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[cursecrazy-writing]

It's not like this blog has attracted virtually any attention so I don't know what good it is posting here, but I feel a little guilty saying nothing at all when the least I could do is leave a sort-of farewell note explaining why I'm not around.

Uh basically I'm very done with writing. I owe thousands of words to various commissioners, and I still intend to get that work done, but beyond that, I'm not going to waste any more of my time writing stories. The whole endeavor has plainly not been worth it, all the stress of a second job but with a fraction of the pay, so I'm just going to stop.

And really, it hasn't been about the money. I've always undersold myself because I know the true value of writing as a job is worth extremely little, and that most of writing is based on passion. What I've strived for previously was not to make a lot of money or a living off of writing, but to simply put stories out and have them be read. What I desired most was feedback -- not necessarily criticism, but literal feedback, any signal or indication that people are reading my stories, that these stories affect people and that they're happier having read them. But for years none of my stories have been getting noticed, certainly not enough attention to merit months of work or even the amount of effort it takes to upload and advertise a story on social media. You can see how a vast majority of my uploads here on this Tumblr have 0 notes. On Twitter, I was lucky to get two or three likes from some of my regular followers that habitually liked anything I posted. I go to my Patreon stats and see mere double digits of anyone even clicking the damn links. So this main goal of mine, to simply have my stories be enjoyed, is utterly failing.

The reality is that I am not a good writer. If I was a better writer, I'd see more success -- my momentum from Endless would have continued for a little more than just a couple months of attention. Even Endless itself was a strike of luck, because the only reason that story saw so much success is because it got stuck on the first page of giantessworld.net so it got a disproportionate amount of notice. Maybe this wouldn't bug me so much if I didn't see other writers of varying skill levels doing much, much better than me with regards to social media interactions -- blogs that have existed for days get triple digit notes, blurb-sized fetish writing tweets that get shared by dozens of accounts, etc. Clearly there's a right way to do these types of things and I've just been doing them wrong lol.

Not helping whatsoever is how anti-erotica every social media seems to be. And I do mean erotica specifically. Obviously you can find tons of outright porn here on Tumblr or Twitter or basically where the fuck ever. But an account that just posts writing? Weird fucked up niche writing about fetishes? With NO pictures??? The algorithm simply will not allow it. I'm constantly under pressure to have to expand my skillset to include abilities I have not honed, leaving me with the option to either learn how to draw myself (basically taking on a third job so I can practice an art craft i don't even want to be practicing just so my main craft can get non-fucked by an invisible intangible algorithm) or, my favorite, ~hire an artist~ to make images for me so that I can at least pretend it's my writing that people enjoy and not the actual art I had to pay someone to make.

To top it all off, I just don't feel like writing any more. I've been writing giantess stories nonstop for five years and I'm basically done with it. I haven't had any ideas that genuinely interest me, no inspiration to create, everything feels like it's either been done before or it's trying way too hard to be an original concept for a size setting. More than just a case of writers block, I really don't feel joy from writing anything. On a technical level, all I can imagine is the silent criticisms, people cringing at my writing but never explaining why it's bad, because again, none of my stories ever receive any category of feedback, so I'm left wondering completely how people felt any way about a project that took me months to finish. I just have to assume that if no one is saying anything, it must be because there's nothing good to say about it; I see all sorts of dumpy little comments on other people's publications, but I get zero, implying something critically wrong with my art compared to others.

Eventually, the goal is to close the Patreon, the discord, and all other accounts -- probably only once I've caught up on all commission work and can just deactivate peacefully. By then I hope to have at least uploaded or re-uploaded everything I've written onto some place for record purposes, maybe ten years from people will feel like reacting to my writing lol. Until I fully deactivate, expect me to be basically gone, I won't be taking any extra work and won't be checking messages. I hope some of you enjoyed what I made. Thanks for reading.

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Zelda's Minish Study - Part IV

A new fanfiction has been uploaded early for patrons: "Zelda's Minish Study - Part IV"! Zelda's research of the micro-sized minish civilization continues, as she utilizes tiny cameras to get a close look at the developments of different colonies.

