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[cherryblossomsies]

trigger warning: fake death, suicide, racism, profanities, sexual remark.

to people that could be confused as onto what i’m trying to talk about, this post is in conjunction to my other two previous posts. (1) (2)

many words are all jumbled up in my mind at the current moment, i don’t know how to write a proper opening to this post so i’m just going to get straight to the point, and finished this as quickly as possible.

based on my previous post, i have mentioned that there was an engene who ‘committed’ suicide because of a lot of attacks she received from other engenes. it came to a light that none of those stories were true, and that someone was faking the whole thing. the whole matter left me in utter disgust and shock. to anyone who is reading this,

faking a death is never okay.

and when you fake a death using racism as it’s core of reasoning, it’s even worse.

it started in twitter when user named @jhtaeri (rei) supposedly committed suicide and one of her friends named kairo (@04sfile) announced her passing away it on social media. the thing is, rei does not exist. both of the accounts mentioned above belongs to the same person. the perpetrator, kairo made up all of these including rei’s existence and faked a death.

the pronoun he used was ‘she’ but he actually goes by ‘he/him’. he used someone else’s face and voice and admitted to it. he even thought that the whole situation and what he just did was funny. personally, i don’t know who the hell is this person is (and i don’t have any need to know him) but one thing for sure this whole ordeal was childish, insensitive and ugly as fuck.

i am so, so relieved that there was no engene who committed suicide due to this matter but this behaviour that kairo displayed was one of the examples of many, many racist engenes’ behaviour out there. to anyone who’s unaware, the engene suicide news went viral a few days before to the point that media companies made news out of it, i woke up every single day hoping for the ‘supposedly’ engene who passed away to rest in peace, only to find out that someone was faking the whole shit thinking it was funny.

i don’t know if enhypen knows about this suicide news or not but if they do i cannot imagine how bad they would feel, all for this turns out for it to be a motherfucking lie? not only kairo has defamed the whole group, but he also took such situation as a very light joke. people like this don’t deserve internet, kids like him needs to be educated properly.

kairo is a minor and if you ever encountered him on twitter or something, as much as i hate to say this, please don’t send any death threats or whatsoever. just report the account and made sure it will be banned later on, we have no time to send our hate and waste our effort on a childish, immature and uneducated kid.

to this day, there was still no resolution nor any statement about the whole n word slur situation surrounding enhypen. i don’t know if this had anything to do with enhypen’s japan debut, but one thing for sure belift is not taking any step to resolve anything at all beside them releasing their email a few days earlier.

if you want to help engenes in contacting belift,

here’s a template. this template is available in both korean and english. the original creator of this template is @blackengenes at twitter. by the way, this template is a new one, it’s not the same one as in my previous post.

also, you can help by signing a petition created by @ENbackup_ in twitter. and to anyone that wanted to contact me outside of tumblr regarding these three posts that i have created, my instagram is @heebigtiddiegang and my twitter account is @heebigtiddie.

that’s all for now, i would like to thank to all of the people who paid attention and gave me a little bit of your time to all these posts i have created. oh, and thank you to @fcxryzen for informing me!! i already knew about this, i was just a little confused on how to put my words together to write a post.

if there is any black engene who would like to vent out their problems or is looking for mental support do know that my inbox is always open and though i may not be the best in comforting, i will try my best to make you feel better about everything.

just like what i said in the previous post, we’re all here for you and we are aware how terrifying this situation can be for you.

do repost to spread this around to clear all the misunderstandings.

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[cherryblossomsies]

you’re welcome!! we all support each other here, you’re in the right safe place <3 <3

I've calmed down a lot, thank you to @springbalance for talking to me, I really appreciate it <3

Also thank you to Hyunjin for making me feel safe <33

[cherryblossomsies]

trigger warning: racism, suicide, mentions of people getting lynched, profanities, graphic images.

another update!

this is an update/continuation regarding my previous post.

if anyone is still confused as onto what is going on, this post talks about the issue that has surfaced less than a week ago surrounding the kpop idol group, enhypen. in one of the clips that they posted, a snippet was cut out and the background audio of the short clip caused a hot debate to occur between engenes, the mentioned kpop group’s fandom name.

it was heard that one of the members was singing a song entitle ‘love galore’ by sza, in the lyrics that they had sung, people were pointing out that the member uttered out the n word while singing.

it became a hot issue because a lot of people were complaining that they did not hear the n word in the audio, at the same time a lot of other engenes pointed out that they heard it. personally, i am not going to give out my opinions on whether i heard it or not because just like the previous post,

i already stated that i am asian and i have no rights to discuss about any matter regarding the n word.

now back to what i was going to say.

a lot of ‘engenes’ were attacking black engenes, saying that this situation was not serious at all and this shouldn’t be a concerning topic in the beginning, which was wrong because black engenes have all the rights to know what was really happening in the video and whether the person that was singing the song said it or not.

i am still traumatised by the comments and remarks that i read on the weverse. people were posting pictures of black people getting lynched and was complaining to bring it back because black engenes were deemed nuisances to them. to people that are still unaware of the severity of this situation, these pictures are for you.

warning: graphic images

it took a lot of nerve for me to write and post this because i am scared of getting threats but there was little to none of people that will address the suffering of black engenes in the tumblr so i am going to just post, if anyone wants to come forward and attack me you are welcomed to do so, i won’t give a shit.

and today, i found out that there was an engene that committed suicide because of the constant attacks she received from other ‘engenes’. it was said that enhypen was her only motivation to keep on continue living, and to know that she had passed away because of this was heartbreaking. i did not know the engene personally but i could not imagine how heartbroken she must have been getting attacked just because she was stating their opinions as a black engene.

