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So writing process can be pain in the ass, but you know what’s even worse (for music lovers anyway)? Choosing music for your book. I know people who like writing in silence, but I’m not such person I need background music to write. However, not all music is good for the story, chapter, scene, etc. now you might think that someone who has 800 songs has no problem choosing what she wants to listen.

Weeeell you are WRONG!

So let me explain how this process goes.

I get inspired and I start a book. I write the first chapter and notice that it’s too quiet so I go to my music app and search for something. It’s usually easy, but then, as we go deeper into the story, I understand that I can’t listen to the same thing anymore so I search again. This time it is a bit harder. Finally, I am almost in the middle and I have no idea what to listen to. So instead of writing, I start searching for more music. I find something and download it; maybe even covers and remixes. Unfortunately, I listen to that song one too many times and after about a week I absolutely hate it. Unfortunately, that exact song becomes popular in my school and everyone feels need to sing it on physics lesson (because we aint listening to 24 year old boy. Btw, my cousins are older than him XD). And by the end of the second week, me discovering this song, I want to strangle whoever wrote and sang that song.

If that is not enough of the struggle, I need to find another song, just for it to become my ‘the-most-hated-song-of-the-weak’.

So yeah, this is how I write most of the time. Sometimes it’s easier, because I know what songs I should listen because I’m including those. But sometimes it gets way too hard and I torture my already tortured hair.

So this is it for today guys! Hope you enjoyed it and until next time! Bye!

Cordelia

P.s I took this photo few weeks ago when me and my family went on holiday. This was the last day there.

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And Writer Addict Was Born...

So guys. I’m near on finishing my story on wattpad so now I can write a lot more here (I hope anyway. I still need themes and stuff ). This time I wanted to talk about person who basically changed my life goal. For long time I dreamed of becoming a journalist. Becoming one of those super famous cool journalists. Maybe even solve some cases or something. I wanted to travel and talk about crime scenes and disasters. I have this thing towards mystery. I love finding answers. I love finding small pieces of puzzle and then looking to the whole picture. So yes I love those riddles you see on YouTube sometimes, that are about crimes. So that’s how I imagined myself. Now I have a bit different plans and I’m choosing different profession.

Anyway this post isn’t about me it’s about that wonderful person. If you came from my wattpad account and you had read my A/N in the beginning then you probably know her. Her name is Nova Dale but let’s call her Supernova here. We’ve been together since I was seven and she was six. Now both of us are in high school. We’ve been together through sick and thin and I can’t imagine my life without her.

So story goes like that...

It was about Easter time when we were oh-so-casual talking. I had read Harry Potter in the summer and she was reading 4th book (I think) in that period of time. Since I am not a big fan of that and she’s like fan-girling it like crazy, we often argued about it (we still do. It would be wrong if both of us liked it or disliked it. We are polar opposites of each other), me saying that it was usual, like you could always predict the ending. I know that almost every story is predictable and mine aren’t better either but... I don’t know, it just wasn’t to my liking. I’m not saying that it’s a bad story though.

At that period of time I often imagined what would I write about the characters I was reading about. How I would change the plot. So I told her that. I told her how I would change everything and then we kinda agreed to create our ‘new’ world with new characters and all. Well we did leave Hogwarts. Both of us would write so we had to work with each other and do everything fair and square.

That’s how Kathrine Black was born. Now surname Black has nothing to do with J.K Rowling’s book. When we chose the name this surname just popped up. I didn’t even remember that this name was on Harry Potter. She actually told me about it when, about year later, I told her, that I was changing whole plot (yes there are four drafts of the first book in Kathrine Black series). As you can guess there was nothing original in the first draft. Second was pathetic too. There was more original but still. I was twelve when I wrote the second draft so guess you couldn’t except much. At that point I was writing bunch of other stories. Finally I stopped writing on my native language because every story seemed wrong. I started writing on Russian and it seemed a lot better. Though I didn’t get to finish it. Then I just stopped writing Kathrine and I wrote other stories. At that point I was writing in Russian because it felt right. Obviously, Nova wasn’t writing with me anymore (she said she wouldn’t write when I was in the middle of the first draft actually). After a bit more then a year, I thought of Kathrine. I again wanted to write about her and by that time I have decided that I would write on English so I could share it with a lot more people. At the same time I actually found out about Wattpad. I changed A LOT in that story. I changed characters and school, heritage of Kathrine and basically everything. So I think it’s more of an original now. Anyway it’s what I was told by a person who had read it (not Nova) and I, myself, like to think like that.

So I though saying few words about Katherina and story wouldn’t hurt sooo...

In this book series will be 4 books (might be 5 not sure. I am thinking of one book that will be like a special or something, like a shorter one between the books). You’ll meet 12 years old Kathrine, 13 years old (14/15 will be together if I chose to write about those years and that book will be shorter and more consecrated on Kathrine and her goal.) 16 and 17 years old.

