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I am back! (sorta)

This is the first Dramione fic I've written since 2004 and I honestly don't even remember the old ff.net account I wrote under (probably something horse related tbh).

My current FYP is just FULL of Dramione and I've started at least 5 story drafts and 30 something outlines 😫

I'm honestly super proud of myself for getting around to finishing this. I've been in a writing slump for a while and it feels good to write again. Hopefully this is a sign that I'll be writing more 🤞🏻

Please read and comment to let me know if you like it 🥺

The Scar He Cannot See

Rating: M

Characters: Draco Malfoy/Hermione Granger, Hermione Granger/Ron Weasley

Summary: Hermione Granger-Malfoy has a secret. After keeping it from her husband for three months, it is time to come clean. But to do that, involves opening old wounds, and cutting new ones into an already damaged area.

Status: Complete

Read it on AO3

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The Scar He Cannot See

Rating: M

Characters: Draco Malfoy/Hermione Granger, Hermione Granger/Ron Weasley

Summary: Hermione Granger-Malfoy has a secret. After keeping it from her husband for three months, it is time to come clean. But to do that, involves opening old wounds, and cutting new ones into an already damaged area.

Status: Complete

Read it on AO3

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I'm almost ready to post the first few chapters of a dramione fanfic that I've been thinking about for some time. I'm somewhat nervous since it's been a while since I've written anything and it's a fandom I haven't been in for YEARS (I first started writing probably around the time Prisoner of Azkaban came out in theatres. I feel old 🧓🏻).

I have some idea where it is going to go but I am well aware that I am a chronic problem with starting something and never finishing it. We'll see 🤞🏻

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Me plotting out a great fanfic idea

Me when I sit down to actually write it

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Anyone else great at coming up with story outlines but then completely fail to ever finish actually writing the story?

My current hyper fixation is Dramione and I have about 15 outlines, and 0 plans to ever really write them out because my current track record for finishing things I start is about 10/289.

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The Malfoy men hard at work 🫡...😴

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Clean/ Marked Dramione

I absolutely LOVED Clean and up to about the 80% mark, I liked Marked. I just… I have mixed feelings so beware spoilers ahead…

Marked having Draco on the hunt for horcruxs and hollows was really cool. I thought dark Hermione stuck on Draco’s death was eerie and it left me wondering how everything was going to end.

BUT then time turned ex machina and revert to canon…

Anti climactic in my honest opinion. Not only was Marked undone, but Clean as well and that just left me feeling like I wasted time getting invested in this story. It was just… unsatisfying.

It was definitely going down the route of tragic ending that would leave me bawling for days and I honestly would have preferred that to undoing the entire timeline.

Anyway, Clean is going on my Kindle and I’m gonna pull my own time turner ex machina to forget the ending of Marked

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Honestly just seeking validation from strangers online because my depression and anxiety are causing me physical pain atm.

Background:

I’ve been learning to play the bass guitar for a little over a year now. I just wanted something creative to add to my mental health toolbox and learning a new skill and focusing on that can be helpful.

Had a lesson with my teacher today. He told me I’m doing well and taught me new exercises. Usual stuff.

2 hours later he emails me, drops me as a student because I’m not progressing fast enough.

I’ve never been a fast learner. I’ve also been very clear with him about the specific skills that I’ve struggled with.

I think what upsets me most is that he didn’t even tell me during my lesson. I thought I was doing well because he gave me no indication that there was something wrong with my learning speed.

I don’t want to stop learning but this just picks at an old wound that keeps reopening. Reminds me too much of the times where coaches or teachers told me I wasn’t good enough and each time was just a major blow to my low self esteem and frequently resulted in me quitting.

I don’t want to quit but right now looking at my guitar just makes me feel sad and worthless compared to earlier today when I felt confident and proud of what I was learning.

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I’ve fallen down the dramione rabbit hole and I don’t think I’ll recover.

Just finished this and I’m an emotional wreck.

Last two weeks I’ve just been consuming these fanfics like a monster and the sheer quantity of stories that just tear out your heart, stomp on it, and cast incendio followed by bombarda maxima makes me question the collective mental health of everyone. Are we all really that masochistic that we enjoy all this hurt?

Not that I’m complaining. I love angst as much as the next BUT right now I really need a good explicit fluff piece that isn’t going to drive me to needing to spend my next therapy session talking about a fanfic.

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“We’re so sorry. Please don’t hate us for this.”

“That’s all right. I didn’t have to get the real Hinamori involved in this mess…I don’t ever want to make her cry again.”

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Hitsuhina week, day 14: timeskip

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I haven’t read dramione fanfiction since I was in middle school but since The Auction is actually going to be a published book now, I got sucked into a rabbit hole so deep I can’t even see straight because my eyes are glued to my screen as I devour Lovesbitca8’s stories.

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I've been thinking about this a lot today...

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MY DARLING MOMO FINALLY LAUNCHES A COMBO ATTACK

IT HAS BEEN ALMOST TWENTY YEARS

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Gerard vs Everyone 🔥

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Things I need right now from Thousand Year Blood War:

Hear Hitsugaya’s adult voice.