imagine getting attacked just because you stood up for your own rights.

humans are fucking sick.

rest in peace to the op, lets all send our warmest regards to their family.

i truly hope that by me posting this, a lot of people are aware that this situation is nothing to be made fun of anymore. this is fucking serious. someone committed a suicide because of this, if you still can sit back and acted like you didn’t see nothing then something is wrong with you.

and finally, belift has finally made a move after a long time. they had released their email address and through this, we can contact them regarding this issue. let them know that things have gone out of control and they needed to take actions as fast as possible.

here’s a template if you need help. this template is available in both korean and english. the original creator of this template is @ENbackup_ at twitter.

lastly, to any black engene that is in need of a place to vent out their frustrations, and is currently stressed out because of the current situation do know that my inbox is always open and i will be right here to give you mental support. or you can vent out to the person that you trust the most.

we’re all here for you, and we are aware how terrifying this situation can be for you.

do repost to spread this around.

also, i’m sorry if there is any grammar mistakes or any wrong usage of vocabulary. i wrote this in a hurry, there was no proofreading and english is not my first language.

update: i recently just blurred the pictures of people getting lynched thank you to someone speaking up on it, i would like to apologise if i ever made anyone feel uncomfortable with the pictures, i thought the warning would be enough but i should’ve still blur out their heads i’m so sorry.

[cherryblossomsies]

trigger warning: racism, profanities.

update!!

first of all, i have no say in this situation, because i am an asian and i need to respect the black culture and not let my voice silences the black engenes that were supposed to talk about this matter. i am still confused as onto what to believe, a lot of black engenes said that they heard the word being pronounced, but at the same time a lot of black engenes said they did not hear it. so in this post i’m not going to talk about whether i think the n word is being pronounced or not because i have no rights to do so.

but out of all things, i’m the most mad at a lot of engenes who decided to fight this with racism. it hurts my heart to read a lot of engenes’ comments calling out the black engenes community racial slurs, calling them dirty and jobless. where are all of your manners? do you really think fighting and backing up enhypen by saying racist things will calm the situation down? and the fact that they hid it from the artists on weverse kind off gave away hints of how much of snakes they are. in situations like this, i could clearly see the true colours of a lot of my oomfs, and it was a little bit disappointing.

i have quite a number of black engenes friends, and it hurts me to see them being sad over this matter. and the racist comments from ‘engenes’ were no help either.

fuck, i don’t even think you should label yourself as an engene if you’re a racist. enhypen would be disappointed in you.

and getting into the most important part;

belift:lab

belift:lab could be deemed as one of the most unprofessional, unethical company i have ever seen. back when it was about sunoo’s situation, all they did was some damage control by giving us vlives, more videos and pictures. and it repeated again in this situation, even going as far as to giving us dance jam lives. and it did not sit right with me, they should be scrambling and running around to prepare a proper statement now, this is not what engenes want. the whole fandom wanted an explanation, a statement.

if someone really said it, then it should be our job as fans to educate them, to hold them accountable, to make them know that this is no joking matter, this is not a matter where you could say oh the word was replaced with a korean word or nah there is another audio singing too at the background and totally get away with it because there’s a huge number of fans who believed the other wise. this goes all the way back to black people’s history, and it was heartbreaking. if you still don’t know why non black people cannot say the n word,

here’s the link.

the whole company should not even be sleeping properly right now, how would you feel if a whole big portion of race in the world got offended by what your one and only idol group did? they should clear the misunderstandings (if it was a misunderstanding) as soon as possible and not just swept these matters under a rug before it bites back and gets worse.

we still haven’t received a proper statement about sunoo until this day, now that a far more serious matter arose, are they still going to pull the same stunt over and over again? what about enhypen’s reputation? don’t they know that these things could affect enhypen’s journey of becoming global idols like they were hoping for in the future?

for god’s sake, they don’t even have a damn email.

a fucking email.

a big ass company, no fucking e m a i l.

to all engenes who are reading this, if you are a non black, please try to not speak louder than the black engenes. show them support, but don’t try to dictate whether someone in enhypen said the n word or not. you have no rights, i know it sounded a little bit harsh saying this but us, non black people have no rights over the n word at all. the n word belongs to the black people community. let the black engenes community discuss this within themselves, a lot of people are very sensitive right now so do not try to make things worse.

to all engenes who have been working hard to fight off the racist remarks from other engenes, you have done well, keep up the good work!! <3 if you are wondering about what is happening, or wanted to vent something out to me don’t hesitate to message me personally.

and lastly to all racist engenes, any rational member of enhypen would not be proud of what you are doing right now at all. remember, you are the worst type of people in the world.

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[cherryblossomsies]

can you kiss me more?

nishimura riki x olderfem!reader

fluff

warning: lots of fluffiesss, profanities.

inspired by doja cat’s kiss me more!

