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TheFamousFilms Doodles!

It has been quite a while since the last TFF post, hasn't it?

Aha. Ha. My bad. I've been focusing on posting stuff for another fandom because there's literally nothing there. Practically nothing. But I'd digress. This is a TFF post.

And its still about Bryan. Yeah. Not really confident drawing the others. Still trying to find an artstyle for the animatronics because I'm still not happy with how I draw them so no animatronics anytime soon.

Have some not daijobu Bryan though. He is not having a good time.

He has a ponytail :D

Still playing around with his design. I wanna change it up because he looks a bit plain aside from the mask but I feel like post apocalyptic clothing with the tank top and cargo pants is stuck. If there are any suggestions, feel free to tell me. I need new ideas.

His eyes kinda looks like Dylan so I gotta change that a bit but the goal is to make his eyes a gold amber-ish color because of reasons.

Trying to write ITH rn. I have an idea for chapter 3 but I haven't gone to actually writing it so maybe its not going so well. I'll get around it, eventually.

ITH is supposed to be me just having fun and making them do stupid stuff because I miss the old cast with a tiny hint of lore. So yeah. Having fun? Gonna take a long long while.

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Zenonia~

Not Zenonia 3 this time. Thank Argos.

It's the squad! Regretism if you will. Regret mitosed! Kidding. He didn't. Sorta.

Pretty sure I already explained why there's four Regrets in another post. But to summarize, Regret kinda fractured his essence so that Shaturu wouldn't be able to get all of his power.

Does that mean that Shaturu has some of his power? Absolutely. But without the Ladon power part. Ladon's power is passed on to the next Regret trying to save the world because he would be dead without it. So in this case, Slayer Regret has it.

I also nicknamed them. Druid is Drew, Ranger is Ray, Blader is Blade—so creative I know—and finally Slayer as Adas because of reasons.

Did I mention that Drew is from loop 1? And that loop 0 Regret is also a thing? And that he's half of all Regret's existence? And how that means that the Regret squad is only using half of their power and splitting it apart because they don't want Shaturu to absorb all of them? And that means that Slayer is just a quarter of Regret? If not, here ya go!

Wonder how the dark power is balanced when Regret isn't whole? Hmm...

Oh yeah. Drew has a bone mask while Ray has a fedora. Didn't draw them because I was lazy. I also apparently forgot Adas' scarf. Woops. That's why Blade was looking more detailed than the others. My bad.

I imagine Drew being the mischievous lazy one. He likes pranking people and trolling Shaturu when he gets a bit close to finding him. He's not active that much in his run because he doesn't really know what he's doing yet. He's trying to find the opportunity to strike and thinks that he can take Shaturu on his own but uh, that didn't work out too well. He got caught. So he cut up his leg to get away from Shaturu.

While Drew is devious and arrogant, Ray is not. He's a bit more calculating and solemn. He's the quiet type to contemplate on what to do next. Too much in fact that Anya almost got killed. So, finally being decisive, Ray decides to sacrifice himself so Anya can escape because she's their only hope now. He gets tortured. Very badly. Hence why he's asleep, again.

Blade is serious. Very serious and very reckless despite being the monotone constant poker face one. With Ray being indecisive, Blade is the impulsive one. Rushing through things and destroying the Mark of Ladons quicker than the others. He's getting sick and tired of the loop and so is Shaturu. Everyone is killed. Shaturu gets the taste of Blade's fury. The whole shebang.

Now Adas. Uh. He's a mess. Being a quarter of yourself plus with every other Regret's memories (read: trauma) showing up in fragments does a lot to your mental state. While every Regret did things solo, he accidentally gets adopted by the Royal Knights and is held captive (affectionate). He gets to make connections and friendships so when he fails to defeat Shaturu, he gets help not only from Chael but also from Ruira and Haz because they aren't commanders for nothing. Much like Drew and also Ray, he doesn't know what he's doing. More than that, he doesn't know what's going on most of the time. He just knows that he has to kill something, save people, and live. He's just vibing most of the time. In constant panic. Like a chihuahua. That's probably why he got adopted.

So to recap, devious overconfidence, calculating indecisiveness, impatient frustration, then panic confusion.

What a lovely friend group.

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More Regret—I mean Zenonia!

Hi. Its been a while. Too long probably but here I am! Still a desperate Zenonian trying to find content.

There still isn't much so yeah. More drawings.

Sorry, I've been in a long art block as of late. Managed to sketch something out of it though so yay. Still not out unfortunately so have this 1-2 hour drawing of Regret being Regret.

How is Regret really?

He's doing great.

No, he actually is.

For now...

But what I mean to tell you is how does a definitely fully functioning adult father Regret acts.

