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Today's "Consider This"

- his mother's name is mary

- he was tempted by the devil

- he had lots of haters

- he died for your sins

- he was resurrected

Jesus Christ or Sam Winchester?

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I've been thinking about my life. What's the purpose?

Even the AI doesn't know. When someone asked it, the computer, a huge data base with information of hardly everything known answered '42' a fucking number, what's that supposed to mean?

You have to life until you are 42?

You have to earn 42 M dollars?

You have to take 42 daily minutes of rest?

You need 42 kisses/hugs a day, a month?

What? If existence is so precious why doesn't anyone knows how to life happily and relaxed without being born in a rich family.

Fuck the universe. Fuck 'God'. Fuck everything (except you all, I don't know you but you deserve love and respect).

Life sucks.

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I feel that humans are really similar to stars. The less pollution there is, the brighter and more intense they shine. If a pair of nuclei get too close, they end up exploding, killing each other. We appreciate a dead star even if all we see is its residual glow. We are attracted by the colors of stars that are about to fade. All too far away to know what we look like. We often don't realize our own brilliance and we are often blinded by others. Everything would be dark if we were alone.

Isn't it beautiful?

To be able to find so many similarities in things we unconsciously admire?

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The entire album of "Romance: UNTOLD" by Enhypen. I just love it soooooooooo much.

I need someone to love me the same way I want to love someone...

ATTENTION

If you see this you are OBLIGATED to reblog w/ the song currently stuck in your head :)

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My life in a sentence:

sorry i didn't reply i have existence issues

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Indeed, if not I'll explode

sorry for complaining so much it’s just that I need to

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sorry for complaining so much it’s just that I need to

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I overthink things you've never even thought of

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Why did they not keep it?!?!

Let them be gay!!!!!

they cut this scene from the pilot because it was too gay!!!!!! too explicit!!!!! stop looking at each other like that!! stop playing soft and heartfelt music!!!!

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House md literally dropped this bisexual coded scene and didn't even offer any explanation

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I really wanted a dramatic arc when Cas turned human. Not that the original wasn’t dramatic, but I wanted a more "fanfiction-style" one. This powerful being, older than humanity itself, whose true form is massive and capable of blinding people, now trapped in a fragile human body.

Imagine a newly human Castiel with the Winchesters (yes, I’m ignoring the Gadreel arc), and he slowly starts to feel unwell but doesn’t tell anyone because he’s still unsure about how a human body works. He feels weaker and weaker until, finally, he tells the Winchesters, deeply disturbed, that there’s something wrong with his vessel.

“It’s not a vessel anymore, Cas,” Dean gently explains. “It’s your body now.”

Sam asks him how he’s feeling and follows up with such a basic, simple question that Castiel is filled with shame: “When was the last time you ate?”

That’s when Castiel realizes he hasn’t eaten or drunk anything for almost two days. Dean jokes about low blood sugar, and Sam carefully explains how many times he has to eat every day.

I wanted to see him lying in bed at night, eyes wide open, staring at the ceiling in the dark because Sam and Dean told him it was time to sleep—but he has no idea how. Human babies do this from their first day of life, so surely Castiel would be able to, right? He lays there for hours, in the same position: on his back, eyes open. It’s 4 a.m. when his body finally gives in to exhaustion. He feels useless and bone-tired the next day, angry at himself for failing at something even newborns can do.

His emotions changed too. It’s not that he didn’t have them before, but back then, his feelings were tied to big things like wars, rebellion, the loss of his brothers and sisters, and, of course, Dean Winchester (who was definitely right up there next to “stop the world from ending” on his list of important things). But now, he’s afraid to cross a damn street because a car could hit him, and his vessel doesn’t have the strength to protect him from something as trivial as getting hit by a car.

Imagine one day they need to do a spell, and it requires blood. Castiel volunteers and does it just like he’s seen the Winchester brothers do dozens of times. The cut on his palm doesn’t bother him much—after all, pain is one of the few things Castiel is still familiar with.

But now it’s been a week, and his hand still hasn’t healed. It still hurts. And that is something he’s unfamiliar with. Pain never lasted more than a few hours in Castiel’s life. Sure, he’s been tortured before, but that’s different because it’s constant new wounds.

Castiel’s been dealing the cut on his hand for seven days, and it still hurts, bothering him every time he has to hold something. He’s exhausted because he still hasn’t gotten the hang of sleep, he needs to eat every day, and he has to go to the bathroom multiple times. He smells if it’s been too long since his last shower. He’s never smelled bad in his life, and now he stinks after a day, he’s always hungry and tired, and his damn hand still hurts!

At this point, it’s like The Last Unicorn—"you trapped him in a human body, he will go mad."

Dean would find him in a full breakdown, and for the first time, he’d truly understand Castiel’s reality—how Castiel already had a body, how he’s from a completely different species, and now he feels trapped in a reality that’s not his own.

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YESSS (first hilson comment I see)

Favourite ship dynamic: no one truly knows what exactly is going on between the two characters, including the characters themselves. But whatever it is, it's written in the fabric of the universe.

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the most unrealistic thing about Supernatural is that the boys never had a lore book open to an ugly ass monster, held the book up to the other one, and said "lol that's you"

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And I think this is the thing that disturbs as that much, not all the others mf parts of ,for example, reviving the characters all the time (and from all why Cas was naked), I love how normal we are :]

If I could pick one person from the spn universe to talk to I’d be very tempted to pick Daphne Allen because girl what do you mean you married the naked guy with amnesia you found by the lake?? I mean Jimmy is a missing person so I highly doubt she even went to a police station to try to find his identity, not to mention he was wanted for killing a bunch of republicans. Also I NEED to know her thought process when a mysterious man showed up making intense eye contact with her husband just like took him and never came back. Daphne girl this isn’t an attack I just want to know your mind.

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How is it a new fear? Have you watched spn, no? You'll probably have all the knowledge to fight every each of them. So, there are two options left, you fight it and the brothers don't see the news anywhere because it stops or you fight it and it attacks another one without the knowledge so you can interact with them.

supernatural has rotted my brain because i could be going on about my day normally and i'd randomly think "wait what if im in the intro of a supernatural episode"

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supernatural has rotted my brain because i could be going on about my day normally and i'd randomly think "wait what if im in the intro of a supernatural episode"