driving vehicles, so I can get from place to place on my own, but to do that I need help from someone willing to ride with me and help me feel calm in adjusting to being behind the wheel again.

I need to find work, consistent work, that pays at a regular rate, which isn't overwhelmingly fast-paced. Night shift, anywhere, or work from home, or even day shift at a place that isn't rapid-fire energetic work.

I need to save up, be able to put money back so I have enough for emergencies like car wrecks or hospital trips or some such, and so I have enough to save a nest egg to live off of eventually.

As it stands, my only two options for who can help me with driving outright refuse to do so. They won't give me the opportunity to get behind the wheel, and when asked why, it's because they just don't want to take the time for it. These are the same people who simply "didn't want to take the time" to help me reach a dentist before my health insurance ran out. The same people who demand I help them at every turn and lecture me on selfishness when I tell them I don't feel well enough to do it.

I can't find work. The only work from home jobs here call for certifications, licenses, neither of which i have, or they call for several hours of uninterrupted focus, which I can't get here because if anything as drastic as the dog sneezing happens, I'm the one ordered to deal with it. I don't have one uninterrupted hour, let alone enough for a full shift of work. As for out-of-home work, the only places within safe walking distance are the post office (which I failed the assessment for and can't retake for a year) or the cotton gin (which isn't hiring for any positions I qualify for). So with no options in town, I have to drive (see problem 1) to find work. Which I can't do. So I can't find work outside of my streaming and avatar comms, the former of which earns roughly $20-$25 a month, and doesn't pay until earnings hit $50...Basically, I'm earning $60-$70 every 2 months. I can't live off that.

And that leads to the saving issue. I make a max of $70 every 2 months, and a friend sends me $50 every 2 weeks to help me, which totals to $100 one month and $170 every other month if I earn the absolute maximum from my streams. The $100 of the first month goes to groceries, every time. It has to. The second $100 goes to groceries of that month, $50 goes to my phone bill because I have to have service for family emergencies, and the last $20 winds up going either to more groceries or to what miniscule enrichments I can get for myself to keep from going insane here. Which means I wind up with a profit of anywhere from $0-$20 every 2 months, depending on whether that 20 actually gets spent or not. And of course, if it isn't one month, it's spent the next for groceries. I have next to no profit, no savings.

Living here is poisoning me. I live in a sunroom. Not a bedroom, not "part of the house", not an apartment or studio. A sunroom. A singular room that contains every single thing I own, a mattress on the floor, and for the record, as a sunroom, it leads directly outside. Want to see my door?

That is the door between my room and the outside world. That, and a single glass door secured by a very small, very rusted door latch on one side, is my only protection from the elements and any potential intruders. The door, as you can see, isn't even fitted to the frame. It's held in place by gravity and a single nail.

And yes, that is the breaker box behind it, entirely uncovered and with exposed wiring. Should I make it worse?

That door, held up only by gravity and a single nail, were it to fall, would fall directly onto my bed. Why is my pillow at the closest end? Well because I can't sleep with my head at the other end because my totes with all of my stuff are at the other end, and the mice like running on top of those totes and I would rather not sleep head-closest to the end they play at. That big TV? Busted, belongs to my mom's husband, and they have nowhere else to put it. That monitor beside it? Busted, because my brother broke it trying to stand on his computer chair and rather than throw it out, they had him put it in here with "the other screen".

The clutter on my bed? A hot glue gun kit a friend bought me which has literally nowhere else to be.

TL;DR and conclusions

I can't take the steps to better myself alone. I need as much help as I can get. And given my major problems right now revolve around a lack of jobs/opportunities, inability to drive alone + nobody willing to ride with me, and inability to save up because of expenses, I can really only look at the things I can reach out for help on.

I've reached out to some friends to help me look for options regarding new living arrangements, but those arrangements mean nothing if I can't afford to go, or worse, can't afford to stay.

I've got to save up. I've got to have enough to put back. So that leads me to the ending note here.

If you can spare even one dollar, ANY amount of money, at all, it would help immensely. If you can't, then please reblog, spread the word and help me reach more people so I might finally get out of this place. Every cent given this way is going straight into a savings account, not to be spent until absolutely needed, or until an opportunity to get out of here surfaces.