Oh you know. The usual. Pretending to be an adult. Pretending to be wise and know what he's doing. A general mess when it comes to anything remotely related to socializing because being exiled kills your social skills. Panicking internally if he's raising his kid right. Wondering how he's gonna gently tell said kid is adopted. Very very overbearing sometimes because he very much did not want his son to learn how to fight and be a warrior but loves his son so so much that he teaches him because if that's what his baby wants then he will give it.

(Give or take after a few failed attempts to talk to the bullies parents and stop it from happening. He really didn't want Chael to learn to fight. I wonder why?)

Oh. And judging by the flag he's holding... he does not how romance works! So don't ask him for any advice regarding your relationship with Frey, Chael. You're on your own.

So yeah. I don't really ship Regret with Elisa. I like to think their relationship is sort of what he had with Sun. But feel free to ship. Personally, I just don't ship him with anybody.

(Does Regret know he's aroace? No.)

I'm trying to make Regret and Chael not look like each other because duh they shouldn't be but I headcanon that Chael tried to copy Regret's hairstyle so he can be more like his dad. Regret is amused but concerned. Runa thinks its hilarious.

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The Geno and Sans dynamic brain rot is real I AM OBSESSED

They are brothers, they are twins, they are besties, they love each other, they tell each other puns in the middle of the night while Papyrus screams at them to stop cause it’s three am, they bother their lil bro on the undernet telling him how cool he is, they play with Frisk and take turns to take them on their blasters, their blasters are besties, their blasters’s names are all the names of bones, Sans forced Geno to change clothes cause monsters are dumb (affectionate) and keep mistaking them, they call each other on the phone and pretend they don’t know each other while sitting on the same sofa, Sans thinks Geno is too weird and amoral sometimes and he always tells him off, they have two different fast food stands and are rivals, one sells hot cats and the other sells fried snow, they keep changing from stand so no one really knows which one belongs to who, Geno claims the white dog is God and Sans thinks he’s joking but is very concerned cause he says it very seriously, Geno is scared of the dark and Sans finds it hilarious and always reminds him of it, Geno also finds it hilarious, they will mess with each other but they will not allow anyone else to do so especially if it’s a human, they put their debts on each other’s tabs (Papyrus ends up paying for both tabs), now there are two socks lying on the living room but each day they are two different socks

OH GOD I COULD KEEP GOING BUT I CANT READ THIS JHTFJHTFYJYF

I love post pacifist Geno we need more of him ^w^

Geno and Error belong to Crayon Queen

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What I mean is in when Regret was raising him. But I guess that it wouldn't be a good thing to say: "Hey son, you're an angel. And I'm a demon. I love you!"

Pardon's would be even worse. "Son. You are the son of Ladon, the Prince of darkness, the bringer of Chaos. And I'm here to make sure you never become that. Now go to Mrs Tender and help her get bronze!"

Oh lol, so Regret is from demon tribe and Chael is from divine tribe. Yeah this surely add to the angst in the family.

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Are we not gonna talk about the fact that Regret forgot to tell Chael that he's an angel??????

Oh lol, so Regret is from demon tribe and Chael is from divine tribe. Yeah this surely add to the angst in the family.

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I KNOW RIGHT?!

brb gonna re-learn Zenonia lore properly now.

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For more info about this AU:

Uhhhhhh...this is not a happy oneshot.

More Zenonia!

Its still dead. Pretty much. But its getting there. I hope.

So here's to contributing more content for this dead fandom!

Aight. Zenonia 1 Regret. I just want to make him suffer man. Hence why he's in a cult: indoctrination, isolation, and everything.

Except maybe Sun, who is very concerned.

Yeah. He'll get to the Holy Knights eventually. And he'll be hiding that tattoo under some piece of armor or some magic or smth. They won't know he's an enemy :)

Did Zenonia reveal Billy to be a traitor and a spy for a clan the Andra Kingdom has been fighting for years who's notorious for acting like humans so they can blend in and just let him fail in kidnapping Regret, never to be seen again? Not in this AU! Billy is a bitch. A manipulative son of a bitch.

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Dunno about you but I'm pretty starved on Zenonia fics so here you go!

Plus fics that inspired me to write!

Zenonia fics galore! Happy late New Year, Zenonians!

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THANK U FOR THE JON & BRYAN CONTENT U KNOW THEYRE MEANT TO BE PLATONIC BUT GOD THAT CHAPTER WAS FRUITY

the romeo & juliet nicknames........... gay. gay. homosexual. gay.

I'm happy to deliver. Very very happy because I love those two idiots with all my heart. I kind of referenced the way they talk with their non-roleplay videos and went straight to the character referencing part. (I believe Jon called Bryan Princess Peach.) Glad you enjoyed it. You're free to see them in any way you like, friends or partners, whatever. I'm glad you enjoyed that chapter :DDDD

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*Checks untouched ITH fic.*

Updated: 2023-8-28

Calendar: 2024

Yuki: Uhhhhh...

Happy (late) New Year!

Yuki: I'm so sorry.