Read it here~ Available publicly in one week!

The above story is a Legend of Zelda: Breath of the Wild fanfiction, featuring Zelda interacting with a society of micro-sized people. Contains themes of micro-sized interactions; mass abduction/captivity; crush/destruction; giant breaths; feet/footwear; surviving off a giant body; sweat; ear play + ear wax; hair; insect interaction.

Or, consider starting my Zelda's Minish Study series from here~

Thank you all for the support~ If you'd like to support my writing, consider pledging as a patron! Or, perhaps just buy me a coffee~ Reblogs + likes are greatly appreciated to help get this new account boosted and viewable!

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Raid Gone Wrong 2

A new fanfiction has been uploaded early for patrons: "Raid Gone Wrong 2"! The double-dynamaxed Lopunny explores a bustling city in search of a new den. Meanwhile, three separate trainers dynamax their pokemon in hopes of restraining him.

Read it here~ Available publicly in one week!

The above story is a Pokemon fanfiction, featuring a gigantic Lopunny rampaging in a city, as less-giant pokemon and their trainers attempt to restrain him. The story contains themes of male and female giants; furry; growth/ungrowth/multiple giants+sizes; rampage/destruction/crush; feet/paws/stomping; ass/tail; vore/almost-vore/spit; masturbation/cum; humiliation.

Thank you all for the support~ If you'd like to support my writing, consider pledging as a patron! Or, perhaps just buy me a coffee~ Reblogs + likes are greatly appreciated to help get this new account boosted and viewable!

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Triple-Threat Travelers

A fanfiction has been made publicly available: "Triple-Threat Travelers"! A curse befalls Agnea, Throné, and Castti that causes them to continuously grow at different rates and fill their heads with unusual urges. As the tallest, Agnea takes charge to explore Clockbank, while the others struggle to restrain her -- and themselves.

Read it here~

The above story is an Octopath Traveler II fanfiction, featuring the characters Agnea, Castti, and Throné becoming differently-sized giants that continuously grow. It features themes of growth; multiple sizes; teasing/humiliation; rampage/destruction/crush; sudden sexual urges/clouded judgment; group sex with tiny people; nudity; breasts/breastheld; feet/legs; ass/sitting; handheld; sneezing.

Thank you all for the support~ If you'd like to support my writing, consider pledging as a patron! Or, perhaps just buy me a coffee~ Reblogs + likes are greatly appreciated to help get this new account boosted and viewable!

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The Elphelt in the Room

A new fanfiction has been uploaded early for patrons: "The Elphelt in the Room"! After a hardcore performance, Elphelt goes to unwind in the venue's green room, unaware that people she gave backstage passes to have all appeared shrunken around her.

Read it here~ Available publicly in one week!

The above story is a Guilty Gear Strive fanfiction, featuring Elphelt Valentine in a room full of micro-sized people. The story contains themes of unaware; feet/boots/footwear; crush/stomping; sweat/body odor; stripping out of clothes; ass/sitting; body exploration; vore mention; breasts; giant noises/voice.

Thank you all for the support~ If you'd like to support my writing, consider pledging as a patron! Or, perhaps just buy me a coffee~ Reblogs + likes are greatly appreciated to help get this new account boosted and viewable!

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Courtney's Alolan Taste-Test

Available early for patrons: a new Pokemon fanfiction, "Courtney's Alolan Taste-Test"! Using the power of wormhole technology, Courtney successfully shrinks the islands of the Alola region so that she can use them as ingredients in various foods.

Read it here~ Available publicly in one week!

The above story features Courtney shrinking the islands and characters of Alola to near-micro size. It features themes of shrinking/micro interactions; abduction; vore/mouthplay/licking; giant foods; destruction; breasts.

Thank you all for the support~ If you'd like to support my writing, consider pledging as a patron! Or, perhaps just buy me a coffee~ Reblogs + likes are greatly appreciated to help get this new account boosted and viewable!

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Divine Intervention - Act I

Available early for patrons: a new story set in the angels universe developed by size artist MC Raps, "Divine Intervention - Act I!" An evil cult threatens to indoctrinate the mortal realm. Giant angels from heaven are sent to intervene. Praelia, a veteran intercessor with a dark passion for her job, is tasked with guiding the groundskeeper Kaethe through the ways of destruction rather than creation.