You can help me through paypal or cashapp, either one. Cashtag is $Aazoth, Paypal fundraiser linked below. Don't stress over the amount, I only set it to the maximum because I need as much as I can get and I wasn't sure what to expect so...better safe than sorry, given idk how the fundraisers on there work. I'd have set it to end later but I can't. I'll update y'all with a new one when this one ends.

@sparrowcraft @moremysteriesthantragedies @thetruearchmagos @a-scaly-troublemaker @that-one-enby-onyx @snakelovingnerd @eldritchx @leisoree @amerylise @profoundlyhauntedclaws @thefinalgoat @leisurelywingedlemon

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More important than ever. I've found other living arrangements and now need only get the money to afford the move. Every cent helps.

Reblogging this on all my side blogs too just to get the word out better.

I hate to do this but

I need help. I need

so much fucking help.

There are a few major things I need.

TL;DR at the bottom, but I'd appreciate you read this to fully understand the situation I'm in.

I need to reacclimate to driving vehicles, so I can get from place to place on my own, but to do that I need help from someone willing to ride with me and help me feel calm in adjusting to being behind the wheel again.

I need to find work, consistent work, that pays at a regular rate, which isn't overwhelmingly fast-paced. Night shift, anywhere, or work from home, or even day shift at a place that isn't rapid-fire energetic work.

I need to save up, be able to put money back so I have enough for emergencies like car wrecks or hospital trips or some such, and so I have enough to save a nest egg to live off of eventually.

As it stands, my only two options for who can help me with driving outright refuse to do so. They won't give me the opportunity to get behind the wheel, and when asked why, it's because they just don't want to take the time for it. These are the same people who simply "didn't want to take the time" to help me reach a dentist before my health insurance ran out. The same people who demand I help them at every turn and lecture me on selfishness when I tell them I don't feel well enough to do it.

I can't find work. The only work from home jobs here call for certifications, licenses, neither of which i have, or they call for several hours of uninterrupted focus, which I can't get here because if anything as drastic as the dog sneezing happens, I'm the one ordered to deal with it. I don't have one uninterrupted hour, let alone enough for a full shift of work. As for out-of-home work, the only places within safe walking distance are the post office (which I failed the assessment for and can't retake for a year) or the cotton gin (which isn't hiring for any positions I qualify for). So with no options in town, I have to drive (see problem 1) to find work. Which I can't do. So I can't find work outside of my streaming and avatar comms, the former of which earns roughly $20-$25 a month, and doesn't pay until earnings hit $50...Basically, I'm earning $60-$70 every 2 months. I can't live off that.

And that leads to the saving issue. I make a max of $70 every 2 months, and a friend sends me $50 every 2 weeks to help me, which totals to $100 one month and $170 every other month if I earn the absolute maximum from my streams. The $100 of the first month goes to groceries, every time. It has to. The second $100 goes to groceries of that month, $50 goes to my phone bill because I have to have service for family emergencies, and the last $20 winds up going either to more groceries or to what miniscule enrichments I can get for myself to keep from going insane here. Which means I wind up with a profit of anywhere from $0-$20 every 2 months, depending on whether that 20 actually gets spent or not. And of course, if it isn't one month, it's spent the next for groceries. I have next to no profit, no savings.

Living here is poisoning me. I live in a sunroom. Not a bedroom, not "part of the house", not an apartment or studio. A sunroom. A singular room that contains every single thing I own, a mattress on the floor, and for the record, as a sunroom, it leads directly outside. Want to see my door?

That is the door between my room and the outside world. That, and a single glass door secured by a very small, very rusted door latch on one side, is my only protection from the elements and any potential intruders. The door, as you can see, isn't even fitted to the frame. It's held in place by gravity and a single nail.

And yes, that is the breaker box behind it, entirely uncovered and with exposed wiring. Should I make it worse?

That door, held up only by gravity and a single nail, were it to fall, would fall directly onto my bed. Why is my pillow at the closest end? Well because I can't sleep with my head at the other end because my totes with all of my stuff are at the other end, and the mice like running on top of those totes and I would rather not sleep head-closest to the end they play at. That big TV? Busted, belongs to my mom's husband, and they have nowhere else to put it. That monitor beside it? Busted, because my brother broke it trying to stand on his computer chair and rather than throw it out, they had him put it in here with "the other screen".

The clutter on my bed? A hot glue gun kit a friend bought me which has literally nowhere else to be.