*runs away*

[crappyyuki]

I've been currently loosing my mind of this, so I'm gonna say it-

So, Zenonia, it's an app on the app store, it's an android game, it's really good, for those who haven't played it, I recommend.

Now onto Zenonia 4 spoilers-

In Zenonia 4, Regret has been turned back into a kid again, and like, his son Cheal is there, and I cannot get out of my head this situation-

(For thos who haven't played, Cheal is a grown adult in 4, were his dad is now in the body of his child self-)

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Regret - "It's weird I have to act like a kid in towns now..."

Cheal - "Oh?"

Regret - "Yeah, I don't want people to get suspicous"

Cheal - "True..."

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Later Regret and Cheal are checking into an inn.

Regret is about to start talking to the inn keeper before Cheal jumps in.

Cheal - "Hello I would like a room with two beds for my Son and I"

Regret -

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Ze~no~nia~

Someone that's not Regret or Chael! Woooooooo!

This time it's...Frey!

Yes. She looks different. That's her adult self but I changed her Zenonia 4 design that better suits the version of her in my AU.

As Celine, she was a pushover. While she has lots of power, she let so many people— the Divine Tribe—trample over her. She let herself become Shaman when its clear she's too young to do so and became the hope of the Dovine Tribe to the point her life just became a routine of praying and praying and praying with no end in sight. To the point she was separated from her brother for 3 whole years.

That changes when Chael comes along. He inspires her to act more for herself. To fight for her believes and what she believed was right and thats evident when she tries to talk to Temir about Chael and Runa's imprisonment.

She makes the decision to live on Earth. I don't know if its from reincarnation or she stole someone's life, I dunno man. She just lives with humans now.

As Frey, she becomes more of a fighter. She's willing to be more upfront and tell others off when they take it too far. She defends Chael, the same way Chael has done for her.

(Don't ask about the timeline. Please don't ask about the timeline I don't know either—)

But she still wasn't able to change fate. She becomes Celine again when she let Regret go, when she let Chael go, knowing for a fact that they won't come back the same.

Some don't even come back alive.

In the aftermath of the Hard Mode Ending, she realizes her inaction became the consequence of Chael's survivors guilt and depression along with Mr Regret's death. So she changes. She learns to use her strength to fight for her own and fight for others, the same way Luxferre had done, the same way Chael and Runa had done.

Frey learns to fight for hope, not just give it or just say false promises. This time she has a drive. A will to fight for that hope to come true.

She had been training with Mr Regret after Chael disappeared. She begged him to train her and in worry of the same thing happening to Frey, Regret agrees.

Even with him gone, Frey continues training and when Chael is enlisted to help Deva Castle after Iris and Outer Iris literally burns, she joins. Both as a medic and a fighter.

When Chael tries to convince her to not join the frontlines, she tells him that she's doing this because she wants to. She wants to be by his side to help him fight for everyone. And Chael, knowing Frey, backs down and lets her. Still watching over of course but Frey does the same anyway even when Chael becomes the 1st Commander of the Royal Guard.

She trains under Ecne who teaches her how to use a gun, becoming a soldier in the skies. She fights the Devil Tribe that tries to get the humans on the ground and becomes a healer when there's time.

Frey trains long and hard and eventually she becomes the commander of the air force with some of the Divine Tribe helping the humans fight the Devil Tribe.

Oh yeah and they kinda had a civil war before that. The Divine Tribe—especially the ones from Midgard—did not want to work with humans at all. But Chael and Frey deal with it. Frey telling them all of the human's achievements like defeating fucking Ladon. Chael just politely begs them to get their shit together so they can fight the Devil Tribe and end this grueling war.

I just wanted Frey to be more active as a character, as support sure, but still actively fighting.

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You know the drill.

Zenonia!

I have a problem.

Aha. Ha. Yeah. Another Regret and Chael drawing. I love em. Sue me, I guess.

I love dad Regret with all my heart and I just love their dynamic, okay? Literally most of the flashbacks were about Chael asking for his advice. And aside from them having the best father-son relationship ever, the protag actually has a dad, a good dad. An adoptive dad but a dad nonetheless. How could I not love that? Best dad in RPG'S since 2011.

They are literally the main reason why I'm still in the Zenonia fandom and why I'm still waiting for the global release of Chronobreak even with it just being a standard MMORPG than Zenonia. I. Just. Want. Them. To. Be. Happy.

It has its flaws, sure, and plenty of plot holes like in Zenonia 1 why is Sun still alive in the Evil Route when its impossible for her to survive that attack or why the fuck did Dupre not tell Sun about Regret and vice versa or in Zenonia 3 did Regret know about Frey being Celine or did he just forget that Chael was an angel and just told him he was human but dammit the only flaw that matters is that they can't be happy together :(

And if Gamevil won't give it to me then I'll make it myself.

I want more Zenonia content :(

Oh. And don't let the cute sleeping baby face fool you. He cries all the damn time. Hence Regret's eyebags.

