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I found this through pinterest and check in every now and then, I hope it becomes a really thing, it's gorgeous

What's up I'm writing a story about two friends who are teetering on the line of becoming more than just friends (in a lesbianly manner) when a demon possesses one of them and complicates things

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Jason: Hey, Alfie! Which of us was the least crazy as a kid?

Bruce: Let’s face it. None of us were easy children. I dropped out of college and then dropped off the grid. Dick was a menace—

Jason: Nah, Dick’s the Golden Boy.

Bruce: He wanted to single-handedly hunt down a powerful criminal and thought the entire manor was a trapeze.

Dick: Well, Jason was like the perfect kid.

Bruce: He ran away, died, and started murdering people.

Jason: Fair. But the Replacement’s your perfect little soldier, isn’t he?

Bruce: He stalked me, he says incredibly concerning things with no idea how concerning he sounds, he started YOUNG JUSTICE, I—

Damian: Batgirl III is boring. Surely she was easy to deal with?

Bruce: Are you kidding me? She got pregnant and started a gang war!

Steph: Guilty as charged. But Duke’s the normal one, so—

Bruce: You started a gang war? Duke started a gang!

Damian: I’m the perfect heir.

Bruce: You’re an assassin who is currently attempting to turn my house into a zoo. And you keep trying to murder Tim.

Jason: Eh, we’ve all been there. Except Cass. Cass hasn’t tried to murder anyone.

Bruce: Cass tried to fight Lady Shiva to the death, despite refusing to kill. Cass is not well-adjusted either.

Cass: Barbara is good.

Bruce: No, she keeps hacking the Batcomputer. And she’s dating my son. Honestly I have no idea how I’m still sane.

Alfred: I’m afraid your sanity is very much in question, Master Bruce.

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Did Nat dye their hair ? Really love these character's dynamic !

I get a little silly w the hair color and use it for color motif stuff so it looks different in every other drawing LOL both Nat and Regan's hair are natural (Nat's just changes a lot bc it's supposed to be black + reflect the lighting environment)

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do you think dick is ever just shocked at how technologically advanced the newer robins suits are? like when it was just him and bruce it was just straight up spandex that alfred bought from like some fabric store and DIYed for them. and now there's new robins that have like mini computers in their suits and dick's like ??? you could do that????

jason: *falls down like five storeys* dick: oh whoa little wing! you good? you know that spandex isn- jason: *already picking himself up and dusting himself off* dick: what the actual fuck?? how are you standing??? jason: oh? Yeah the suit is made out of like a ploy carbon kevlar so it doesn't hurt too bad dick: you mean it's not spandex?!? jason: no? that's so unsafe, why would anyone do that?

dick: okay we'll just have to get into the main building and hack into the computer tim: oh i already did that dick: ??? when? we literally just entered the building like five minutes ago tim: oh the ai in the suit just hacked into the computer for us while we were trying to break in. i mean we didn't even have to enter the building but you really looked excited so... dick: what?! you know back in my day we actually had physically hack into computers, with like a keyboard

damian: *bleeding from a stab wound* dick: we have to get you back to the cave! damian: tt cease your worrying grayson! the suit has already began its first aid protocols dick: your suit does first aid?! dmaian: just the basics. did your suit not do that? dick: no???? bruce literally ran around with bandaids and gauze all the time

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Bruce sends the family groupchat one (1) random 'i love you all' and they all instantly assume he's about to die. Damian falls to his knees in a Walmart and starts praying. Stephanie crashes her Spoiler van into a tree. Dick misses a jump and falls 3 stories into a garbage can. Duke calls his social worker.

Barbara starts tracking his location and live reporting to Cass. Tim gets his cloning tubes ready. Jason goes M.I.A. and is found three weeks later floating facedown in a pool.

Ten minutes later he sends: "Clark suggested I show my affection for you all more often. Apologies, won't happen again." and the world blows up instantly.

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Sensory Aids

Sensory Aids are pry the biggest comfort factor in my day to day. That I fit into two categories. 

1. Stuff that helps me deal with external stimuli while I am out (tone down sensory input)

2. Stuff that helps me decompress when I am alone so I can be more comfortable in general

Sensory are the objects that help me function in daily life. First, the ones that I generally always have on me are sunglasses, earbuds, but especially earplugs. Noise is the most overwhelming thing and with earplugs I can tune that down while still being able to hear the people around me. It took a couple days to get used to the slight difference in the sound but genuinely it makes it so much easier to focus when everything is tuned down and sounds from electrical wiring and HVAC systems is removed. I use Loop Earplugs they are not the cheapest and their might be others but wow do they work so well. They are discrete and small, I don’t find them clunky and they don’t make my ears hurt. I frequently forget they are there. They are endlessly reusable and very functional. I have several sets that like in my backpacks, at my desk, and several other useful places that way instead of having to consciously remember them they are just around. 

Also in daily life I find having fidgets helpful especially in settings where I need to focus and/or stay still. My absolute favorite are Tangles which are very quiet and the junior size is small enough I can mess with them in one hand while taking notes with the other. The other fidget I frequently carry is a Pop it Keychain just as another option for a way to channel my movement. 

I also use sensory aids to maintain my space and to give myself functional space. 

For managing smell I have a HEPA air filter which gets rid of lots of the ambient smells and all of the dust from a room while being very quiet. Additionally, if I want to add a smell I have an essential oil diffuser that I also use as a mini humidifier in the winter when the air dries out. At my desk I keep a small container of coffee beans that I can smell ever so slightly while I work. I don’t drink coffee but I like the smell and a small container of bulk beans I saved from getting trashed is a nice little touch. 

In terms of bigger feelings of pressure and motion I have two things to recommend. First, hammocks. Oh my titan are they wonderful, the motion, the cocooning, the pressure. A cheap hammock from the internet and a set of straps is great. I actually have one hammock that stays under my loft bed and one that is a double size (so it can wrap around me more) that I take out to set up around campus or in the woods. 

Weighted blankets are the other big thing. Going to sleep with them is so much easier. There is just some switch in my brain that flips and suddenly I can chill out and get to sleep it makes my life so much easier and more comfortable. The recommendation is 10% of your body weight but because that isn’t directly all on me and is also around me I have slightly more than that. As long as you can comfortably move it if you try I think it is fine. They are wonderful to sleep with but also just to curl up under when everything feels a little too intense. 

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What I Want This To Be

I have done a lot of work on myself and I want somewhere to share what I have learned in the process. 

I’m queer, nonbinary, and autistic. 

I’ve dealt with a myriad of different kinds of trauma in my life. I am diagnosed with anxiety, depression, and have partially a ptsd diagnosis. 

Now at 19 I feel like I have moved on in a really meaningful way. I want to share and also just have a sort of record for what I work through. I want to believe that my experience is worth something and I think it can help people. 

I really want the world to be good. I want this to all be worth something. The world has been so cruel to me but I want to do what I can to make it better. This is my attempt at doing so.