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I saw something and got a little dissaapointed by it. I was going to post this privately with friends but someone else started typing in the vent chat, so I guess it’s here now.

CW: transphobia mention, Sexual Harassment, suicidal ideation and other mental health struggles, COVID, mentions of SA.

I want to stress - I have no ill will with this. If the person sees this, hi. I’m really sorry you were harassed. So was I. I just had a different experience, one that kinda jaded me to idea of “girls always stand together”. Maybe it’s because I’m not a girl (I am afab, but I’m not exactly a girl), but I don’t really believe in that sort of sisterhood. Then again, they’d view me as a girl - they became very transphobic later on. This has nothing more to do with it. I suppose some may say this means they’re not a part of the “sisterhood” but they definitely looked out for each other. Just never me.

Anyway, sorry for the ramble ahead. I saw a post from a moot saying how “girl bullying” and “ boy bullying” are different, and how girls respect girls in terms of sexual harassment. And… no. At least not in my lived experience.

I don’t think I mentioned it here, but between the ages of 12 and 14 I was sexually harassed a lot in school. I don’t want to say it was “to a point where xyz” because a lot of the memories are blurred through staying up all night and dissociation, but I definitely did have suicidal thoughts at the time, luckily never acted on. But I was a mess. And I was a victim from both boys and girls.

I reported it multiple times, but it never really got resolved. Maybe it’s because it was the language I used (calling it bullying instead of sexual harassment) or maybe it’s because it was also girls doing it so they didn’t see it as serious, but the school never did anything to stop it. It only stopped because of COVID, where I was in isolation away from everyone.

Of course, it fucking wrecked my parents’ psyche, since they were nurses. So, yea. The best thing that happened at that time also fucking tore my parents apart. They’re doing better, left nursing and are pursuing other passions.

But im still stuck.

That sexual harassment kinda altered my entire life, looking back at it. I do label myself as aromantic, but I don’t know if that’s a natural thing or if I somehow became it due to the trauma, and if it somehow makes me lesser. I’m pretty sure I was asexual beforehand, but I was also 12 when it started and never wanted that sort of thing to occur at that age. And now I’m older and the idea has been tainted because of them. It kinda feels like I’m a fraud in my own body.

I’ve also had a lot of dreams since then of me being raped. Which is not fun. And I have no idea why. Maybe it’s because I can’t imagine myself ever consenting despite wanting it somewhere within? Or maybe it’s because I feel like I need to be raped in order to be complete, as fucked up as it sounds, because it was only harassment and never assault? Or maybe it’s because I was indeed raped somewhere in the timeline and I either forgot or repressed it?

Either way, not fun.

Basically what I’m saying is that, no. Girls don’t look out for other girls. Especially when they’re the ones sexually harassing you.

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I’m not the most familiar, so take this with a grain of salt. But I think no.

Currently, there are a few vocals native to SV2 that work with SV1 - Natsume Itsuki, Nakuru, SF-A2 miki, Hiyama Kiyoteru, Pastel and Halo, as documented on VocaDB. These six are the only six listed, so I presume these guys are the only guys who work with SV2.

For Dreamtonics banks, there’s very limited ways now their main way of purchase has closed. You can try venues like DLSite or Taobao, but both have their downsides. Taobao needs a proxy like Parcel up; whereas DLSite doesn’t have all the DT vocals on there. I know Ninezero is, so I’d try there for him personally. Or see if there’s a reseller out there.

Otherwise you may have to cave and get SV2 for him

Can you use a synth v2 voice bank with synth v1 software?

Alright folks, reddit didn't want me to post this question cuz i "don't have enough karma," so I'm throwing it out here cuz idk where else to go.

I'm someone who never upgraded to sv2 because at the time of release i didn't think it would suit my needs. Unfortunately, i only have one voicebank that isn't a demo and was looking into buying NineZero to widen the range a bit. Imagine my surprise when v1 versions were discontinued months ago 🙃

Basically, if i buy NineZero V2, will it still work with my Synth V1 software?

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Anna from Warriors because I really love her design, I really do

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“I don’t get why people like British cuisine”, I say, eating a plain white wrap with a sauce made from mayonnaise and mixed herb rub on the side

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It's really funny to take Spanish with people from different Spanish-speaking countries, because the ones from South American countries are like "Yeah no one uses vosotros, we don't know what it's doing here" and the ones from Europe are like "If you don't give our beloved second-person plural its due respect, the Hounds will find you"

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For the purposes of this poll, "model nuclear household" means one family living together that consists of a mother, a father, and their biological child(ren), and no one else. No half siblings, adopted or foster kids, no other adults living in the same home. The biological parents are the only adults who directly parent the children, and the parents are together, and both alive and present (not in jail, etc).

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Reminder for people today that if you purposely didn’t buy a Switch 2 because of the cost, that’s totally fine and I respect that decision, but you don’t need to spring negativity on people who decided to get and are excited about having a Switch 2. Not every thought needs to be voiced. Hope this helps!

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so not only is the Stupid Bullshit Console six hundred dollars but it fucking explodes

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No tumblr, stop showing me Co-op ads and making me hit them :(

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did i do this right

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I don't mean to harp on a specific person with this because I have seen this sentiment multiple times from multiple vsynth fans (specifically. I don't know if this also exists within K-pop fan or J-pop fan circles in Western countries) but what do you mean "I don't like lyrics"?

Genuinely, where does this sentiment come from? "I don't listen to songs in English because the lyrics are always cringe". Always? Really? There are just so many songs out there with such different themes, different writers, that I can't help but feel like it's more of a mental block than a reality.

But I could be wrong. I could be missing something. I still feel like it's usually stated in a way highly dismissive of the foreign songs, which also have lyrics because their creator wanted them there, but maybe there's a subset of people who legitimately derive no enjoyment out of listening to lyrics...... Yet still want voices.

Maybe that's where I'm stuck. Instrumental music also exists, but we're talking about people who seek out foreign songs, and among vocal synth a variety of robot and realistic voices. Sure, you can like voices and still not like the lyrics... But there are also genres that rely on vocal performances and no lyrics! I have a feeling they're not fashionable enough, though.

I guess my question is: do you also hate poetry? Probably. I'm not sure I can personally relate to calling poetry cringe, either. Do you also hate books, though? Stories? Is it cringe when someone tries to write "I am sad" or "the sea is blue so are my feelings" or some shit? Is this what's cringe? Where's the cringe?