Regret loves him regardless :)

Here's the other versions!

I was trying to make a manga aesthetic. I hope I did it right.

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A son's bitterness

Everything was...alright after him and Runa got home.

Okay, maybe alright overselled it a bit but it wasn't as terrible as he thought it'd be.

Sure, some days passed like a snail and the house became more empty and bigger like it'd swallow him whole but after a bit of talking to with Frey, remembering his dad through hummed tunes and lullabies, and going out more, it was...okay. Alright.

Maybe Dad was right about him needing to talk to other people more.

But then a portal opened in the meadow.

And what reasonable reaction was to ready the sword you started carrying around everyday because of paranoia? Hell, even Runa couldn't blame him! She was getting ready too!

So when two things started getting out of the portal, Chael prepared a lunge and an attack.

And then he did and its a guy with spiky black hair, a ridiculously long beard, and wings. They both have wings.

It's Ponitifex Temir.

Reds glance up to the other by his side who looks terribly shaken and amused and its Luxferre.

"What the fuck." Runa says eloquently.

And Chael flushes red, gets off the angel, and helps him up with shaky hands. "I'm so sorry." He starts, wringing his hands together as a habit when he apologizes. "I didn't know you two would visit and I thought you were the–"

But the older man–angel laughs at him, albeit awkwardly. "No no, it's quite alright. We did come here unannounced after all. I suppose we had it coming."

Rubies roll. "No kidding."

"Runa!"

And that's that.

They lead them back to the house because where else would they go aside from their house? But Chael walks lightly because the two angels gawk at Outer Iris' flourishing greens and trees and colorful flowers. "You live here?" Luxferre asks.

Chael snorts. "No. I just tour here a lot."

They blink at him. Chael smiles painfully. "It's a joke."

"Oh." And they start laughing.

Chael looks away as to not let them see the awkwardness on his face. Then Runa hovers over his ear. "Oh god why are they here?"

He gives a subtle shrug in return.

They eventually get there and Frey's already sitting on her usual seat, always seeming to visit out of nowhere and its so frequent he doesn't even think twice to greet her. "Oh hey, Frey."

She blinks from the book she's reading, nursing a cup in her other hand. "Oh hey, Chael."

Frey now noticed the two other people behind him and takes a double take. And instead of dropping the cup like he expected, she chucks it at them.

Which is luckily caught by Luxferre, who now has a drenched shirt.

"Frey!" Him and Runa scream for vastly different reasons. Chael for growing embarrassment and Runa for pride and hilarity.

Realizing what she's done though, she apologizes, stands, and gets Luxferre a towel in the house.

But unlike what he expected from two royal Divine Tribe members for the unwelcomed welcome, they just stare at Frey's retreating form. "Doesn't she look like Celine?"

And Chael winces. Oh that's gonna be something.

And it was. But surprisingly, they get over it pretty quickly. Sure, there's weary gazes and tons of questions but Frey explains to them stiffly of what happened.

But when they ask why, Chael steps up. "She doesn't have to explain herself to you." They back down and Frey gives him a grateful squeeze.

Now though, Chael has questions for them. "What're you guys doing here?" He asks, eyes hard but heart thumping loudly in his ribs. He squeezes Frey's hand for comfort and she squeezes back to remind him she's there too.

Runa just glares. Which is fair. They did throw them in prison. And never apologized.

The two falter, wings lowering behind them. Luxferre clears his throat. "Well, we wanted to...visit you."

Chael nods but asks to continue. Temir, naive naive Temir, smiles casually and says, "can't I see my son every once and a while?"

And his heart drops to his stomach.

So that's why.

There's something tight in his chest, willing to be free, but Chael swallows it down with practiced politeness and says, "I see," with no hint of a smile. That's all he can give them.

They smile at him though and the feeling burns. Ambers and rubies look at him in concern but Chael breathes and conveys a no to subtle head shakes.

They stay closer after that. He appreciates it.

Chael stands. "Would you like some food then? I was getting ready to make lunch."

But they shake their head. "Thank you but we brought our own food."

Chael nods and goes inside, giving them a glance and an, "I'll make our lunch then."

Before he goes, Runa shouts, "heat up the pie for me, Chael!" And he gives her a thumbs up, not trusting his voice. He can already feel the concern behind his head.

He cooks with a mantra of, "dont cry don't cry don't cry," because crying on the food he'll give to Frey and Runa would be kinda gross and he doesn't really want to explain why his eyes look red. He can't help but let out some sniffles though as he heats up the pie.

Creator, he wishes this day was over.

Time passes too quickly this time and he has to go out again to serve the food and give the other two some utensils so they can eat. He does that, inhaling calming breaths then going out. Quickly, he gives the two angels a plate then gives Frey and Runa their meal. He looks up to see Frey frowning at him with pursed lips and he gives her a smile that doesn't quite reach his eyes.