Kathrine is a half British half American girl. Her father was British who spent his late childhood and early adulthood in America. Her mother was American. They both died when Teri was about two years and ever since she lived with her aunts (from father’s side). She and also uncle and cousin (also father’s side). She has grandmother (mother’s side) who lives in America.

I love this story nevertheless because if not this one then there wouldn’t be others. I still want to post it on my wattpad account. If I find my first draft then I will post parts of it as well because there are awkward and funny.

Anyway have a nice day and until next time bye!

Cordelia.

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Stereotypes

Hey guys! Long time no see (here on Tumbler anyway). So how are you doing? So I was wondering what should I post this time? Something like a memory or about my family/friends? Maybe school? Culture? My believes? There’s a lot of topics which might fell you understand my stories.

Anyway (since I don’t really have audience) I chose topic ‘goth’. So there’s story behind it that kinda stinks for me. So I probably already mentioned, but if I didn’t here it is now. So I went to a lot of schools. Two of which were public and others private. So, I’m those public schools were pretty much the same, I don’t have sub category for them, from my experience anyway. However it’s a bit different for Private schools. I won’t go into that because there are just too many and it’s absolutely not necessary. I still have to mention one though. So two of the schools were full of self-in-love and rich kids. Most of their parents were in government. Somehow they were still nice to me. I’m not saying that they were all bad or all good.

When I first got there I was literally questioned by new classmates. Its wasn’t really a bed experience. At that period of time, one of our teachers got ill so we had free period. On one of those we played truth or dare. Obviously we couldn’t really do dare in the class. I was a great target because I was new. So one of the classmates asked me what kind of music I I listened to. Back then I listened only to rock so as I was about to answer one of the guys sang ‘let it go’ from Frozen. I don’t know why but it was some kind of form of humiliation so it made me really uncomfortable. Needless to say I was trying to hard to fit in which made even harder for me to open up. So I was that awkward kid in class.

There was something else too.

Having colourful hair is normal this days. You can dye it literally any colour you want and so I wanted. I wanted to have purplish/blue hair. But few days prior to that, my classmates talked about kids who dyed hair. As they believed only kids who had some kind of protest at their parents or generally kids with problems changed their hair colour. That kinda wounded me, because I wasn’t that kind of kid. I just wanted to change my hair colour for short while and then I would cut my blue ends.

Anyway I got my blue hair and went to school next day. That some guy who kinda humiliated me, looked at me in some kind of disgust and asked if I was goth or emo. What I want to say is so what if I am? And before you even start assuming, find out more about me.

I hate when people assume thing depending on how I’m looking. Maybe it’s just a disguise? I dislike people who follow stereotypes. It bewilders me how small detail on your body could make you alien of society. I admit that back then, when I hadn’t experienced it myself I just assumed that people overreacted when talking about stereotypes. Now I know that it’s very disrespectful and painful. I felt like nothing at that moment.

In conclusion I just want to say that don’t get effected by stereotypes and consider finding people who are on your level. And by level I mean not material level. Otherwise you’ll just won’t be able to fell comfortably with the people you are spending most of the time. I talked about this with my mum so and then I changed the school so it’s also better to talk about it with someone.

Anyway have a great day! Until next time!

Cordelia

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Meet My Bestie

Hi everyone! How are you doing? What’s up?

Today I wanted to post a photo on Instagram but text I wanted to add to the photo was a bit big so I though why not to talk about it on Tumbler?!

Also I want to talk a bit about my best friend. Obviously I won’t tell hear real name so let’s call her Nova Dale (I have such names for everyone, even my family). Now I won’t go into deep with our friendship, this is storytime for some other day, but I will tell few things about us. We are pure opposites of each other (so opposites do attract! This fact ain’t from fictional world) starting from Disney movies and ending with Harry Potter. She’s huge Harry Potter book series fan, whilst I’m not. Book is okay, totally not hating on it and I do like fantasy books so that’s not the case. The problem is... the problem is that I don’t know what the problem is! I just don’t like it. I can’t say what exactly it is. Maybe my subconscious was just going crazy and wanted to be ‘different’ and made me dislike it, who knows? (Definitely not me). How ever we often joke about it and we even have matching socks (cliché ik). Her is Gryffindor and mine is Slytherin (I’m wearing them right now). I know what you’ll think ‘you hate Harry Potter books but have Slytherin’s socks?’ Well I love Nova and if I have to deal with her Potter things, I’ll deal with them my way. Plus I’m not hating the book, I actually very much enjoyed first two and the last book of the series (I haven’t read the latest one so don’t know about that).

So two nights ago I had a dream where Snape was my biology teacher (my real biology teacher and Snape would have been great match! Even I’m sometimes scared of her though I’m class topper and she loves me) and I was his favourite student. I actually taught others (obviously in the dream)! The funnies thing from feb dream was that my actual classmates and just friends, including Nova, where there. Another fun fact is that excluding my one friend everyone hates biology.

This is it. Then I woke up and since it was Friday and we always meet on Fridays I told Nova about the dream. Nova sighed and said “well of course, you and biology are insuperable! You basically took Malfoy’s place there”

That’s it. Just wanted to share this to you and have a nice day!💚

Ps really liked the picture it looks like portal to other world. And yes I took it. Just found it in my photos.

