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If I ever date another goddamn lost boy

Who treats me like Wendy and proves once again

Staying young forever is only for men

Then cut off my head, hold it up like a prize

Stand over my body, look him dead in the eyes

And tell him I’ll never grow up, but never know joy

-Circus

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I Think I Might Throw A Wedding by Circus

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So Maybe I Have a Weird Crush on Hozier

I’m older now and we all wear our misery differently 100 poems about college parties and vomit 100 breakup songs about being the last one in love But I’m the one always flushing 6 years down the drain  Because I can’t look at you like you look at me Caught up in another daydream of a man who only exists on a screen And sometimes I wish that you’d leave me So I could tell my friends I'm the one who was hurt But I know this'll always play out in reverse It's my fault I've never really been in love ‘Cause I’m caught in another daydream I’m playing video games With a musician whose music I don’t even know Because I think it might be fun And that he might be the one But I'm really alone on the couch While you’re alone on the bed I could never love someone else Like I love the inside of my head

Plus I always date guys who need me But they never give enough in return Repeating the endless cycle of my dad The same old story, so cliche, so sad But maybe it’s me Never giving enough And maybe it’s me Who expects so much love Because a boy in a game turned down godhood And a boy on a page gave up all but his name And I do so much better all on my own Even though I’m still waiting by the phone For a friend to text me and tell me I matter Say that you miss me please tell me I matter Even though I’m just another heartbreaker And I'll play the villain again in this story But for now I just wish I was playing Baldur's gate 3 With a famous musician Whose music I barely know Because I think it would be fun And that he might be the one

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You Filled My Mind by Circus

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On Favorite Colors -Circus

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it is a nearly unbearable sight

Holding my ugliness up to the light

The sickly sweet scent of overripe fruit

When I feel the sickness start to take root

Sometimes I'm shriveled and sometimes I'm small

Sometimes I don't like myself much at all

I stare at the mirror, will it to break

Pick till I bleed at my every mistake

My path has been littered with scattered debris

And I've bruised my knees just trying to flee

& I never run, I stumble at best

Watching the rocks that all fall from the crest

From these open wounds I know I must heal

I know I must let this hemorrhage congeal

The world waits patiently outside my door

The sun a balm on a spirit so sore

I watch the birds that all learn how to fly

I'll just keep my eyes caressing the sky

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I want to get a new tattoo And a yellow chiffon dress A lifetime supply of melon soda And a new denim jacket that fits

I don’t want anyone to tell me “You make me a better person” I don’t want to have to teach you I just want to be someone you love

I want to be able to pay rent I want to go live with my best friend And just be someone in their twenties In a place where nobody else knows them

I want Hozier to read one of my poems And say that he thinks it’s nice ‘Cause I think I could ride that high For maybe the rest of my life

I want my mom to tell me she’s proud of me And to tell my sister I love her I want flowers on my birthday And someone to really care

There’s so many things in the world And really I just want a few But though it’s hard to leave the rest I think I’ll be ok If I just get another tattoo

-Circus

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Untitled -Circus

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Don't Fall in Love with Me (Another Shitty Artist Boyfriend) -Circus