He goes in for the final time, relishing the loneliness for a moment, before coming out with his plate and the pie Runa requested.

They're eating now. They all are. And Luxferre and Temir are eating...something. They see him looking and smiles. "This is a fine cuisine in the Heavenly Realm." The fine cuisine blinks at him. "Would you like some?"

He stares at the dish with blank eyes, then at Frey who smiles and also gets one, and sighs. "Sure." He says apprehensively, taking it and putting it on his plate. It's staring at him. Chael gulps, bringing it into his mouth and–

Runa gags.

Swallowing with a shudder, Chael decides he's never eating that again if he has a choice.

But Luxferre and Temir looks so happy and brings more. "Here. You're a growing boy, eat some!" He has no choice. Runa has the decency to not laugh and look at him with pity while Frey, bless her heart, takes some of it off his plate.

"Thank you." He whispers. Frey chuckles and eats it in one go. He gulps down shakily as the food continues to watch him. How can she eat it with a straight face?

There's more moments like that. Luxferre tries to help with the dishes but breaks one of the plates. Temir tries to get the glass but ends up getting bleeding fingers. He but all shoves them all outside so he can work in peace and that Frey can patch them up. He stiffles a laugh at the sound of scolding outside, already hearing Runa's mad cackles.

These two angels, one basically a king and the other a mighty commander, out of their depth as they try to navigate the human world so much different than their own.

They're trying. They really are. They're trying to be a part of this even when it's clear that they aren't.

He should appreciate the gesture. He really should, father had said that he should be grateful of the effort others put into helping. But as much as Chael believed that, as much as Chael wanted to uphold all his father's lessons, he can't help but feel angry.

No. Not angry. Bitter.

Because after everything they did, after everything they didn't do, after everything that happened, they were trying to pretend that nothing happened.

Like he wasn't treated like total garbage arriving at Midgard, like he wasn't thrown to jail for the crime of existing and for the crimes he didn't commit, like they didn't just allowed a 14 year old deal with the faith of the world on his own.

Father he could always forgive. He was there to help him in any way that he could. He died for the world for godsake!

Luxferre apologized for everything he did and helped him with Antione so he guessed he could forgive but not forget.

But Temir? The guy that took Celine and made her into a portal? The guy that helped the demon that summoned him and dad and got them almost killed?

The guy that was trying to be his father like it was okay to try and replace the dad he helped kill?

Give him a break.

At least Luxferre had the decency to look sheepish, to keep distance, to fucking apologize for everything and help him carry his dad and help him pay for the goddamn casket.

But Temir? Pontifex Temir? Who'd been the reason why the Degenerated Tribe were exiled and why he was treated like trash. Who'd been a helping hand to Tariq's plan to summon him and his dad. Who'd been one of the reasons why his dad was dead.

He can't forgive him. He can't. He can't forgive him even if he apologized. He was honestly glad that Temir didn't, at least he would have a reason to not forgive him.

So Chael's the one moving away from a hug Temir pulls him in. He's the first to leave to bring their dishes to the sink so he has some time for himself and to have less time to spend with them. He's the one not keeping eye contact and when he does it's nothing but a frown and a tight controlled grimace.

He misses when things were simpler. He misses his dad.

So when they leave, Chael breaks down into Frey's arms, burying his face and staining her shirt and cry cry cry like that wasn't what he's been trying to not do this entire time.

Runa hovers like a warm glow on his shoulder, patting his back with little hands and sympathetic reds.

Frey holds him like she's keeping the pieces from falling apart, keeping him together even if he's crumbling into dust in front of her. She holds him tight, reminding him she's still there and he's not there, whispering sweet nothings into his ear or humming songs under her breath.

It's almost like he was in his dad's arms again. Strong, warm, dependent.

(Shaking, wet, cold.)

But it's not the same. As much as he loves Frey's tight bear hugs, he misses the soft but firm embraces dad would give him, as though his arms were meant to hold him. The black cloak becoming his favorite blanket or the embrace as his favorite piece of armor that protects him.

Frey's arms kept him together as much it did break him apart.

Dad's arms around him meant that nothing bad would ever reach him.

And Chael misses that. He misses that so much.

He cries and cries and cries until he can't anymore, wishing, begging, hoping, that this was all a dream.

It wasn't.

It was only them surrounded by the cool breeze with a lone moon looming over.

"It's not fair." He says coarsely, a weak defiance against the fate that screwed him over. "It's not fair!"

Frey hushes him, rubbing circles on his back. "I know, Chael. I know."

"Why?" He grits his teeth. "Wh–why did they have to come back?" His nails dig into his palms. "They didn't–they didnt even–" Chael sucks in a sharp breath. Frey hushes him.

"It's like what happened was nothing—"

"It isn't nothing."