Read it here~ Available publicly in one week!

The above story features the original characters and setting developed by MC Raps. It features two giant female characters, angels from heaven. It features themes of destruction; crush; feet + stomping; mouthplay + vore; breasts + breastheld + breast crush. For 18+ readers only.

Thank you all for the support~ Consider pledging to the patreon for early + exclusive access to more stories like this! Or perhaps just buy me a coffee~ ko-fi.com/cursecrazy

Reblogs + likes are greatly appreciated~ It helps this new account get discovered! Thank you~

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Bellyache

I know "Tummy Day" is more of an art thing, but there's no law prohibiting me from taking part with my writing anyway~

Bellyache is a short story I wrote a few years ago, but I still think fondly of its simplicity and premise. A woman suffers stomach pains while also growing uncontrollably huge, bursting out of her home and begging her girlfriend, a doctor, to do anything to help -- before she eats the whole neighborhood in distress.

An older story, but I'm sure folks will appreciate it right about now! The story contains themes of growth, destruction, and vore; for adult readers only!

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Halloween Tales - The Vampire, the Ghost, and the Dryad

In the spirit of Halloween, I'd like to turn the clock back a few years to feature a set of stories I wrote for the holiday! Whether you're just now discovering these short stories or if you'll be rereading them, I hope they satisfy any sizey Halloween hankerings~

The Vampire. Partygoers get lost from a Halloween outing and end up riling the appetite of a giant vampire.

The Ghost. A woman investigates a supposedly haunted mansion and becomes the plaything to the ghost girl dwelling inside.

The Dryad. When a mother's child goes missing while trick-or-treating, a giant pumpkin-based dryad is discovered.

Some stories are spookier than others, but all have their different appeals~ I hope you enjoy! All stories are for 18+ readers only.

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Hex's Trick-or-Treat

Available early for patrons: a new Pokemon X/Y fanfiction, "Hex's Trick-or-Treat!" Hex Maniac dresses in a Mimikyu hoodie for Halloween, but no one in Lumiose recognizes the pokemon, except for gym leader Viola. After having her picture taken, Hex becomes obsessed with the attention, and shrinks Viola to use her for a personal photoshoot. 📸🎃

Read it here~ This short sizefiction goes public in one week!

The above story is a Pokemon fanfiction featuring Hex Maniac shrinking Viola to a few inches tall. The story contains themes of shrinking; abduction; handheld/pocketed; clothes; body exploration; feet; vore teased; breastheld; nudity; photography. For 18+ readers only.

Thank you all for the support~ Consider pledging to the patreon for early + exclusive access to more stories like this! Or perhaps just buy me a coffee~ ko-fi.com/cursecrazy

Reblogs + likes are greatly appreciated~ It helps this new account get discovered! Thank you~

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"... Do you want this acorn?"

Lots of things get tangled up in Cursey's hair when she's traveling through stories. Fortunately, this time it's just an ordinary acorn. You should take it.

Drawn by her papa @switch~

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Ambition's Equilibrium - Chapter One (Patron Reward)

An original story has been uploaded early for patrons: "Ambition's Equilibrium - Chapter One"! A fairy is the key to powering an artifice that can displace mass and size, but her careless behavior and desire to be bigger results in size-changing mishaps for the women behind the magical device.

Read it here: https://bit.ly/3sdbR4y Goes public in one week~

The above story features multiple diverse characters from an original fantasy setting experiencing various size-changings as they make use of a magical item. It contains themes of shrinking/growing; multiple sizes; domination/humiliation; growing/shrinking out of clothes/nudity; size stealing; sex; mouthplay;  mass shrinking.

