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Life happens may it be during stale, stagnant moments. It keeps happening.

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just when I can finally post 20 pics on IG, I got too lazy to post anything.

Or maybe i'm just too mentally occupied. realised that being back in the big city costs too much lately — money, time, people. i don’t think this is how I want to live anymore: stuck in traffic, unmoved. Or lost in a crowd, scattered, wandering, surviving.i’m used to a life where time passes slowly with sea breeze, sun, sand, and coconuts.the big city was for the younger me. the small ones are for the me today.

cant wait for everything to be over and go back to my normal where I'm surrounded by the people I love. but at the same time, as always, I'm enjoying the ride, loving and hating every moment of inconvenience just for the sake of it.

having the privilege of choosing inconvenience is mental and stupid but ah, what is love without a little sacrifice. And what is inconvience? going out midday, riding move it just to get past traffic, thinking of what to eat later, where to go? its the little things

obviously, this rant aint about my 20 pics on IG, but of life lately. how I have grown to love peace over chaos, the ability to embrace the present struggle, and the ultimate longing for simplicity.

I'm not on a survival state anymore, but rather on a simpler life where time feels more meaningful. the older I get, the clearer I appreciate my shift in values.And that's it for me. see you in the next one (month) lol

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Kasambagan gurlie for a month. Or so.

Been in cebu for two weeks now, and *hopefully* going to last for a month… or so.

We’ll see… we will just see.

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Life has been slow lately since I returned home from my four-month trip. Three months in Baguio and one in Siquijor, it was a beautiful way to start the year.

I was only manifesting these travels last year. Now, I’ve fulfilled some of those manifestations, collecting memories that I’ll carry with me. Manifesting works.

But no matter where I go, or how far my feet take me, I always find myself back in this slow-paced, family-filled home. For some reason, home always pulls me back.

When I’m home, everything suddenly slows, like squeezing the handbrake on a motorbike. The wind that had been rushing past my ears when driving slips away, leaving a sudden, strange stillness. And when I look around, I see everything in detail.

Home is where time ticks very slowly. It is where you get to relax and energise for the coming weeks. There is nothing much to do here, anyway. There are no places to go, nothing much to see.

But despite all the nothingness, it's home. It is where my heart is. We all need a place to return to when life gets a little too tiring.

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Baguio has been too wonderful of a place. I could live here. I could make a life here.

But home is always calling me back.

It’s been great, Baguio. ❤️

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and while it may take a really long time to try to understand everything, the key is to endure and never give up...

even though it pains too many times

what is love if not enduring and choosing to stay every day?

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I like myself better today than 10 years ago.

I'm less stressed about the things I can't control ergo, I am less controlling and more mature.

I just wish I could easily let go of people who are not beneficial to my emotional health. That's a bit hard considering that I am a big people person. I like everyone. I like to know their stories and understand their perspective. I want to listen and learn.

I love to invest in people I want to spend time with, no matter how hard it gets.

Is that bad?

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Hey there!

I hope you're doing well and that everything is going smoothly in your life. I hope there are exciting things happening for you, as they give us something to look forward to.

But if things are a bit slow for you, I hope you're okay with that too. I hope you're okay with the boredom, the routine, and the steadiness of life. Even though it might seem boring, it's all part of the journey.

I'm having one of those nights where I feel sorry for myself for just being me. I think I'm going through an existential crisis after a random Sunday night with my cousins.

After hanging out with some friends at the coffee shop, I ran into my cousins at the night market. It's not like we don't see each other a lot, but moments like this make me realize that I might spend the rest of my life being the third or fifth wheel with my cousins simply because I have nothing else going on and I'm fun to be with, lol.

I'm starting to get used to the idea that I might end up taking care of their kids at some point and try to be the coolest uncle in the whole family. I'm also fine with being present at all our family gatherings, their in-laws, and their extended family parties—I'll be there, always. Where else would I be, right? Maybe out with my friends.

So, it seems like my cousins are stuck with me, or maybe I'm the one who's stuck with them. Who knows?

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It's my 13th year anniversary on Tumblr 🥳

OMG i'm on my 13th year on tumblr. Thank you for being my consistent place of everything i can think of lol

To more years to come, though the more i mature, the more my words are refined and less. haha. Took me a long time to be in this state, but I'm getting there.

Thank you for the 13 years.