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Hi. (waves) Uh. Breaking news. I used to go by the name Adam D, but in an effort to further separate myself from my source, I'm going by the name Matt now. Especially since Raven recently fused into me. I simultaneously feel more like an Adam and also less like one. Overall I guess I feel more like myself?

Also my eyes are blue now, so that's pretty sick.

-Matt

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@thecryosystem Hi Rowan

-Alden

What is with systems and the name Rowan. Why does it appeal to us so much. Why do we keep meeting systems with Rowans.

~🎱

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We'd probably be gamers if we had a better laptop, smh.

Anyway we got a Bingo.

-Alden

Thought this would be fun!

- Star

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Eklesia System Update: 2/7/2025

Anyway I thought I could update everyone on what's been goin' on with us.

We've had our work hours cut severely and have been a bit depressed because of it. And feeling unmotivated on the whole. We've also been having some trouble with one of our persecutors, who has been getting irrationally angry every time we set foot on Tumblr. He's doing better now.

Our brain has crafted a creative solution for our lack of motivation in the form of Alden, who was formed to hold our self-destructive tendencies and lack of desire to do anything. Unfortunately he has become our primary host so that backfired a bit. I am happy to report that Alden is getting help in headspace and feeling a lot better on the whole.

I myself have been a tad depressed and holding off on re-splitting Kass from myself to handle it. But I finally did split him to handle the depression and I'm feeling a lot more capable now myself.

Our switching has... also been off lately. Very "sticky" and taking longer than usual. Switch rotor was gunked up again. These things happen I reckon. We're tidying the switch room and mechanism today. It has a habit of getting messy in there.

That reminds me, I wanna make posts some time detailing exactly how our headspace functions. I think it would be fun to try to explain terms we use like "Mainframe Operator" and "Switch Rotor".

In other news, it's been a struggle trying to get up the nerve to look at DMs and asks. It's an anxiety thing and I apologize to anyone who is waiting on a response. We need to get on meds for it somehow because this is a really debilitating issue that has stopped us from making and keeping friends for YEARS. And it happens regardless of who is fronting. Tuvok holds the general anxiety but this anxiety is a whole different ball game and we may need someone else to form and hold onto it.

I think that about covers it. See y'all next time.

-Khaz

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CW: Fakeclaiming

I just want you all to know that this comment was left on one of our posts where my sysmate fiancee Beccs goes into some of our harder struggles of being a system, about Alter Soup and the depressing situation with Black Pearl at the time:

I don't have patience for assholes like this. We blocked and moved on. I don't even think it's visible to anyone anymore.

I'm just not sure what this type of comment is meant to achieve. What is it? Are you unable to cope with the idea that people have a condition you don't understand? What drives you to march onto someone else's blog and make inane comments such as this?

Now you can see in my userbox that I'm not easily angered. Most of the time I just wanna know what makes people act like a childish bully and post childish bully things such as this. It makes you look pathetic. We have 8-year-olds in our system with more maturity than this commenter.

Did I get a little pissed? Yes. This was a dark topic they decided to comment on with their nasty little remark. But the longer I look at it the more I just wanna... laugh? I feel like they thought they threw a poisonous dart at us that was gonna hurt us real bad but they threw a foam dart that just... bounced off?

I'm picturing a child running up to us, shouting "you're lame! >:0", throwing a foam dart at us, and running off thinking they did actual damage. That's the energy this comment brings.

Oh? They were expecting it to hurt? Oh I mean "Ooo owch, that hurt my feelings! ;_; That was so mean." Overall this comment is 1/10 and it only gets the one point for the subject matter on which it was posted.

Fakeclaimers are never talking to you on your level, remember that.

-Khaz

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Why is it lately that us even existing on the internet makes me angry? I don't know what my problem is.

I mean. Part of my problem is that I'm insanely paranoid and distrustful. Shadow says it's my main problem. I'm sorry I'm impressing so much on the system, guys. I'm trying to get better. Then when I'm doing OK everyone else can get back to positivity and fun times or whatever.

-Blindeye

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Hi. Uh, so you know Tom? Well, he permafused with another alter called Rabbit and now I'm here. I'm Zac.

