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Just create day 17

Weird opossum child idk

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Seal ultrasound, the eyes

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Minecraft styled pc

Just started this project so not finished yet

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The Survivor

Sometimes I hate being a survivor, at times I can't think of one good thing that comes from it. Each trial, test, and dark path just leaves me with more debuffs and negative stats, some lasting long and others permanent. There's no reward or trophy for surviving, maybe pissing on a grave or two but not even that is a strong enough incentive to survive more rounds and trials.

The survivor gets no praise, no comfort,no sympathy, if the survivor receives anything at all it's pity, judgment and disdain. They either don't believe your trials are gruesome or judge you for doing what you had to do to survive.

I'm a survivor. It made me a monster but I have no shame. Judge me all you want for what I did, for what I became, that's fine. Fear and pity me all you wish, you think you're hurting me that your judgment will pressure me into societal reform, but you don't know the monster in me, the monster I am, the monster that I made. I feed on it, your judgment,pity, glares and hate, it all gives me a joy that nothing else does and brings a sinister smile to my face, one that only makes the masses judge more.

But the glares of feed me, the desire for revenge, to be the last one standing the more I heal from survivors trauma the less these things fulfill me, the less they propelled me forward. Now I'm stuck in the road, the desire to continue dwindling

I'm a survivor. Our days are numbered from the moment our trials start, no matter when they start, how late or early you're a survivor, an unchangeable fate. If only that status be brand clearly on my skin so others would see the visible marring and know I suffered cruelty, maybe then I'd receive compassion and honest belief of my testament,but no even if that wish would have come true it would never be fulfilled in its proper intent, for others always corrupt tails and frame themselves above others.

I'm a survivor, my days are numbered, my miles marked, my tales fall on deaf ears so I resolve not to tell the tale at all.

My only companion my monster, and it's only me, when the days and maybe then we will be set free.

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Day 16 just create project

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Working on a scene for characters from yesterday

Day 15 just create project

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Dnd characters

Day 14 just create project

Frog paladin, mystery warlock, bat ranger, and

Teacup lindwurm who lives in the cooler and says odd wisdom in riddle at inconvenient times

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I hate my limitations and how my body punishes me for trying to enjoy life.

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Day 13 just create project

Yeah I know the second one is creepy but it is what it is

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Some days I feel locked out of myself. Like yeah im kinda driving the meat suit but I have no access to inner workings.

I can feel things but idk why I am or what's the cause and I cant get into control center to investigate.

I hate being locked out cause I know what it's like to get in there and find the root, but now I cant, try all I want i cant get in.

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Really not feeling like doing anything today.

Definitely didn't wanna do my daily yoga but I did, sure i lacked my usual drive and stuff but I did something so that's better then nothing.

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Lil felt bear with flowers stuffed with fluff and lavender

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Day 12 just create project

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Day 11 just create

Shopping with Ghost

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Day 10 just create project

Just an abstract doodle to start the day

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Just create day 9

I know he looks creepy but let's just love creepy Ghost and support his murderer endeavors

Also my fine tip marker was dying