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dating nishimura riki has it’s own perks and consequences.

as his girlfriend for almost 10 months, you have studied the tall boy all the way from his small gestures to the precise amount of sugar spoons he would put in his green tea. you were 2 years older than him, so obviously you had more experience in men. but riki was the first boy who was younger than you, and probably the most unique one. so you came up with the list of pros and cons in dating nishimura riki just like you did with all of your ex-boyfriends.

perks:

you’ll get a giant, standing at 183cm adorable cat-like boy

comes with the package are countless warm cuddles!

lots of cute actions since he’s younger

entertains you with acrobat moves because he’s good at dancing like that

your clothes will smell like oranges because of his perfume rubbing off on you due to the crazy amount of hugs

gets jealous easily but in a cute way

first time in a relationship so it’s cute when he asked you about a lot of things couples do

tries a lot of pickup lines on you

consequences:

too shy to be kissed

will run away if you initiate any kisses

you understood that the younger boy was shy to initiate anything so you never tried to force him to do anything. after all, you dated him because of him, not because you wanted to use him just for kisses. the memory of you trying to kiss him on the cheek when both of you were in the first week of relationship still remained fresh in your mind, it was hilarious.

it was when you came over to riki’s house and watched frozen 2 with the said boy. during the end you were met with a blabbering riki who was not satisfied with anna being the leader of the country instead of elsa, giving excuses like elsa was the matured one and anna was stupid because she almost married someone who she met for a day.

a smile was formed on your face as you found the boy nagging in front of you endearing so you leaned closer to peck him on the cheek but riki was faster and pulled away before your lips could touch his skin. you were a little bit shocked at the sudden move, but so does riki. the boy stared at you with widened eyes before running away to locking the door of his bedroom.

leaving you on the couch confused.

it dawned upon you that day that ni-ki was much younger than you and was probably inexperienced, he was still in his teenager years so you decided to not kiss him after that incident. needless to say, riki came to your home the next day apologising for his actions and it made you feel bad, so you decided to apologise instead for not asking for consent and treated him to an ice cream date that day.

after that, both of you never kiss each other again. all of your friends were weirded out on how the lack of kissing was evident in your relationship since they were eager to see both of you kiss, especially riki’s bestfriend sunoo. but no one questioned anything.

the relationship’s 10 months mark was getting closer and you were determined to kiss riki, at least on the cheeks. it frustrated you that riki never did try to go further than hugging and cuddling, at first you felt guilty for wanting more because he was younger than you but the problem was riki didn’t even try to hide the fact that he wanted a kiss from you, or at least he did try but he failed to hide from your observant self.

every time you would pause in doing your things to reapply your gloss or lip balm you always notice him staring at the corner of your eyes. and when you turn you head towards riki the taller boy always acts like he totally was not staring at your lips. the aftermath of applying your gloss was what gave it away completely, you could not even talk to riki while having eye contact because his dark brown orbs would get stuck in your lips instead.

so you decided to change that, you could not take it anymore.

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“and we cuddle sure i do love it, but

i need your lips on mine.

can you kiss me more?

we’re so young boy we ain’t got nothing to lose.”

the comforting smell of lime and orange citrusy scent filled your nose when you first woke up in the morning, and you felt your heart leaping out of your mouth when the first sight that greeted you was riki staring while smiling at your face.

small chuckles left his mouth when he saw how surprised you were, and you proceeded to lightly hit him on the arm that was placed on tue side of your bed. riki stood up and jumped to land on your laying figure to wrap you around his arms making a squeal erupted out of your mouth at the sudden weight pressing against you.

“happy 10 months,” his voice was muffled by the blanket on your body. riki lifted up his head and stared at your face, a smile decorated his face. you cooed at how cute he looked before patting his head gently.

“happy 10 months baby,” you said not missing the way pink starting to dust his bread cheeks at the endearment.

ni-ki hid his face, smushing his cheeks against the fluffy blanket on your stomach to prevent you from seeing more of his red face. you sat up, pushing the taller off your stomach before standing up to get ready for your date with him today.

minutes later, you came out of the bathroom smelling fresh and in your prepared since last night outfit only to see ni-ki sleeping soundly on your bed. poor young man, ever since you guys started dating, ni-ki had always made it a habit to go to your house way early before you guys go out because he used to always be late because of his fucked up sleeping schedule.

you felt your heart softened at the sight, slightly pitying the boy because he was up early and was probably tired waiting for you. you fixed the pastel orange sweater you were wearing into the black jeans you wore and shuffled slowly towards the sleeping figure.

you let your fingers delicately traced niki’s sharp features, finding yourself falling in love once again at the sight of the small moles decorating his fair skin. ni-ki could feel the softness of your fingers and almost laughed because it was ticklish but a part of him wanted to know what you were going to do so he acted asleep.

the younger boy could feel the racing of his heart beat getting faster when he felt your warmth getting closer to his body and a scream almost left his mouth when he could feel your plush lips pressed against the tip of his nose. not wanting to miss the sight, ni-ki quickly opened his eyes and blushed at the distance both of you was at at the moment.

both of you made an eye contact, but your eyes changed to crescents as you smiled down the younger boy.

“you’re not very good at pretending to be asleep, you-,” your eyes went as wide as saucers when your words were cut off by a sudden kiss.

ni-ki leaned upwards and kissed you on the lips, and was about to pull away when you didn’t respond. but you leaned in closer and moved your lips slowly against him, smiling at the softness and the purity the kiss carried. riki could feel his heart beating faster, his hands were confused as onto where to put it at so he just clenched his fists together. the sweet taste of your cocoa butter lip balm seeped into his saliva, and he could feel the blood rushed into his face.

after the kiss, ni-ki stared at you with wide eyes not believing what he had just done. he was always the shy one in the relationship, so even this situation was surprising to him. his eyes flickered at your now reddened lips and back into your smiling eyes.

you laughed a little bit and decided to peck him on the lips again.

“i love you.” you smiled and leaned your head against his chest, fingers trailing down to play with his hand underneath the covers. ni-ki felt his heart stopped at the addictive vanilla smell of your shampoo, and the way your small hand was fiddling against his larger one.