Just saying hi. I've got a lot of shit to process but for now, I'm gonna do what I love best. Drawing. :>

-Zac

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Hey. Thanks for the encouragement. I'm really trying to cheer up. Unfortunately the antisocial tendencies are making it really hard for me to want to interact with people, I think. :/ Made worse by everything else.

I appreciate this response a lot and even though Khaz is fronting right now I wanted to say thanks personally. It's very easy for me to be angry right now and the kindness really does help a lot. Thanks.

I'm probably gonna drop off the host role and just chill in the back for a while until I'm feeling a bit less mad at the world. In the meantime maybe I'll edit my userbox or something.

-Adam V

So our own Adam V has been languishing a bit. He's asking me not to go too into detail about how he's been feeling recently, which is completely fair. There's the personal emotional reasons, and then there's the political reasons. State of the world and plural Tumblr's got him down.

He doesn't want to front much and he doesn't want to answer the friendly asks that have been sent to his side blog. For the life of me I can't tell if he's been suffering from the overall uptick in anxiety that we've had recently, or if he's been the main cause of it.

Either way my little brother could use some positivity. He's saying wholesome LGBTQ+ stuff would cheer him up quite a bit. I may as well try and find him something. We might do him some artwork as well. Time for Operation: Cheer Up Adam.

-Khaz

[eklesia-system]

So our own Adam V has been languishing a bit. He's asking me not to go too into detail about how he's been feeling recently, which is completely fair. There's the personal emotional reasons, and then there's the political reasons. State of the world and plural Tumblr's got him down.

He doesn't want to front much and he doesn't want to answer the friendly asks that have been sent to his side blog. For the life of me I can't tell if he's been suffering from the overall uptick in anxiety that we've had recently, or if he's been the main cause of it.

Either way my little brother could use some positivity. He's saying wholesome LGBTQ+ stuff would cheer him up quite a bit. I may as well try and find him something. We might do him some artwork as well. Time for Operation: Cheer Up Adam.

-Khaz

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More Out of Context Stuff from the last couple days

I hope these are sorta kinda amusing.

-Derek

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I don't think anyone is actually gatekeeping today, it's been all hbwfhjfbhebafhjbjshhrbhhbrregrgrgggaaaaah. And nobody else wants to front, I guess. Even Alden, who's been hogging the front the last two days, woke up today and promptly handed the reins to Bluefire... Nian butted in for a while, then it's just been Sai and Dorian afterward.

Mmmmm blurry.

Uh. Here's the Dorian art we did earlier, he's pretty cool.

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Being a system who creates OCs and also forms new guys pretty easily can be so crazy, like.

-Us, developing god lore for a creative project.

-We feel like the little details are coming a little too easily.

-Turn around...

-Oh shit the god character we were developing is in our headspace now, oops. Oops!!!

His name is Dorian btw. He's on observer duty and is waving at you all and saying hello.

-Bluefire

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I like this fish! :0 It has such a cool profile. I'm gonna tell Khaz to draw it for me later.

-Remy

Striped Marlin (Tetrapturus audax), family Istiophoridae, order Carangiformes, off the Pacific Coast of Mexico

photographs by Jeff Joel

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Some of our recent out-of-context moments

I have since changed my avatar to something other than Brownfield.

-Owen

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I miss my husky. -Alden

Waiting (for you)

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Hi, it's Remy again. :0 We updated my art and I wanted a mlm flag in the background because I love my boyfriend very much. And also because it looks like ocean colors.

-Remy

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Thank you for the fishies and sea creatures. :0 I can't pick a favorite out of these, they're all so cool and pretty and unique in their own ways! I never heard of leaf slugs before. :0 -Remy

Hi, I'm Remy. :0 Um. Yesterday was my birthday but everyone forgot because the body's birthday is tomorrow and I can celebrate mine then. But I turned 16 and I wanna celebrate my birthday with fish stuff. :0 Send me fish and sea creature pictures, thanks!

Um. They're (the system) gonna make a new art for me so it looks closer to me now. :0

-Remy