24 year old literature adjunct professor and substitute teacher. Reflections of my daily life, experiences, and hope for the future.
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Nice Update
Well, I am still very confused about my future. However, I am teaching college courses part time starting in the fall. I am also subbing in a new district. I'm hoping this will shed light on what my purpose is in education.
I Have been reading more and have been feeling genuinely excited. It has been a long time since I have felt this way. I have started writing new poetry and have been working on either submitting them for publication or posting them on instagram. I hope this feeling lasts. Will update more as I begin this new journey :)
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It's a Lost Hope
Well, 2 interviews and weeks later, and I still am without a job. Now, I have been currently rummaging through indeed and linkedin to no avail. I have lost hope. I feel like my future is destined to be living with my mom at 24, with no job. I am stressed and it shows. My friends and family keep saying there's something out there for me, but how do I find it? I feel lost, heartbroken, useless, and a failure. I am graduating with a master's degree in May and I am unable to find a job...
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All Smiles
Well I had a job interview on Tuesday and I have another on Monday and Tuesday. Things are looking up! I am excited to be back in the classroom again!
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A school caused my mental health to spiral
I'm 24 and had to quit teaching midyear. I cried every single day, to the point of being unable to breathe. It was my first year teaching and I felt like a failure for having to leave. Since leaving, I have been reflecting.
Admin can make or break a school. This one broke me. I had no support in student behaviors and it put a toll on my mental health.
I'm not mad at the students. While some of my students said some awful things to and about me daily, I do not blame them for my downfall. They are kids. They do not know. If I had the support I needed, I would have been able to withstand student comments.
This will have lasting effects on me. I wish I could say that I will be okay and will never think about this experience. I know that is not true. I know that I will always have these memories of what happened to me and the negative environment.
I am currently working at a liquor store until the next school year. Which, while money is tight, is a needed mental rest. I have begun the process of moving back to my hometown, closer to family. And I have started the interview process for schools in that district. I am so scared, but so happy and excited at the same time. I actually cried tears of joy at the thought of being back in the classroom and with the support I need.
I think things will be okay.
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