“i-i love you too.” niki stuttered under his breath, before internally shouting at himself for the stutter that left his mouth.

needless to say, kisses were normal occurrences in the relationship after that.

[cherryblossomsies]

slow down | kim sunoo. 

synopsis. he’s safe to be around, is what you were told. he wouldn’t hurt a fly, is what you were told. he’d kill anyone who looked or touched you the wrong way, was what you weren’t told.

genre. angst, mafia au, s2l au.

pairing. mafia leader! sunoo, highschool girl! oc. 

due date. soon.

[cherryblossomsies]

content warning: fatshaming, bullying, death mentioning.

i’m pretty sure a lot of engenes knew about this situation already. i’ve been stanning enha for a long time and i’ve always noticed these remarks towards sunoo, i mean who wouldn’t? they appeared so often on camera, what about when there are no cameras around?

but i used to shrug it off and not wanting to jump into conclusion fast. i also shrugged off niki’s actions because he was young so i was hoping he’ll realise his mistake. the only way i tried to make myself comfy was to encourage and give compliments to sunoo almost every day at weverse or twitter (eventho i get no rep lmao)

now, since the issue had garnered more attention, can we focus on it more? i cannot believe that some of engenes had the audacity to say fatshaming is a part of culture in korea.

fatshaming should n e v e r be a part of any culture.

not when it leads to serious eating disorders, not when it leads to death.

international engenes are not being weaklings and way too sensitive, we are caring about our sunshine’s mental health. something that may seemed small to you can be the cause of someone’s life struggles.

don’t by all means, normalise fatshaming.

i’m not in any way saying that niki and the other members are all horrible. we all knew they love and care for sunoo, but all relationships have problems within them, and this is a part of it. we need to take this opportunity to educate them, not just shrugging this matter off aside because you thought it was just jokes.

and please, please don’t send any death threats to the enhypen members. i knew some stans can be very aggressive at times, and sending them hate and death threats is not the way to make things any better, in fact it will worsen the situation.

while sunoo’s birthday is upcoming, let’s all send him love and compliments to support him! sunoo is such a strong boy, i can’t imagine putting myself in his shoes.

that’s all.

[cherryblossomsies]

it didn’t sit well with me at the fact that sunoo only started feeling regret after he caught the commoner lying but its ok im just gonna go cry at the corner of my room 🥲

ENHYPEN Mini Series

E N H Y P E N ‎‎ ‎‎as ‎‎ ‎‎Royal Princes‎

pairings: kim sunoo x reader

summary: despite of those beautiful smiles prince sunoo was showing, you noticed the coldness behind them.

word count: 6.4k

a/n: Alright, this was really fun. I actually almost made this a tragic, good thing I remember that all of them will have happy ending for this series lmao. Anyway, I hope you enjoyed this! (tag-list open)

tag-list: @rubyanne @crjwon @heuningkai-hour @danyxthirstae01 @izneos @dreamykkoo @sunoosh1ne @bunnylover0193 @en-sun @love13tter​

Keep reading

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masterlist! enha

i only write for enhypen and no, i don’t write smut nor taking any request for the time being ;)

fluff 🌸

angst 🌼

romantic 🌹

fantasy 🌺

lee heeseung

bath bombs 🌸

park jongseong

cats 🌸

sim jaeyun

nothing yet!

park sunghoon

nothing yet!

kim sunoo

forced masculinity 🌼🌸

yang jungwon

adolescent 🌼🌸

nishimura riki

can you kiss me more? 🌸🌸

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[cherryblossomsies]

forced masculinity

kim sunoo x fem!reader x badboy!k

angst, fluff

trigger warning: smoking, bullying, cursing (a lot), homophobic acts, k is a very bad person in this story sorry k :(

btw, if there is any engene that doesn’t know who k is, he was a contestant in i-land :)

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the sound of a school bag roughly dragged across the red bricked walls echoed the empty alley as sunoo was thrown on the floor, arms wrapped around his whole body in attempt to protect himself from the tall boy standing in front of him, a smug smirk decorated his face. a cigarette was loosely hanging in k’s mouth, the heavy smoke smell made sunoo felt dizzy.

“it’s been a long time isn’t it gay boy? having 6 boys hanging around you most of the time must have made you felt safe or some shit.” k spat out on the ground next to sunoo, wildly laughing when he knew very well that little to no one will caught the sight of him bullying sunoo in this empty alley. not to mention, it was during the evening, the only students left in the school compound were the basketball and volleyball team.

sunoo was shivering the moment k knelt down next to him, his fingers gripped sunoo’s jaw tightly as his eyes bore into the smaller one’s much bigger and more brown than his. the younger one’s doe eyes stared at his face, lens were shaking as he thought of every possible consequence that could happen with k beside him.

“answer me when i asked you, bitch.” a loud slap sound echoed through the surroundings.

sunoo held his cheek with his shaky hands as he nodded vigorously, his eyes were now starting to burn as tears rolled down his cheeks. k stood up, almost cackling at the what he thought to be a pathetic sight unfolded in front of him.

“let go of the kid, bitch.” a more feminine voice spoke out behind k’s back,

both of the boys stared at where the voice was coming from and saw a girl with a black hair stopping right above her shoulders. she was much much smaller than both of the boys, but with the way she crossed her arms, the way her eyes stared at k’s eyes boringly, her aura, and the way she also has a cigarette hung loosely in her mouth, it was dominating both of them.

k chuckled, “ohh what is this combination? a raging lesbian saving a gay ass soy boy?” he mocked both of them, hand was pressed against his stomach as he once again laughed out loud.

“i’m not a lesbian?” the girl voiced out, eyebrow raised in confusion.

