dwindlingdenny

[dwindlingdenny]

Post 1 : Introduction

My name is Denny, and I am a 22 year old woman.

I've struggled with weight loss all of my life, and ever since early childhood - as early as the age of 7 - I have struggled with B. Ed and weight gain way over the safe measurements. All of my life up until recently I've always been on a FAD diet, or binge fest, with no other manner of consumption in-between. By age 13 I already weighed an awful amount: 119.8 kilogrammes (264 lbs). Unhealthy, struggling, and in pain - I was taken to one of the best hospital of the capital city. I was diagnosed with prediabetes and given Metformin to manage my poor health. I was also given a diet plan, however following it did not work out, unfortunately, since at age 13 I was struggling emotionally to the point where su!€!dal. Therefore, for the longest time I wouldn't care at all about life itself.

About around age 17 I first got into fitness after stumbling across Obese to Beast on YouTube. My first exercises were almost inadequate workouts consisting of only sit ups, stretches, and squats. However, this newfound affection towards physical exercise and ability snowballed. Soon afterwards, the weight was simply falling off on the grounds of meal preparation, staying consistent with the workouts, which kept getting easier and easier. That was also when I chose my prom dress, which is important later on.

As good as this period of my life was, it was shattered into nothingness by a heartbreak when I realised a long-term crush of mine - whom I've genuinely admired for well over 3 years - had started an intimate relationship with a close "friend" of mine. I let everything go for several months, putting back about half of the weight I'd lost - about 10 kilogrammes.

Soon, it was about two months until prom, and my wonderfully dreamy babypink princess dress did not fit. At all. I panicked. And in the span of just a month I fit in the dress again through severe restrictions and constant cardio workouts.

After graduation I entered a very dark time of my life, because I was continuing my unhealthy, almost inexistent diet, and if I did eat anything more than my daily caloric intake (of a little baby..) I'd make myself sick. My last summer before University was my Coke zero summer. It was the only thing I consumed other than water.

Then, at Uni, I met my wonderful then colleague, then boyfriend, currently fiance. He retaught me to eat again, and eventually after 3 years together I gained most of my weight back. Currently, I weigh 104 kilogrammes as of today. Jan 1rst I weighed 106.4 kilos, and I know this for a fact because I ended 2023 in the hospital again. Discovering my blood sugar issues are far from solved, and my family tree illnesses are too realistically close to me. I have hugh cholesterol levels. My blood pressure, similarly to my family members', is generally messed up. I'm headed towards Podagra quite like my grandfather. I am only 22 years old, and learning about my health actually having had a massive decline in the past 9 years since my last check up was shocking to say the least. I was prescribed medication again, to manage most of everything, and had a very serious and open talk with my endocrinology doctor. She was kind and understanding, and gave me rather sufficient information for my next steps.

This is how I've managed to reach this day. A wonderful lazy Saturday where I'm daring to seek accountability.

I am losing weight for me, and for my future.

Being somewhat of an online diary, this platform for me does feel like a safe space, therefore I'd be happy to receive any help or advice!

Thank you for reading this far along and I hope to see you tomorrow again!

Yours truly,

Denny