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“Pregnancy will humble you”

I’ve heard many pregnant women say this but I took it with a grain of salt

All I thought was how someone changes physically

But until I got pregnant and understood what “pregnancy will humble you” really meant

Pregnancy will humble you enough to love your new different self

It will humble you enough to love the parts of you that you thought were ugly

It will humble you enough to accept the person you were before is now dead and gone

You will be humbled enough to know that it will never be about you anymore (new sheriff in town)

You will be humbled enough to adjust and accommodate another human, to love and to care for them fully!

Pregnancy will teach you how to be patient,especially with yourself

Pregnancy will force you out of your comfort zone,it will make you do things that you thought you couldn’t

It will humble you enough to let go off control and accept to be taken care of and helped here and there

I have learnt to accept that as a pregnant woman, I am a delicate being but at the same time a strong human a “WOMAN”

Inasmuch as I have been humbled by pregnancy, I have come to learn how to appreciate my body and how to respect women better

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Motherhood A "hood" that i'd totally wish any woman to have an experience in Comes with a lot of changes, physical and emotional to be specific and of course finacial. As one goes through pregnancy, so many mixed feelings are experienced, fear, excitement, only to name a few The best thing possible is to ride the wave and be positive, it helps a lot! Something helpful to do during pregnancy is taking care of your physical & mental health Good physical health will really be helpful especially when it comes to giving birth You need to observe what you eat and how you move These two will have a great impact on your baby as well Pregnancy is indeed a beautiful period #pregnant_world #pregnancy #pregnant #pregnancynutrition #throughmylens #pregnancydiary #firstimemom https://www.instagram.com/p/Claxr4KIj-C/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

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My baby kicks are like little massages to my soul🖤

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“You are unworthy

Look at your agemates

They are all better than you and doing so much with their lives,unlike you

Try ranking yourself with them,you come last,right?

You should just take yourself out

You are not as pretty as they are

Your body is not as pretty as theirs

What really do you have to show for your life? Nothing,right?

As i have told you over and over, just take yourself out

Nothing that comes from you is ever good enough,in fact,not good at all

You try and fail over and over, once again, i tell you, hoping this to be the last time, take yourself out

Do you think the world will miss you? Do you think anyone will miss someone like you who is flawed and full of mistakes?

Always a f*#k up?

No!! No one will miss you

Everyone will be relieved

People, including strangers will come and make merry at your death. Maybe then will you make an impact of putting a smile on people’s faces ‘cause of your demise”

I looked back at the mirror,smiled and hot the off button in my brain. “Not today! Not ever!! You don’t control me,you don’t own me, i own you and i control you” i said to my brain

I am alive, I am healthy, I am strong, all coz of the endless battles i have had with my brain

The world needs someone exactly like me, the world needs me ‘cause I am worthy and I have worthy impacts

…My daily affirmations

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The moment i knew i had you in utero I took precautions, cautions and sacrifices

Just to make sure you are healthy and whole I no longer put my needs first I consider you before i consider myself

Love at first attachment...

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The two red lines came with mixed emotions

Fear of losing my old self & meeting a totally new person throughout the journey

And excitement of meeting a totally new person throughout the journey

….motherhood.

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When did it all start?

When did the rain start beating us?

We were perfect, so good together

Never in a million years did we ever think we’d throw words at each

We saw couples fight

And said we were better than that

Then came our first fight

It wasn’t ugly

Peaceful and amicably did we solve our issues

We kissed and made up after it

“Haha first fight was kinda awesome” we joked and laughed

“We are such adults” we both thought to ourselves

Then came our second and third fight

Amicable was such a foreign word

We both wanted to have the last word and be right

We went to sleep angry at each other

We didn’t care about how the other party felt

All we cared was who was right and who wrong

Puffed eyes in the morning from crying

But no one seemed bothered by the other’s wellbeing

Later after we were in a throuple with fights

It was our daily bread

Not a day would pass without a fight

If it did,we’d fight because we haven’t fought

Then came the mother of all fights

Where fists were involved

Black and blue were faces and arms

Nothing could be solved after this

It all ended

No one saw it get to this

Maybe we could have stopped it

But both our egos were too big

Is it worth it?

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You coasted me my peace

I had to let go

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The cost of loving you

I thought it was only attention and love

Told myself I could easily afford that

Until my peace of mind was at stake

And there is where i drew the line

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A healthy relationship with one's self is the foundation for a good and happy life. If someone is undermining or attacking your self worth, self love, or self confidence, they are having a toxic effect, and you need to protect yourself. It could be family, friends, or your lover. Pay attention to whether they support and uplift, or attack and tear down.

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Second chances are for the weak

This is what society taught us

In the contrary

The strongest people are those who offer second chances

That is the kind of belief I want to grow in

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And now we are strangers

We had promised each other forever

I did’t know forever would be that short

You moved on so fast like we never existed

Left me questioning my worth

Now I see you holding her

The same way you used to hold me

Your hugs are tighter

Something I craved for

I see her laugh, guess you are telling her the jokes you used to tell me

Your skin got clearer

Is she giving you peace more than I used to?

I remember you said forever

I gave you my all cause I knew I was yours forever

Right?

You gave me only parts of you

I knew it

I felt it

But i wasn’t brave enough to question about the gaps I felt

I guess you are giving her your all

Cause when I look at you, I see a stranger

Everything about you is now new

It feels like i’ve never known you

The handshake you gave me the day we met

I could sense you in my body still

Clearly parts of me still remember parts of you

There is a place in my soul that had built a home

And labelled it you

Bet it’s time to break down that home

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Im home sick of a place

Im sure it exists

Where my heart is happy

And my soul is at peace

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Healing Me

Thank you for this suffering. I know it's only temporary. I embrace it knowing this lesson is important, knowing I made some mistakes. I chose the person who didn't love me, who couldn't give me the only thing I need. I'm not desperate for it, I'm not crying. I'm looking in the mirror noticing the way my smile lights up the corners of my eyes. I feel beautiful, even without makeup, even without his adoration.

I am a unique creature, a woman of high value, the kind that any man would be lucky to love. I chose him, the one man who couldn't be bothered to. "It's not me, it's you." I loved him with all my heart and soul and body. But I love myself more than anybody, and it's time he knows that I'll never put anyone above myself. I was after his heart, not his wealth, but he guarded it like he'd been used before, so I took the first exit and searched for more.

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You had a chance in my life

But you blew it

You left me saying that I’m too clingy

I was forced to learn how to live alone

And more, to live without you

As time went by, I knew my worth

And I learnt that I would never leave myself

That made me strong

Never would I have thought that I could be strong on my own

Thank you! For the light you brought upon me

Now that you’ve seen how strong I am

You keep telling me you admire that

But you had your chance

And blew it

Now it’s your turn, to learn how to live without me

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Truths

There are truths shared only  between two lovers which no single living soul in any other way discovers I cannot predict the future knowing not what lies in store  yet I can state without a doubt my heart is yours forever more while so little here is promised I believe dreams can come true and whatever truths may await I wish to share them all with you