“don’t lie to me y/n, don’t think i didn’t see you checking out lee chaeryeong from the next class.” k rolled his eyes, his fingers pulling out the loose cigarette out of his mouth before smashing it with his foot.

“it’s not my fault she was hot, any normal girl could go gay for her.” y/n rolled her eyes, before continuing her sentence,

“-anyways, let sunoo go.”

the whole time they were conversing, sunoo hung his head down, but when y/n mentioned his name, it was almost like a switch flipped in him. ‘she knew my name?’ the boy thought to himself as he lifted up his head to make an eye contact with the girl. y/n’s eyes softened when she saw how badly bruised sunoo’s cheek was, with the huge size of k’s hand and the strength that he has, one could fly all the way to germany with one of his slap.

the short eye contact moment was cut off when k stood right in front of y/n, blocking sunoo’s sight.

“date me first,” k looked down at the girl in front of her, a smirk was decorating his face.

he couldn’t lie, k was attracted to y/n ever since she stepped into the school. she was exactly the copy paste of him, and that made him attracted to her in a way no girl had ever made him felt like. but after he saw y/n staring at chaeryeong’s figure during one of her dancing performances while biting her lip, he was almost 100% convinced the girl was gay as fuck. knowing she was not coming from y/n’s mouth herself made the latter a little bit glad at the news, so why not ask her out?

the rough, calloused hand of k grab y/n’s soft, dainty ones, before lifting up to his mouth and placed a small kiss on it. he was almost so sure y/n would accept him, i mean who would not? a lot of girls were after him. he was athletic, tall, and handsome. he was everything what a boy hoped for. the confidence was getting in his head, until a loud laugh erupted from y/n’s mouth. he found himself clenching his teeth and holding his jaw as he fell on the floor with a swing from the girl’s fist.

sunoo’s eyes widened at the sight, he was bullied by k for almost a year now and he had never saw k in such a state.

the smaller boy found himself being forced to stand when y/n lifted up him by his collar and dragged him out of the alley, leaving k with a bruised cheek on the floor yelling at y/n like a mad man. not that anyone was pitying him though, ‘ an eye for an eye’ sunoo thought to himself as he was still being dragged by the smaller one towards the field. the cigarette in her mouth was still puffing out smokes, but in a much smaller quantity.

the basketball court was placed at the end of the field, so the sight of sunoo getting dragged by y/n was seen by one of his friends, sunghoon. the mentioned one stopped dribbling the orange ball on his hands and excused himself from his teammates. he knew that y/n was not a good news and seeing her around sunoo made him worried for his safety. he knew that sunoo was not someone who was strong mentally, let alone physically either. heeseung, who was holding the ball sunghoon passed him, saw where sunghoon was heading to and decided to jog to the same destination, followed by riki and jay.

letting go of sunoo, y/n spat out the cigarette that was sitting way too long between her lips on the concrete and made the boy faced her. she eyed the purpling bruise one sunoo’s cheek, who got embarrassed by her stare and looked away.

the smaller girl reached out behind her back to grab an antiseptic and a huge, square hansaplast. zipping her bag closed, she was about to give sunoo the things in her hand when she was pushed back away from him. y/n looked up to sunghoon who pushed her and rolled her eyes, dusting off her shirt as she eyed the other 3 guys behind sunghoon, she recognised one of them was heeseung but forgot the other two names. the taller guy noticed the bruise on sunoo’s cheek and was about to confront y/n when sunoo pulled sunghoon back and told him that y/n was helping him, but to no avail, sunghoon kept his cold stare at the girl.

shame started to fill in sunoo’s self. he doesn’t want to look weak in front of his friends.

“what were you doing to my friend, y/n?” sunghoon asked coldly, his eyes bore into y/n’s lifeless ones.

not giving a damn to sunghoon, y/n shoved the antiseptic and hansaplast to sunoo’s arms.

“since i’m not your friend, you can ask this elsa motherfucker to do it to you instead.” y/n said pointing to sunghoon with her lips, a chuckle almost left her lips when she saw how sunghoon clenched his fist at the nickname.

“you shouldn’t have saved me, i’m a boy, i can handle this alone.” sunoo said, head still hanging down as he held onto the stuff y/n gave him close to his chest. a scoff left y/n’s mouth.

“so i should have left you to death instead? stop with the fucking toxic masculinity sunoo, you’re the least person i expected to hear this sentence from, and wow, not even a fucking thank you.” y/n said as she rolled her eyes, before smashing the cigarette she spat out earlier on the ground with her foot.

the whole group went silent at the venomous yet bold statement that left the short girl’s mouth. sunoo was not a boy that was easily convinced that he had to be masculine to be recognised as a real man, the whole school knew this. so when that sentence left his very own mouth, y/n felt almost disappointed for hoping that sunoo would at least be different.

“guess you’re no different than k,” she mumbled under her breath, but it was heard by sunoo.

the girl turned around and walked away from the boys, leaving them speechless and for sunoo to rethink again about what he said.

