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Laurent in a short short chiton during an official meeting aka Diplomacy ✨

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Her Ladyship is being impossibly cute. 🥰

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Unofficial “summary” of the audiobook fantasy trilogy I just started this morning. The plot sounded interesting, but this is what sealed the deal.

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I just downloaded 136h hours worth of fantasy goodness. My August is sorted.

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I’m a chaos gremlin. I get that from my cat. Or she gets it from me. It’s debatable. Mainly because I’ve yet to see conclusive proof that humans can teach a cat anything.

Anyway, I can’t possibly restrict myself to only one thing. I have ADHD, I’m queer, I’m nonbinary, and I have a variety of interests and hyper fixations and I want my blog to be a representation of all aspects of me.

i will never make a fandom sideblog you will get everything on one blog and you will like it. you will learn to love all my interests even if you followed for just one. my blog #myblog

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“Masculinity is always rewarded in girls/vagina holders”

I wanna tell you all about my mom. I know this is a sentence used against transmascs, and im a transman, so I wanna use my voice to tell you about my mom.

My mom is a cis woman, a gender nonconforming woman. (I had to teach her gnc recently actually, because she couldn’t find a term that she felt accurate.)

My mom has always hung out with mostly guys, she can fix cars, we half-joke (because its true) that every time she breaks up with a man they steal her toolbox (they do). We’re going to negate her current relationship because my stepdad is a feminist who adores her, but not all of her exes where like that.

My mom has faced SO MUCH misogyny over her clothing, her makeup, her hobbies. When she was building her tiny model car, her ex would drunkly rant how thats a “boys hobby” and “she shouldn’t be doing that”. Her and my dad used to renovate houses when they were married, Dad would plaster, and mom would plaster alongside him. While also fixing doors and windows, and floors, and ceilings, and painting the damn thing. When she goes to autoparts stores, or car lots, they always talk to her like shes stupid. Recently shes been bringing her husband, so the associate will ramble his ear off, and when theyre finally done, her husband turns to her and goes “babe I don’t know a thing hes talking about, what do you suggest?” because theyre both just so pissed off about it.

Don’t get me wrong, my moms for the girls too! She’ll give her enemy a tampon type of person. But the girls turn their backs on her, quite frequently. Mom used to have a friend, a male friend, who would go to the bar with her. I knew him well. They’re not friends anymore because he used her hobbies and interests to try to sleep with her. He would always try to change her too. Mom likes cooking, so he would try to push her away from things like watching fantasy TV (he thought that was a more ‘male’ genre) or fixing up the house for things like cooking and cleaning.

And so when I came out as trans, it was a really hard time for my mom. She understands now, and shes a HUGE HUGE ally and advocate for me, and I couldn’t fathom having a more supportive mother, but she was really confused. Mom was worried I wanted to transition because the misogyny gnc/masculine women face. I didn’t shave, I liked playing with knives and multitools, when I did makeup it was always more Kiss/Marilyn Manson style, when my sisters did a Marilyn Monroe.

I remember her driving us home from the clothing shop I came out to her in, and the talk we had. She asked me if I was confused, and I said I was sure. She said that I could just be a tomboy, like her. That it didn’t matter what everyone else said about being a masculine woman. Having talked later as adults, she thought I thought the only option for the type of masculinity I have was to be a man. She was so scared for me and my safety because of how punished masculinity is in women.

So now, as I’m 23, and its 2025, Mom is still the gender nonconforming woman she always has been. Mom taught me how to fish, how to use a hatchet, knife safety, and how to cook and sew. I’m a man who picks up heavy things for her now that shes too disabled too, who wears makeup and nail polish with my denim cutoffs and binder, who still has to call my mommy when I can’t get this screw to screw in right mom, I dont know your tips and tricks.

And masculine women can exist alongside trans men. My mom goes to my hormone appointments with me to make sure these doctors are listening to me, she yells at me when I take my shots late, she picks up my hormones if I’m at work. Mom takes me to Pride every year, and god rest the soul of any transphobes that cross my mothers path. My moms for the girls and the gays, the he’s and the they’s, the its and the lesbians and everyone between. Mom will fix you dinner and your car, and we give her gifts on fathers day too because she was Mom and Dad growing up.

So no. Masculinity isn’t always rewarded in female-presenting people or people with vaginas. My very cis mother could tell you that much.

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Do you ever find yourselves thinking about what an absolute shock it must have been for Laurent to spend years believing Damianos was the kind of monster his uncle was, only to discover that he was the kind of man his brother was? Because I do.

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There is a very thin line between "worship me" and "push me down and make me beg". Laurent uses that line as a fucking jumprope.

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reblog to blow up a transphobe

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hey can we talk at some point about how having adhd makes you way more likely to be depressed because literally nothing you need to do to be a functioning adult gives you any happiness at all

like this is an actual statistical problem

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I really want to know how all the characters in the Captive Prince trilogy reacted to the news that Prince Laurent's barbarian slave had always been none other than King Damianos. And how they behaved towards him after the alliance and the creation of the new empire. For example:

Ancel, as red as his hair: So… Exalted… I hope we can move past the… incident in the gardens.

Damen, also flushed: O-of course. Don’t mention it.

Nikandros, popping out of nowhere: Do I want to know what that was about?

Damen and Laurent, both turning pale: NO.

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Delighted to see that the Universal captive prince reading experience seems to be:

I read this 3 volume book series plus the extras within 2 days.

I have reread it 5 times since.

It’s been half a year since I discovered the series.

I will reread it again.

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Congratulations on the marriage guys!!!! It's about time honestly

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u know someone’s about to get dragged through the mud when an academic uses the phrase ‘it’s tempting to assume’

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I just finished listening to a 46h fantasy audiobook (well, a trilogy actually) and now I don’t quite know what to do with myself. Why is it that once you’re utterly and completely attached to a book/story it just ends? Unacceptable.

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"Damen’s eyes fixed on him, and looked nowhere else; his breathing was still noticeable, and his pulse rapid, but anger produced all the same effects." Captive Prince by C.S. Pacat Them staring tensely at each other is my favorite thing to draw, but it's also super hard to get it right.... Probably the last one for a few weeks, because i'm waiting for my friend to come back from vacation so we can dive into the 2nd and 3rd book. (I love love love the slow burn, but i also want to get to the kissy bits !)

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Cute Laurent Things

He likes hand holding

Puts flowers in Damen's hair

Kisses like Damen is the only person he would ever want to kiss

Gets more responsive as Damen touches him slower and softer

Pets the dogs at Chastillon

Tucks his hair behind his ears

Loves his horses

Thought he had a very fast pony

Laughs really hard at the smallest things

Makes soft sounds and snuggles closer to Damen in his sleep

Does magic tricks

Is really good with kids

Makes friends when he's drunk

Blushes easily