Thank you for your support~

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I think I've finally struck a point with Cursey + social media where I realize it's just not worth the hassle of making it "work." I think the fact is that fetish writing is always going to be undercut on modern social media so it's not even worth the effort of trying to tag everything just right, or include the exact right SEO, etc. because ultimately the moment the algorithm detects that my post is about weird porn, it's going to dump it into an irrelevant category and make sure as few people have their feeds clogged by its presence. Even porn-"friendly" places will put huge censors, blocks, and shadowbans on fetish posts, it's kind of torture trying to figure out what exact words are allowed and won't get your account hidden without any warning or clue whatsoever, while also trying to put in enough words to reach your target audience + describe the contents within so they know what they're getting into.

So basically my strategy going forward is to probably be as lazy as possible with social media lol. Trying to hold myself to this professional standard is just not something I can have on my plate right now, not when social media is also actively working against me. If you see my posts getting sloppy or less consistent... I guess just know that I don't care as much! Because it really is such a waste of mental strength trying to make social media work for me.

I'm here on Tumblr for now and don't foresee myself going to any of these new places. Every single new social media spot seems to be making the same exact pitfalls as its predecessor, and I don't want to waste my time setting up new accounts and learning about new ~algorithms~ just so I can get maybe five extra pairs of eyes on my fetish writing.

If you aren't seeing my posts or updates, don't be surprised! Tumblr might very well decide to shadowban me without any explanation or heads-up, just like every other social media site. It's highly likely my posts will end up hidden. If you want to stay up to date with my writing, there's no better way than subbing to my Patreon and turning on alerts, so that whenever there's a new post, you get a notification about it immediately. It's the only reliable method of actually seeing my posts -- anywhere else has a vague but real chance of just being made invisible to the public.

For now, I'm going to try and keep this tumblr alive by reposting some of my older/now-public stories, mostly because I think I have to "prove" to tumblr that I'm not a bot account and that I actually have a human soul. I love social media! So be aware you might see some "new" stories that aren't actually that new if you've already been following me~

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Demon for a Day - Part III (Patron Reward)

Updated early for patrons: "Demon for a Day - Part III"! After having outgrown the Mage's Academy, the giant fairy Canaan aims to destroy the campus and the islands floating above it. Head Councilmage Eternis arrives to stop him and grows herself to match his size, but becomes distracted by his unusual existence.

Read the story here! Goes public in one week~ 🧚‍♂️🎓

The following story features a patron's OC in an original fantasy universe. It features a giant male fairy beginning at ~hundreds of feet tall, before growing into ~thousands of feet tall and even bigger; includes an equally giant female character. Contains themes of magical compulsion/"hypnotism"; shared senses between two people; feet, legs, ass, hands; sweat/sticking to skin; giant couples/sex; crush/violence/destruction; dick/cum/masturbation; breasts/breast crush; absorption/size stealing; vore/anal vore; god-like powers; watersports.

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Shelly Infiltrates Team Magma

Available early for patrons: a new Pokemon fanfiction, "Shelly Infiltrates Team Magma!" Piloting a shrinking all-terrain vehicle, Shelly sneaks into the enemy base, avoiding giant Grunts and the infamous Admin Courtney.

Submerge 🌊🚿

Contains themes of shrinking/micro/vehicular shrinking; unaware; showering; watersports; crush; feet/boots; ass/sitting; in-shoe; sweat.

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Scully's Shrunken Stripper - Act I

Available publicly: a new X Files fanfiction, "Scully's Shrunken Stripper - Act I!" When a small-town stripper is shrunk to 5 inches tall, Agent Scully has to earn her trust without getting distracted.

The truth is out there 👠🔍

Contains themes of shrinking/shrunken out of clothes/nudity; gentle; feet/footwear; implied abduction.

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Goddess of the Deep - Part IV

Available early for patrons: "Goddess of the Deep - Part IV!" The goddess begins her orgy ceremony with her Collection. Vivian must satisfy the giant woman before her impulses go too far for her and her sister.

Send prayers: bit.ly/3UI0F9e 🚀🙏

Or start from the beginning: bit.ly/38jLKM0

Contains themes of captivity; nudity; body exploration; people as clothing; ass/butt crush; breasts/milk; masturbation/insertion; vore/mouthplay; alcohol; worship; mind-break.

(I'm going to make an effort to post more on Tumblr -- ya know, due to current events and all. Make sure to follow for updates~)