——

ever since that incident, sunoo saw y/n and himself in a different light. y/n’s sentence from a week ago still lingered in his head, he was starting to embrace more of his real self and decided that he doesn’t need to be as strong as all of his friends were to be a man. but, he could not deny that he felt bad for saying that to her. y/n literally put herself in danger because of him and all sunoo said was she wasn’t supposed to do that.

he couldn’t blame y/n. if he were her he would have done the same, just less vulgar words.

the fact that he was in the same class as her made it worse, he could only stare at her hanging around at the back of her class with her friends, laughing out loud. sunoo found himself staring at y/n more and more, he was even starting to catch her small habits. the way y/n’s nose slightly crinkled after she laughed, the way she put up her book to sleep during class, the way she slightly tilted her head when she was in her favourite class, history. and that was just the top of the iceberg.

the boy could not bring himself to apologise to her, he knew he was in the wrong, but he does not have the strength to do so. he was scared of what y/n could do, after what she did to k, he knew that y/n was someone not to be messed with. even sunghoon already apologised to y/n after he suspected her of doing something bad, but it was easy for him because of one sole reason.

y/n was not who sunghoon has feelings for. he even caught them chatting and laughing from time to time.

but after endless courage from his friends, today he decided to talk to the girl. sunoo knew that y/n always hung out at the rooftop alone during break, smoking. so he decided to go at break.

with shaking hands, the boy stared at the metal door in front of him. his hands were sweaty and he could not count on how many times he wiped his palms on his school’s trousers. it was now or never.

opening the door, sunoo was met with soft winds slapping against his face. it smelt of fresh air, no smell of like someone’s smoking. sunoo stepped inside and closed the door behind him, looking around, the boy was disappointed when he sees that there was no one. until he turned around and his heart almost leaped out of his throat of the sight of the one he was looking for leaning on the wall right next to the door, a lollipop was hanging loosely in her mouth instead of a cigarette.

y/n was looking at sunoo up and down, her school blazer was nowhere in sight as some of the buttons of her school was popped open. sunoo’s heart beat faster at the sight before adverting his eyes quickly when he noticed that, his fingers were fiddling together.

“looking for me?” y/n asked, an eyebrow was raised.

sunoo nodded vigorously, eyes were still stuck on the floor as if it was the most interesting thing at the moment. from his peripheral vision, he could see y/n buttoning up her shirt back and pushed back the lollipop to the side of her cheeks.

“what do you want?” she asked, voice sounding cold as ever. sunoo wondered if this was the same tone of her voice when she forgave him.

“i-i would like to apologise on how i acted that day. i was very thankful that you saved me, really. the old me thought that i would look weak in front of my friends if they knew that you saved me. what you said really-,” sunoo took a deep breath before lifting up his eyes and were met with y/n’s brown orbs. the boy was tearing up at the very moment and he himself doesn’t even know why. the feelings were overwhelming, he was scared of everything.

“-it really made me realised that i don’t need to be strong to be recognised as a male. thank you for that, and sorry again for-,” sunoo halted his breath when y/n suddenly placed her palm on top of the taller’s head, tip toeing a little bit as she let out a small chuckle. the distance between their faces was closer than before, and sunoo could smell the strong sweet scent of strawberry lollipop out of her mouth.

“okay, okay i get it. apology accepted.”

almost immediately, it was like a heavy burden being lifted off sunoo’s shoulders. he sniffed a little, the tears still streaming down his flushed cheeks. the girl stared at the tears rolling down before shoving her hand inside her chest pocket and pulled out a tissue before offering it to the crying male in front of her.

sunoo immediately took it, muttering a small thank you before wiping his tears and realising that the tissue was a scented vanilla one. he smiled a little, he learnt something new about y/n again.

needless to say, after that very incident, both of the pair grew very close to each other despite the wide spectrum of differences that existed between them. they were the polar opposites, yet they got along very well. y/n also grew closer to the group of friends sunoo has, finally learning all of their names with proper. it was shocking to the whole school, no one saw this coming, even y/n’s friends themselves. k was unsatisfied at this news of course.

but then again, it was kind of his fault in the first place isn’t it?

[cherryblossomsies]

don’t make me start pulling out my gun sunghoon 🔫

[ 11:25pm ] badboy!sunghoon angst

“hey.” the voice of park sunghoon calls out to you. you were shocked, to say the least.

why? because sunghoon was currently on your roof, trying to get into your bedroom window.

“open up,” he says, motioning to your window.

so you open it, letting the tall boy dressed in all black climb through.

“sunghoon.” you say.

“whoa, what happened to hoonie?”

you were not in the mood for his stupid playful jokes. he had pissed you off earlier today in school, when all his friends were teasing him about getting a girlfriend and he replied with, “how about i date yoon jugyeon?”

yoon jugyeon was a popular girl in your grade, and she made it very obvious she had a thing for sunghoon, your secret boyfriend.

sunghoon was the one who wanted to keep the relationship a secret, something about not wanting his friends to tease him about being in a serious relationship—which you found irritating. what was the big deal anyways?

“cmon babe, you can’t seriously be mad at what happened today,” sunghoon says, grabbing a hold of your hand.

you slap his hand away which made him roll his eyes in annoyance.

“you’re not even gonna acknowledge or at least apologize for how much your words hurt me?” you ask, frustrated.

“it’s not even a big deal,” he tries to hug you, but once again, you pull away.

“okay, what’s your problem?” he asks, finally cracking.

“my problem?” you scoff, “sunghoon, you don’t even care if you hurt my feelings! you let your friends tease you all time about dating jugyeon and you expect me to be okay with it?”

“it’s all just jokes,” sunghoon says, rolling his eyes, “why are you being so sensitive?”

“it’s like you’re ashamed of me!” you shout, “you don’t want to be seen with me—at all. you’re always hanging around other girls and you expect me to act like everything’s okay?”

“you’re unbelievable,” sunghoon sighs, “i told you before we got into this relationship that it would be a sealed secret. and why does it matter that i hang out with other girls? don’t tell me you’re jealous, it’s not a good color on you, y/n.”

“oh screw you,” you spat out, “get out. get out right now sunghoon.”

