The breeze pulls softly at my hair on this warm summer day. My eyes find his figure not far from me, sitting on a bench. Beside him is his sister - one of the twins. I can’t really see what they are doing there but he is talking to her. His whole stance seems worried as he has his full attention on the younger woman.
This is it. This is what I want as well. To not see this smug grin. What would I give to see that soft look on me.
The 300$ I offered him the first time we met, oddly didn’t seem enough. I can’t really tell. He was always rumoured to sleep with anybody and isn’t picky when it comes to gender, not even age. I thought I would encourage him to take me first, but for some reason he didn’t take the bait. Why though? It sure was generous! I can’t read that guy at all. It is infuriating.
I gather my courage as I look up again. My gaze instantly locks with his. To my surprise he is approaching me. Gone is the soft look on his beautiful features. I stare into the flirty face, my anxiety is skyrocketing. Just two more steps and he will be here. Do I run away? Too late. He stops right in front of me. The distance between us is a bit too close for comfort, our shoe tips are nearly touching.
Just a bit closer and I am sure I can feel his breath on my skin. I want to kick myself in the butt as I notice that my eyes are wandering around aimlessly. I can’t seem weak to him. Maybe he doesn’t want to sleep with me because I have no real experience? I can’t back down now. I hold my breath and look up in his face. Oh that damn face. His grin widens „What are you doing here? Just taking a little walk?“
Yep, his voice is mocking me. I can hear it, but I don’t know what to say yet. I wasn’t ready. He wasn’t supposed to spot me and corner me like that. I wanted to have the upper hand this time. I blur out the first best thing I can come up with „I came to talk to you about my offer“ Was that my voice? It sounded shrill and breathless. Great job, really. How do you breath again?
The sudden grip around my neck traps me as this perfect face comes closer in a heartbeat. I can feel his breath now on my lips. I can’t look away from this soft pink tone right in front of me. I could lean in, just a tiny bit, to feel those lips. The blood rushes through my ears, my heart beats too fast. I instinctively want to take a step back, but the hand around my neck hinders me to bring some distance between us. Do I even want that?
His lips part as they seem to come even closer „You are a disturbance today. Go home“
My brain can’t keep up with what is happening, but as the words get deciphered the support from behind suddenly disappears. I struggle to not lose my balance. All I can do right now is watch his back. He casually walks back the way he came totally unaffected, not even wasting one glance to look behind him - to look at me.
I remain baffled, unable to react. I finally breath out. With each inhalation of air, anger floods my body. I want to scream, want to follow him and let him eat his words. Why can’t I? Why does he make me feel such conflicted thoughts? Just seconds ago I wished he would kiss me! I take a rage-fueled step forward.
I squint my eyes to look at his face. The soft gaze returns as he sits down next to his sister again. She seems pale and… is she shivering? I breath out. All the tension instantly leaves me. I turn around and walk away.
Next time I’ll make him beg for more of my attention. Next time for sure!
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