"It's NOT!" He agrees, all but composed. His voice cracks pathetically and for the times that the two call out on it, they don't now. Instead, they hush and whisper and comfort and he's so so grateful as he is tired. "It's not and they can't just–just show up like they. Did. Nothing!"

Runa huffs and quietly says when Chael wasn't screaming his lungs out. "They suck."

He snorts, it's a small fragile little thing, and he gulps, voice dying out to just gasps.

Frey, bless her soul for putting up with him, just holds him tighter and brushes her lips on his cheek to make him forget for just a moment. And it's at that moment he finally finally composes himself, picks up the pieces, stitch it together like the jacket be tried to stitch together but failed miserably, to have at least a semblance of calm.

It's not the greatest but at least he doesn't feel like ripping his heart out and throw it to the ground.

He buries his wet face on the crook of Frey's shoulder. "I hate him."

"Hm?" A question, a nonjudgemental one. And Chael trusts Frey to hold his brittle heart again and not let it break. 

"I hate Temir so much. I. Hate. Him." She pauses but doesn't stop, instead she readjusts her hold to run a soothing hand through his hair. And Life, Chael loves her so much. "I hate him I hate him I hate–"

It feels childish really. It feels so fucking childish. But it feels good. It feels good to let his anger out into the world and just be angry.

Father would be so disappointed. But gods he can't care right now.

Because...because–"he's trying to get into my life. He's trying to be dad. I hate that."

Frey, hell even Runa, pats his back. Gods, he forgot Runa practically raised him too. So not only were they spitting at dad's grave, they were also spitting on Runa. The audacity. The fucking audacity. He turns to Runa, giving her a red teary glance. "It's like what you guys did was nothing."

Runa, for what its worth, doesn't react. Doesn't judge. Doesn't flinch. She just watches, smiles, being reassuring like dad had been.

But doubts creep up regardless. "Does he have the right to be my father?" He can't help but ask because Temir is his dad. He's trying to be. And he's not sure if he should let him or if its right to.

It's Runa the one that speaks this time. "Only if you want him to be." She says firmly, digging her tiny nails on her his shoulder. Then she grows soft. "Do you want him to?"

Chael tries, oh he tries hard to see the angel with pristine armor as the raising for him. The one caring for him, the one training him, comforting him, and he finds that fuck that, all he can see is a black cloak, cerulean eyes, a loving smile, and a raspy low voice scolding him but also lulling him to sleep.

And he doesn't want to stop seeing that. He doesn't want that to change.

"No." Chael answers, for once sure in his confusing awful destined life.

And they accept that. "Then that's that." Runa says and Frey hums.

Then the doubts start creeping in again. "You think dad would be mad at me? For not giving him a chance?"

And Runa? Runa just snorts. "Chael, Mr Regret loved being your dad more than anything." She says a matter-of-factly. "I think he'd be thrilled you picked him over some racist piece of–" she closes her mouth. "Yeah. Besides, didn't he say he was the son of Ladon? Pretty sure he knows all about shitty dads."

Chael? Chael bursts laughing. Because that–that is so ironic. The irony in that is just so astronomical that its not funny but it makes Chael laugh like he's heard the best joke in history. Which it kinda is.

And Frey? She just chimes in like its nothing. "And didn't you tell me that he told you that 'he was the flesh of Ladon'? Not son? Daddy issues, I tell you."

"Pretty sure he's adopted too." Runa adds. "Heard him muttering a few times how he was gonna tell you how you're adopted and how he's gonna tell you about his dad. His human dad."

It makes him laugh even harder.

"He was not subtle, was he?" Runa asks, looking proud of herself.

Frey giggles underneathe his slightly hysterical one. "No. No he wasn't."

Ruby eyes roll. "He really thought he was subtle about it too."

"Guys–" Chael manages to croak. "Don't disrespect the dead, c'mon!"

They both grin at him. "You're the one laughing, not us." They say.

And Chael just can't stop laughing. "I can't believe we're both adopted."

Frey shrugs. "Hey, me and Seru are orphans. Not really rare."

"Speak for yourself." Runa smugly points to herself. "My mama loved me."

Both Frey and Chael roll their eyes. "You're the oddball here, not us."

Runa blows out a raspberry.

"Life, we're a weird bunch, aren't we?" He asks, pulling away and rubbing his eyes.

They both shrug again. "Eh. Can't say it's not great." Frey replies, her eyes showing no regrets at all.

Runa, just gives a thumbs down. "Imagine being normal. Lameeeeeee." Chael chuckles, her tone reminding him of the time she comforted him from his childhood bullies.

As the breeze brushed past them, Chael looks up to the moon. "I miss him."

And they both soften considerably. "We miss him too." Runa nods at Frey's response.

"You think he's watching over us?"

Runa is silent this time around and this time Frey is the one speaking with a dismissive hand. "You should've seen him when you were missing then. He said that once he found you two, you were gonna get wrapped in bubble wrap and never going outside again."