“what—babe, you’ve got to be joking.” sunghoon tries to convince you to let him stay, clearly brushing off your feelings in the process.

“i’m not kidding, get out right now park sunghoon.”

that got him to back off.

“fine, fine!” he surrenders.

he opens up your window, climbing out.

before he leaves, he turns around to have the last word in your argument.

“call me when you’re ready to put your goddamn feelings aside.”

rumors always had it that park sunghoon was a total dick, but you didn’t he would go too far.

clearly, you were wrong.

especially when you saw park sunghoon the next week with his arms around yoon jugyeon.

tagging @youreverydayzebra

[cherryblossomsies]

adolescent

yang jungwon x older!reader.

slight bit of angst(?), fluff.

i feel like this is kinda long lmao skip if you cannot read for a long time :)

——

“look at you, look at this small dimple of yours,” you cooed at the grumpy malt chocolate ball looking boy in front of you, your index finger seemed to be poking his dimple non stop.

“who gave you the right to be this cute?” you cooed again, softly pinching his right cheeks as your smile never left your face.

it was a friday afternoon, you and jungwon went to a small cafe down the block to have a date after a very long time of not seeing each other.

jungwon was enrolled to a sport university after he decided to make his taekwondo career official. he was busy with his taekwondo competitions. while on the other side, you were a thriving law student, you went to every single debate competition existed in the country to increase your merits before you start your degree.

long story short, both of you were active students representing your universities and have little to no time to focus on your relationship. luckily, today was a free day for the both of you, and jungwon decided that it was a good idea to catch up on each other.

but all he was dealing with right now was you cooing and poking his dimple non stop.

jungwon grumbled inside, he was an athlete. a taekwondo one to be exact. he was supposed to look powerful, scary, and dominant with his tall physique and wide shoulders. so, why were you treating him like a baby?

“can you stop?, it’s getting kinda annoying, i’m a grown up.” jungwon finally spoke up after being silent the whole time you babied him, rolling his eyes.

your smile was faltered, the small hand placed on jungwon’s cheek belonged to you slowly went down and sat on your lap quietly. you furrowed your eyebrows together, jungwon used to love getting all the attention from you, and his sentence made your heart broke a little.

upon seeing your devastated face, the younger one immediately felt guilty. he was about to say something, until you cut off to the chase.

“sorry, it has been months since we had a proper meet up and i guess i just missed you too much.” you chuckled lowly, your hand rubbing on your nape.

“i-“

“oh- our drinks, i’m just gonna go get it okay?” you stood up from your seat and reached your hand to pat his head, but quickly retracted it when you remembered what he said.

jungwon felt his heart shattered more at the sight of your retracted hand.

he watched as your figure walked towards the counter, where a boy with a smile brighter than the sun stood at. he watched as you cooed at the other boy’s smile, sitting uncomfortably on his seat. you cooed at literally everyone and he was used to it, so why when you do that to the boy in front of you, he was feeling uneasy?

‘you were the one who doesn’t want to get babied, jungwon, deal with it.’ jungwon said in his heart, eyes never leaving your figure that now was walking towards the table, handing the jealousy-in-denial boy his hot chocolate drink with a small smile.

you sipped your iced coffee quietly, eyes stuck on the table, a little bit shy and awkward to start a conversation because of what had happened. you could feel your partner’s burning stare on your head, so not wanting to sit in silence, you decided to break the ice.

you were the older one after all.

“how was your competitions? is anything okay?” you asked, the warm smile on your face never fade out.

jungwon was taken back by your question and the facade you put in front of him. and he suddenly felt way too silly, obviously dating someone who’s older than him, he will always notice that there were moments that they will appear more matured than him, and sophisticated to be exact.

you were not an exception.

you always put up with all his whines, all his anger and all his childish antics. as jungwon grew up, he realised how much of a child he must have looked like in your eyes. that was why you babied him, he looked like a child, and acted like one. you were the opposite of him, always maintained your mature composure, and acted as his guardian, almost like his grandmother. to him, you felt like home.

jungwon suddenly snapped out of it, “yeah, yeah it was good, i won all the competitions, and scored a silver in one.”

you smiled again and small-clapped at his achievements. there you go, making jungwon felt bad all over again with your cute actions.

the younger one weakly smiled,

“how about your debate?” he asked, his left hand going across the table to play with your fingers. you giggled at jungwon’s small actions, secretly cooing at him.

“it was all good, the debate about the paris agreement though was crazy, literally the whole room was shouting at each other.” you chuckled, suddenly reminded of your passionate self shouting at the ‘prime minister’ and slamming the papers on your table.

it was an informal debate held between classes in your university, obviously everyone had no composure left and threw it out into the garbage because of the closeness between the students.

jungwon laughed a little bit, he had seen you debating before. even though you had always appeared calm and composed in your debates, he could clearly imagine you shouting and slamming palms on the table trying to prove your points while debutting the other team’s points.

the smile on his face does not last long though. his eyes studied your face carefully, your eyes were still cresents, the corners of your mouth were still lifing up.

jungwon took a deep breath,

“hey, uh listen about what i said earlier um i didn’t mean it, i am sorry.” he finally said, closing his eyes tightly as he suddenly felt nervous all over. he had never apologised every single time you guys fought, it was always you when it was clearly his fault most of the times. and he hated it, he decided that you didn’t deserve this treatment from him all along and that you deserved better.

he peeked one of his eye opened and saw you with the biggest smile on your face, and tears forming up in both of your eyes. jungwon suddenly panicked and rushed to get tissues, apologising non stop. he felt like having a taekwondo spar against himself right in the moment for making you cry.

you giggled slowly, hand reaching towards the tissues offered and wiped your tears. for the first time in a year of you guys being together, it was the first time for you to hear jungwon apologising.

you knew he was only a year younger than you, but his apology made you realised how much he had changed. to you, it felt like looking at your child growing up. you knew he was trying to appear manlier and more matured in front of you, and you tried to understand what he wanted.

