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idk how but i’m 114.7!?!?! 14bs and im back at my lw ahahahah

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down to 115.8! so close yet so far from my lw

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okay i’m not full of rage anymore and i ate some pasta and a piece of bread <3 so that was my omad and i think im going to do another 16-18hr fast

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me this past week 🤍

ugh r3l4psing is the best feeling, it’s like coming home <3

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i might just fast today considering i couldn’t get food at work (i have no money and the place that gives me free food was closed) and now after work and almost getting into ANOTHER car accident im just too full of rage and hatred to eat

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help do i do my omad at work (benefits are free food/i can’t binge bc im at work) or do i wait until im at home ( benefit is it’s also free and at home and a real meal)

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only made it 17hrs but i also only ate some fruit (like a handful) and like three bites of a salad 😔 i thought i was hungry and was quickly proven wrong lol

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Fasting for 18hrs bc i have been restricting but not fasting and wanna start up slow again <3 already 13hrs in!

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i’m down to 116 so i feel like i can be on here again, and everything is just awful and i always come back when things are bad i feel safe here <3

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i fucking hate it here i fucking hate it here i fucking hate it here i fucking hate it here i fucking hate it here i fucking hate it here i fucking hate it here

[cocainesundayz]

if i’m not at least 115 by the end of this month i will lose it bc that means i just fucking suck

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guys, i’m going to see a boy tmr and i don’t wanna be bloated or anything like that so should i fast all day today until i see him tmr or do i get a small cup of soup

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okay maybe i’ll do food logs but no calories :) that way i can still “track” everything & not be too anxious about the numbers!!!

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now i’m stuck at 118/119 but better than the 20s 🙏 not much to talk about i don’t really count cals bc it’s too much for me and it’s hard to be on here with my friend living with me

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ngl i binged last night… but im not going to weigh myself today to avoid being triggered <3 and im also not going to count cals im just going to eat light or maybe not at all :,)

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guys help should i eat dinner!?!?!? i ate a breakfast sandwich earlier probably like 400-500(?) cals but should i make something small for dinner or just suck it up?!??!?

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118 again this morning :,) i stg if i don’t stop losing/ gaining the same 2lbs im going to fucking scream!!!!!