Both Chael and Runa gulp. "Definitely watching then." Chael mutters.

"If not," Runa starts. "Threatening gods."

They all look at each other. "Definitely threatening gods."

"He was really protective, wasn't he?" Runa asks, knowing the answer. The two blonds answer anyway.

"Yup."

"You remember when he found us in the woods getting chased by Mukakas?" Frey starts.

"Oh yeah!" Chael brightens. "He was so cool. Like he went in and swoosh and bam and then–"

He remembers that day well. As terrifying that day had been, hearing a clash through growls underneath squeezed shut eyes and then opening to see a black blur spur in and put a distance between an injured Frey and him was a shock. Even more as they ran, he saw the way his father gracefully and swiftly attack each monster with a sword he always wondered why he carried it. It was...breathtaking. It made him wonder as he looked at useless hands if he could do it too. And now he could.

"You guys remember when Mr Regret beat your ass?" Runa prompts and Chael gives her a deadpanned stare.

"Yes. It was everyday, Runa. Every. Single. Day." But as exhausting training had been, it was worth it. Strict discipline. Patient observations. Chael learned through falls and mistakes. From an amateur to an experienced warrior. His dad told him so.

Dad told him he was proud of him.

He stares at now calloused hands. "I hope he's okay."

Chael startles at the hand on his shoulder and meets the gentle gaze of Frey who smiles at him and stares upward. He follows and sees a lone twinkling star in the moonlit sky. "I'm sure he is."

Runa hums quietly, sitting on his other shoulder.

The breeze blows past him, the cold caressing his cheeks. His eyes start burning.

"I'll make you proud." He whispers to the air, not enough for Frey or Runa to hear.

He swears he hears the wind say, "I already am." in the distance.

[crappyyuki]

Am I mass posting Zenonia content? Yes. Yes I am. There's nothing. Bruh. So Imma be a good fanon citizen and fill this shit up.

So. Regret and Pardon, the first characters we see in the Zenonia series.

We never really saw what their father-son relationship looked like so I'm here to rectify that even if I'm not sure how to write it.

Kid Regret is going through 'I'm an adult now' phase while having saddened puppy dog eyes when his dad leaves to visit his other child.

Context: his wife didn't want to raise Regret because her and Dupre weren't ready to raise two children so Dupre became Pardon to raise Regret in secret. But then she died and now he's going from house to house to raise them.

Pardon is just trying his best for the two of them while respecting his wife's wishes.

While Kid Regret doesn't know why Pardon's leaving all the time, he wants to prove he's worth staying for.

(Someone planted those seeds of doubt in Regret's head.)

The armor was sooooooooo hard to draw. Goddammit Pardon, wear some normal clothes for godsake!

Also, Pardon's hair looks like a fucking coconut so if his hair looks like Sukuna that's because I used them as reference.

This is a scene of a fic I'm working on. Basically Pardon addressing the fact his son is currently experiencing child labor. And he doesn't get paid for any of it.

Pardon: They don't pay you?

Regret: I'm supposed to get paid?

But Regret just insists that he doesn't need it and he's doing it out of the goodness of his heart.

Pardon thinks the sentiment is nice but...his son's getting exploited.

The fic is basically kinda a time travel fic where future Regret memories slowly yet surely go to kid Regret just before his dad dies, so Pardon's not dead. Yay. But Pardon gets to react the slow transition and then the full transition later on.

The transition doesn't go smooth.

In fact, it is a very very rocky road for the two of them.

They don't have a good time.

But I sure do :)

Let me know if you want to know more!

[crappyyuki]

More Zenonia!

This time, Zenonia 4 :D

This is actually the first game I played from the Zenonia series and I was just hooked. And then I was stuck at a dead end which was Stone Face because the fucker just wouldn't die.

So yeah.

The latest playthrough I had, which was just a few months ago, I made it to Shaturu in Normal Mode but I hit another road block with him. My Blader had decent defense but shitty offense. Since you only had a short number of time to attack him, you need to have high damage to kill him. I wasn't sure if Zenonia 4 had a limit to leveling but I got lazy grinding in the same area so I stopped.

But that's enough with my experience, let's head to the loreeeeeeeeeee.

Aight. So. Timelines. Time travel. Yeah.

My AU:

In the OG timeline, Shaturu is the one that revives Regret. It doesn't go well. At first, Regret falls for Shaturu's tricks because death sucks and he wants out, but he eventually realizes his mistake after seeing Chael in his traumatized war veteran glory. Plus a burnt up Iris. When Shaturu tries to absorb his power, Anya had enough of the Devil Tribe's bullshit and turns back time.

Also Regret, before Zenonia 3, started learning different classes so he could teach Chael, but then he died.

Now let's move onto the first Regret...Druid!