TL;DR and conclusions

I can't take the steps to better myself alone. I need as much help as I can get. And given my major problems right now revolve around a lack of jobs/opportunities, inability to drive alone + nobody willing to ride with me, and inability to save up because of expenses, I can really only look at the things I can reach out for help on.

I've reached out to some friends to help me look for options regarding new living arrangements, but those arrangements mean nothing if I can't afford to go, or worse, can't afford to stay.

I've got to save up. I've got to have enough to put back. So that leads me to the ending note here.

If you can spare even one dollar, ANY amount of money, at all, it would help immensely. If you can't, then please reblog, spread the word and help me reach more people so I might finally get out of this place. Every cent given this way is going straight into a savings account, not to be spent until absolutely needed, or until an opportunity to get out of here surfaces.

You can help me through paypal or cashapp, either one. Cashtag is $Aazoth, Paypal fundraiser linked below. Don't stress over the amount, I only set it to the maximum because I need as much as I can get and I wasn't sure what to expect so...better safe than sorry, given idk how the fundraisers on there work. I'd have set it to end later but I can't. I'll update y'all with a new one when this one ends.

@sparrowcraft @moremysteriesthantragedies @thetruearchmagos @a-scaly-troublemaker @that-one-enby-onyx @snakelovingnerd @eldritchx @leisoree @amerylise @profoundlyhauntedclaws @thefinalgoat @leisurelywingedlemon

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Some pictures taken in a recent VR session.

Was playing Fate of the Irrbloss with my friends Snperkiller, Allubillis, NikkyHusky, and new friend Korron!

Snper is the vernid with the dark blue fur and white chest fur.

Allubillis is the green rapter with the pretty blue eyes.

Korron is the grey rex with the red eyes.

Nikky is the blue husky with the sweet face and green hair.

Had a great time with them, can't wait for the next ^-^

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A few pictures taken recently.

The black and white photos were taken in a world that had a saturation and contrast menu built into the world itself, and I absolutely HAD to try them out.

An ex of mine had some medical issues that left them fully colorblind (monochromatic, greyscale, whatever you wanna call it) and the chance to see the world the way they did was...well, I couldn't pass it up.

It just reminded me that there's a lot we take for granted in this world. Something so basic and simple as color, and there are those who just...don't get to experience it. Truth be told it broke my heart. Sure, the world is still pretty in monochrome, but...To live your whole life without ever knowing color would be so saddening..

This one's for you, Jack. Still in my thoughts, even if we don't talk anymore.

And of course, as always...

I am open for avatar commissions. Pricing, details, examples, etc, at the link below (warning, NSFW content is present on the page)

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Reminder, I am open for VRChat avatar commissions.

You can see examples of my own, personal avatar all over this blog, and you can find pricing, ToS, other examples, and more, over at my Trello found here.

You can DM me on here, or contact me at any of the contact info options listed on the Trello, and we'll talk about your commission. ^-^

Be sure to read ToS, Customer Agreement, and Seller Guarantees before contacting!

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Wasn't feeling too hot in VR tonight, honestly.

Just thinking of the upcoming holidays, the big three, halloween, thanksgiving, and christmas.

And the fact that, like every year for the last ten years, I have absolutely nothing to look forward to besides reminders that they're absolutely meaningless in my family.

And while my friends will be busy with family plans and such, I'll be sat in my little sunroom, alone, like I am every single day, because everyone who would celebrate with me is a thousand miles away.

And I'm alone.

Again.

You know the deal, trello in pinned, open for comms.

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Some caxy goofery in VRChat last night.

Not only did I learn to cast Caxy Bubble with caxy magic, but I learned a shield spell too~!

And I got to play with a ball!

And as always, I'm open for avatar commissions! Want an avatar of your own with a custom texture, outfits, and such? Check the Trello in my pinned post for pricing, contact info, ToS, and more~!

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Some pics from VR today~!

And as always, I am open for VRChat avatar comms! I made my own avatar as well as the grey mouse you see in the photos! Trello link with more examples, pricing, tos, contact info, and more is available in my pinned post!

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A few pics taken in VR before my movie with the boys started tonight

BTW! I do VRChat Avatar comms! Link to my trello should be in pinned post, it's got contact info, pricing, ToS, more examples of my work, etc!