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Daughter of Sea and Spirit of Oblivion

I think that names tell a lot about a person. Have you ever met someone and thought that their name don’t fit them. Their face, characteristics...

I had. Personally I think that neither Cordelia or my real name doesn’t suit me. However I’ve got tons of nicknames (including ugly duckling) and they suit me more. Thank god, no one actually calls me by my real name, except, of course, strangers and few school teachers. And even they are starting to call me by nickname (It is my second year in that school) that I’ve grown so attached and feel like it’s my real name.

In conclusion, name is very important.

As for Cordelia, I’m starting feeling that she is that green eyed, masked girl with straight/slightly wavy hair (I’ll be posting pictures on my Instagram so follow me there).

Now, I’m not saying that she’s different from me, except she might be more graceful than me, and might have better skills at talking. However she’s part of me and I can’t live without her. I think that Cordelia is my nickname, or better to say, a bit more than just nickname.

I probably sound crazy, but you have to be in the same position as me to understand what and how I think. Or it might be just me feeling so, because I change all the time depending on what type of person or persons I’m with at that time. I won’t be the same for two different friend groups. My situation sometimes remainds me of one part from Halsey’s song “sorry”. At the very beginning she says that she changes mind everyday and treats people like jewellery. Now I feel like I’m treating myself like jewellery. As I take one facial expression and put another on my face, change my personality in a second.

However I don’t relate to the rest of the lyrics. I’m actually very sceptical about whole idea of love (between man and woman, not talking about love between sibling or any other at that point, just love between man and woman), it’s seems too unbelievable... but that’s topic for another time.

Back to the names.

Now that I’ve told a lot nonsense, I want to talk about meaning behind name Cordelia Lethe. I LOVE simbolics so I try to include something out of my soul and heart in everything!

Cordelia is celtic name (actually it’s oringin is uncertain you can google it up. Shakespeare used this name in one of his plays called “King Lear”) and means daughter of sea. However one of the most popular theories about its origin is welsh one. It means jewel of the sea.

I have affection towards sea. As a kid I would go to the beach every summer and it was impossible to make me stay away from the sea. Going to the beach was and is the best part of my life! But let’s get into it a bit later.

If you know Greek mythology or had read Percy Jackson’s books series (6th or 5th book I think not sure) you probably stumbled across that word.

Lethe means oblivian. You might think it’s odd to choose something that has such meaning for surname and I agree. It’s odd. But I want to say that I feel like everyone is living in their bubble and refuse to come out of it. It’s not like I’m the one coming out of my buble. We are living in oblivian that we created for ourselves and let the wind take control. Let it take me and my buble where ever it wants to.

That’s why I choose Lethe as my surname.

And I like how Cordelia and Lethe sound together. I also like how it comes out while hand writing. Like these to words were destined to be written together. Also I feel that oblivian and sea are close to each other. After all, sea and ocean is magnificent and dangerous and mysterious.... I can talk about ocean and sea whole day and don’t get bored but it would get us too far away in monologue (I literally have only 1 person who reads all my posts so if I ever get followers who stumble upon this post, I want you to know how miserable and absolutely in love I am with all this posts)

This post is quite long. I’m super thankful if you had read it to the very end!

Have a nice day!

Ugly duckling💚

P.s This photo is taken by me! Actually every photo that you are going to see here is taken by me, even the covers of the book and I’m taking those photos with me phone! (iPhone 7 Plus)

P.s. (2) I’ve edited this post five times!!!

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Ugly Duckling

Hi everyone! I’m so glad you stumbled across my post and want to read it!

This is my first tumbler post so I would like to introduce myself first. I’m Cordelia Lethe. I’m or better to say want to become wattpad writer. I love writing! And I have tons of ideas! I also love taking pictures of anything that seems special and beautiful to me.

Anyway, on this tumblr account I want to talk about my life, how I lived? What I’m doing right now? what I want to achieve? and so on.

I wanted to title this post “ugly duckling” because I feel like I’m one. I never looked like any of my relatives (who are successful and talented) and the way I’m expressing myself is unusual for my family. Writing is just overlooked where I live. This is truth of my society.

Everyone around me are into since/technology physics/mathematics and I’m just choosing completely different thing.

Now I don’t want to think that I feel like outcast in my family or anywhere at that matter. It’s just hard to talk about it here, in this society. That’s way I’m not choosing to write on my own language (I live in one of the small countries of Europe). I feel pressure when I’m writing on my language. I tried to write on Russian (I was raised bilingual) and it felt a lot better. However English is what I’ve chooses for now. Also I want to say that I’m still studying English so I might have some mistakes. Also I’m using British English spelling. Though I might switch time to time depending on what I am writing.

In conclusion I want to say thank you for reading this post or just cklicking on it/me. I’ll also be super thankful if you checked out my instagram and wattpad ( Cordelia Lethe for both ) and have a nice day/evening/night.

With love ugly duckling