I don't know why I chose him to be the starting point but he is. Azimet, Warden of the Land of the Fallen, chose to help him and Anya to go back to Earth so Shaturu doesn't get to him. Druid Regret wasn't a kid when he started, but he does become one. Why? So he doesn't get spotted by Shaturu easily.

So this guy specialized in stealth and became one with the forest. He foils Shaturu's plans in a distance and runs when he's spotted. Druid Regret tries to find a way to stop the world from ending. He finds a Mark of Ladon somewhere in a forest and destroys it. Finally having a plan, he tried to find all of the marks but Shaturu eventually catches up to him, cuts off his leg, and tries to absorb the power again.

Anya, once again, turns back time.

Now for Ranger Regret!

Yeah, he becomes a kid a lot earlier than Druid Regret. And he doesn't remember shit. Azimet realized that he needs to keep Ladon's flesh in the Land of the Fallen so he makes Regret forget the memories that will fuel his drive to come back to life and keeps an illusion up so that he'll always be happy and have no reason to leave. Druid Regret doesn't have time and says that he needs to get out of the Land of the Fallen and defeat Shaturu. Seeing the illusion, he mentions what happened to his dad and how hopes that Sun forgives him. Whatever trance voodoo magic Ranger Regret was in, it breaks and he has to fight the warden that protected Druid Regret last time.

Him and Anya find themselves in the snowy region where they find a Mark of Ladon. They destroy it and is found by the wizard guy in the scroll. They learn that they can use Anya's time traveling abilities to change the past and try to learn how to use it but Shaturu finds them. The wizard dies, Ranger Regret, in an attempt to protect Anya, fights and gets tortured. Still he resists and refuses to give Shaturu what he wants. Hence why he's sleeping in the drawing. He's exhausted and needs his rest.

Anya, who ran away, finds a Regret tortured beyond relief just by death's, and turns back time.

Blader Regret's memories are brought back when Ranger Regret dazedly begs him to save his son Chael.

This Regret...he was very fun to think about :)

Because on the end of his quest of almost saving the world, Shaturu kills everyone in the resistance. He kills Chael. Right in front of him even when Blader Regret begged for him to stop. Regret, after hearing his son's dying words, breaks and tortures Shaturu :)

He figures out a weak point but doesn't manage to kill Shaturu because he gives up and sees the pointlessness of fighting but the dead kinda encourage/force him to fight so he does. But during the torture session, Blader Regret didn't notice all the injuries he's been sustaining, and in a moment of weakness, he's almost killed.

Anya turns back time.

For the final Regret...Slayer Regret!

Aight, this guy starts like how Zenonia 4 started. Azimet committing identity theft and yatta yatta. Blader Regret comes in and tries to kill Azimet himself but is stopped by Slayer Regret. Blader Regret explains the situation and dies, giving his final words to Chael that he won't fail this time. It's enough to trigger a crack in the illusion and Slayer Regret goes to find answers, only for them to come true. He kills Azimet and him and Anya go back to the land of the living.

Shaturu is mostly absent in this run because of Blader's actions. The coward.

Unlike the other Regrets, Slayer joins the resistance accidentally because Elisa forced him to and a flash of Blader's memories flash in his mind. Chael's demise. He stays. Anya is not happy. He tries to find info in the resistance while giving a helping hand and trying to find a Mark and a lead to Shaturu. It kinda works. He also works his relationship with the others and while Chael is suspicious, he still treats Adas fairly. Ergo, when the seniors start bullying him, he's there to stop them. Or when Adas needs rest, he makes him rest. On one of the expeditions, Chael and Adas grow a little closer as Chael reveals his insecurities. That he's not good enough to be 1st Commander and that he's not meant to lead and how he doesn't know how his dad will think of him. Adas reassures that his father is proud of him, which he is. He also gets a weird feeling when he's around Elisa, suspicious.

Then, after destroying the last Mark left, and handing the Holy Gem to the King, he goes to fight Shaturu because him and Anya had been trying to prevent Shaturu from rising in power but that hasn't stopped him, so he goes to fight him thinking that he finally has a chance.

He's thrown in jail.

But is saved by Elisa, they run, Chael comes along, he runs to find Elisa and escorts her outside, and barely manages to save Chael himself.

Chael tries to tell Adas he can't win the fight and that he won't let him go but Regret finally reveals the truth with Anya supporting him. Chael is relieved but still tries to stop him but at his father's pleading, he lets him go.

Regret and Shaturu fight.

He almost succeeds but Elisa is there to defend him. Regret can't fight her.

Shit happens. Ladon's energy is almost absorbed. But Chael, Ruira, and Haz saves his ass. They keep the claws and Elisa at bay so he can deal a final blow.

Druid, Ranger, and Blader come out to fight with him, keeping the remaining claws from reaching Slayer and Blader tells Slayer Shaturu's weak point.

Shaturu dies.

They win.

That was so long lmaooooo.

But if you have any questions, feel free to ask, I'll try answering them :)

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