“it’s okay, i know it can get annoying overtime, i can get rid of the habit if you feel uncomfortable-“

“no!” jungwon quickly exclaimed while standing up, a little bit too loudly when he realised he received some attention from other customers. slightly bowing as a sign of apology as he sat back down slowly.

“i-i mean, it’s alright, you can keep treating me like that, i-i like it.” jungwon whispered the last part, feeling like a hot pack right now with all the blood running on his face and ears. he was fiddling with his fingers as he tried to avoid eye contact with you.

you felt like your heart busted out of your body.

jungwon looked exactly like a baby.

you stood up from your seat and went to sit beside him before engulfing him in a tight hug, loving the continuous warmth jungwon always had in his body.

jungwon wrapped his arms around you and closed his eyes before sniffing your calming, motherly-like smell of your perfume. he felt warmth erupted in his heart, he felt like he was in a cozy home with the presence of your hug. the brunette smiled when he felt the familiarity of your small hand patting against his head after a long time again.

ever since then, the boy grew up with the goal of trying to be a better, more matured man for you while still loving the treatment you gave him.

he loves you.

[cherryblossomsies]

wHy DO THE NAMES SOUND DIFFERENT

the park twins...

sunghoon who has lived a normal life as a writer and prince benjamin who's yet to rule the kingdom

[cherryblossomsies]

NOOOOO

we don’t talk anymore

[we don’t talk anymore]

Nishimura Riki x Bestfriend reader

The first time your calls go unanswered by Riki you don’t think anything of it. He’s an idol now, living his life in Korea and following his dreams like you always knew he would, but that also means he is busy-so very very busy. 

So you don’t feel bad when he doesn’t reply to your text messages and you don’t get sad when he misses your phone calls because you know if he could pick up he would.

(you hope, you hope so much that he’s busy and he only doesn’t message you back because your notifications gets mixed in with the hundreds of others he surely receives. you hope and pray that his phone is always off and that’s why your calls get sent to voicemail. you shut your eyes and believe that he is still your friend. he still wants to be your friend.)

(but then you scroll through tik tok and twitter and instagram and you see him laughing with the rest of his members and he’s having fun and you smile because you’re happy that he’s happy.)

(but he’s also always on his phone and maybe the reason he’s not picking up or calling you back is because he doesn’t want to.) 

You’re happy for him- you really are, but as the days get longer and the number of unanswered phone calls and text messages gets higher, you begin wondering when everything between you two started to change.

Because the Riki you see on your television screen is not the Riki who boarded that plane almost two years ago. This Riki doesn’t answer your phone calls and he doesn’t walk you home after school and he doesn’t force you to stop walking to wherever the hell you’re supposed to be going just to visit the local arcade and play lame games you know you’ll always beat him in.

This Riki, the one on the screen-you don’t know him.

But that doesn’t mean you miss him any less

[cherryblossomsies]

i was bawling on the floor you don’t know how good THIS IS

not jealous | jake sim

summary: jake sim is not a jealous person. at least that’s what he tells himself. so why does he find himself going through your phone when a certain “bluejay park” decides to text you?

pairing: jake sim x y/n [ft. mentions of jay park]

genre: angst, fluff 

warnings: angst, cursing (very minimal), one slightly suggestive sentence, jake being cute, some more angst lol, slightly cheesy bc jake’s just too cute ugh

wc: 3.8k

a/n: ok i loved writing this, which is why i went on to almost 4k words LOL oops. but anyways, i love jake a little too much and this type of scenario has been running around in my head for a while now so i decided to put it into words. also i may have created this blog just so i could post this somewhere LMAO anyways yeah this was my first fic so hope you guys enjoyyyy <3

Jake Sim is not a jealous person.

At least that’s what he tells himself. To be fair, in his past relationships, he never showed any jealously. Then again, he doesn’t know if he can call those relationships, “relationships”. Does a fifth grade relationship with a girl who he was once dared to kiss during a game of Truth or Dare in the basement of a classmate’s house during their 11th birthday party count? He doesn’t remember being jealous when the same girl was later dared to kiss his classmate, Sunghoon. (Funny enough, that’s how the two boys came to be best friends ‘til this day, but that’s a story for another time.) 

But really, Jake doesn’t think jealously is one of his traits, even if he’s now almost 20 years old without any experience with love other than his current relationship with you and that short-lived romance in the fifth grade. (What was her name again? Jake would have to ask Sunghoon later.)

So he doesn’t know what clicked in that brain of his that lead him to this current situation he was in. He doesn’t know why he felt a little spark of anger in him when your phone, which you left right next to him on the couch while you went to take a shower, kept buzzing with texts from “bluejay park”. He doesn’t know why he couldn’t kept his eyes distracted from the messages, although your phone was constantly lighting up because whatever it was Jay had to say to you, he would not shut up about it. He doesn’t know why he questioned what your relationship with Jay was for a split second.

In fact, you’re close with all of Jake’s friends. That’s one of his favorite things about you, you get along so well with all his friends you might as well replace Jake himself in the friend group. So he doesn’t know what tells him to take a little glance at your phone—at the messages.

But he finds himself doing it anyways.

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