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Get others to help when your voice cannot reach

KKS

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Teacher Support

Why haven’t rural teachers and schools been given any spotlight or acknowledgments? Posts about classroom teachers in the public school have come to light about numerous concerns surrounding classroom sizes and the needs of their students, however, there should be more awareness towards rural schools. 

I am currently working in a K-3 classroom. I may only have 8 students in my classroom, its like YES I have 8 kids in my class BUT IT FEELS LIKE 20! I feel as though people overlook the fact that teachers, in a big(ger) school, have more than 2 teachers at a school. I really want to emphasize that I have a K-3 class. I have numerous needs in my class that range from Autism, ADHD, ELL, and challenging behavior, along with students behind in their academics. There is a  mix of these conditions in most, if not all, of my kids. I am so thankful for my team. Do not underestimate the magic of a rural school. There are only two teachers in the whole school, the grade 4-7 and myself. We have 2 EAs, which out of the two, we have to share an EA between both classes. I have an EA assigned to my autistic child especially since he has challenging behavior along with being non-verbal. Our second EA needs to be shared among both classes. Both classrooms have high needs yet they cannot be met due to lack of support. Our funding for EA support is ever changing with expected budget cuts, which in turn, leave our kids behind even further. How is a school supposed to function with only two teachers and 1.5 EAs? This is only the tip of the iceberg for teachers out here. 

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UnF*ck Myself

People are fucking exhausting. They are constantly telling you their thoughts about situations and stuffing their opinions and judgement down your throat without actually getting to know your desires and wishes. Why is it that others think they know you better than you know yourself? FUCK. Just LEAVE me alone. Let me figure my own shit out without your biased thoughts. I get it. You may not agree with me but I want to do what feels good to me. I have always listened to others and it didn’t get me far because I wanted to make mistakes. Everyone else was aloud to do it so fuck it right? Nope. I had to keep up an image, so I decided that I needed to get away from everyone in order to form an opinion about myself. I need to unfuck myself from society’s values and beliefs. Here’s to giving no fucks!! **

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Self Love Journey

People are so influenced by the people around them. The internet makes it so easy for people to become influencers even when they don’t necessarily want to be one. People are impressionable and tend to follow the footsteps of others rather than listening to their own heart or intuition...whatever you want to call it, majority of people do NOT know what they truly want from themselves or others. I know I’m guilty :). 

Growing up in a strict household was tough since there were a lot of opinions on how you should act and talk so you were constantly pretending to be someone you weren’t. I grew up with a skewed image of the world. I know the world can be cruel but I never understood in what ways until I was forced to start thinking for myself. I feel like I have been on autopilot for the longest time. I never had an interest to listen to what someone was saying...errr I should say HOW someone was talking. I never really paid attention to HOW people say something, but then suddenly I am feeling angry or annoyed and I’m not sure why. Sure, I know that they said something I didn’t agree with or like...obviously, which leads to explosive conversation and no resolution,but I never understood why I reacted to certain comments negatively even if that wasn’t the other person’s intention. I am starting to figure out what makes me tick and how I can change my behaviors.

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Love yourself first...wtf does that mean?

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Stop and Focus

There’s a path every which way around you, even in the darkness. You take steps forward but its when you start to panic and start making zigzags in your decisions rather than listening to your intuition. You need to pick a direction in order to move forward. 

KKS 

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Familiar? If you’re anything like me, then this is a constant conversation with yourself. Why should I be sorry for improving upon my flaws? I am far from perfect, hence this post. Maybe its because I am heading into my 30s, but I feel a shift in my thought process. Becoming more aware of my actions and triggers is becoming somewhat of an interesting project. What better topic than myself?! Up until now, I’ve been playing it safe by keeping to myself. I am just glad I have someone to redirect me towards my path. Being vulnerable is the toughest feeling people can experience. 

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I won’t allow myself to find an answer in another soul. The key is right there, buried deep within me.

- e.c.