comforting-pain - Tumblr blog

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if i am left home alone soon i will kill myself

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i feel the need to tell someone i feel like im genuinely going to kill myself. But then i'll just worry people. I'll just be more of a burden. And that'll make me feel so much worse. Plus i dont want to be hospitalized or anything. I just want someone to know how much pain im in.

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there is an itch in my wrists only a blade can scratch

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i cannot live like this much longer

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I need to cut my forearm. I have that weird tingly feeling in my arm. I need to. But i cant because them someone will see.

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does anyone else ever get the feeling that they need to carve the veins out of their arms

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I need to separate myself from everyone i care about so i dont hurt them when i kill myself

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I simultaneously hate what i've done to my body but love it at the same time. Like earlier this year my friend accidentally walked in on me changing and it was like normal awkward. but now, the scars will make it so much more awkward, because its not just like a handful, but hundreds between my legs and arms. But at the same time, i love it. I love the visualization of my pain. So people can see how much im fucking hurting

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Tonight during dinner my mom asked how i liked Lexapro since i used to be on Zoloft, and i lied and said its working great. Lmao im at my worst ever that stuff aint doing shit! and like ik im on the starter dose (5mg) but like im so used to acting okay that if i asked my dose to be upped out of nowhere it would be weird

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♠ My main shblr account is @finding-comfort-in-pain

♠ I'm Damien I use He/They pronouns

♠ Trans, Aro, Ace

♠ 16

♠ trying to get clean, this blog will be a recovery journal of sorts. Will contain triggering topics and i usually am too tired to properly tag.

♠ basic dni and 14+ interaction preferred

♠ sh for 5 years-ish

♠ this is a side blog so probably wont be mutuals with anyone, but i would love to get to know some people via messaging so feel free to reach out