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Hello!!!

Heya! Long time since I last posted anything lol

Life has been moving on at a steady yet wonky pace as usual, but I'm still treading on slowly but surely.

I'm graduating soon, and I'm very excited about that! I can't wait to finally finish highschool and get my diploma.

And despite the rough starts in my high school years as a failing student, I nearly lost hope and even contemplated dropping out. But then I was given an amazing opportunity to redeem myself, and I'm very close to achieving success!

And so, today I was feeling down, sad even. Decided to take a walk around the neighborhood park. Swinged around with the swings because one is never too old to swing on the swing sets. And then I found a Clover patch.

I've been depressed since last year's mid-fall through winter and even now, the beginning of spring. I started to lose hope in even graduating, and I lost most of my faith in myself. Just out of curiosity, I started to look into the patch. To my amusement, I found a clover. Not just any clover, a four-leaf clover. It's not the only one I found, I found several others. And it isn't the first time I've found several.

Perhaps people consider me lucky just for finding several four-leaf clovers in one day, but I don't let symbolic figures nor objects define fortune. I'm not lucky to find clovers, I've always been lucky. And even if I've hit really "unlucky" situations, that was only temporary.

Perhaps I may be a fool,

Maybe I am a happy-go-lucky person

But I know I'm lucky enough to even be alive

Humor this, I won that sperm race for a reason haha

And so have you, viewer

Maybe life is extremely shitty

But perhaps it ain't all that there is

Sometimes, when you're feeling down, you just gotta take a breather and go outside.

Touch grass if you must

Go under a tree and stare up at the leaves jn the sunlight

Focus on the colors and how the light and leaves sway in the wind,

Look up at the stars in a night sky or enjoy the melancholy of a rainy day

I would say a whole lot more, but this is already a very long post aha!

But hey, I'm lucky and you're also lucky

Don't forget that, aight?

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"What words are there to describe the situation when I suddenly can't speak anymore?" - Masterlist

If you suddenly can't speak/struggle to speak:

losing words

losing speech/speech loss

no mouth words

out of words

speech loss episode

situational speech loss

going/being silent

becoming/being unspeaking

verbal shutdown

verbal crash

low/weak verbality

Coined by @witchy-fennec :

demi-verbal:

Handle with care (because it can be misunderstood easily as it reminds of selective mutism, which under no circumstances should be mixed up):

autistic mutism

Some general words:

low words

no words

speech averse

voice averse

speech pause

being/becoming voiceless

being tight-lipped/tongue-tied/close-mouthed

being verbally uncommunicative

being untalkative

being tacit/taciturn

If you want to express that you only use nonverbal communication to communicate:

communicating nonverbally/using nonverbal communication - NOT being nonverbal, that doesn't refer to you using nonverbal communication and is something else entirely ☝🏼

If you want to express that internally you're really struggling with speech atm, but you're able to force yourself to speak:

masked-verbal

If you can't speak anymore and can't make sense of language anymore simultaneously:

losing language

If you could speak theoretically, but simply choose not to do so (or to speak less):

word resting (for example if you want to save energy)

choice verbal

on vocal rest (well-known, likely won't raise further questions)

Words by @carpsstuff :

despeechify - when verbal communication begins to slow or shut down. example: i’m about to despeechify, can you hand me my tablet so i can use my app?

larynx laziness - you want to speak, but for whatever reason but at that moment you cannot. example: i am feeling some hardcore larynx laziness, because i really want to use my voice but ugh! i just can’t!

talk tired - being temporarily unable to use verbal communication due to physical, mental, or emotional exhaustion. example: i am so talktired right now, it’s making it hard to speak.

untalkable - being unable to speak in that moment for an indeterminate amount of time due to neurodivergence. example: i am pretty untalkable right now, so i’m using pen and paper to communicate.

voicebox variable - your level of speech capability varies from time to time. example: i am voicebox variable.

wonky worded - saying things like up when you mean down, or left when you mean right, or yes when you mean no, like your words are getting mixed up somewhere along the way from your brain to your mouth. example: i am seriously wonky worded right now, everything is coming out of my mouth all wrong.

Some newly coined terms I find really cool by @archival-arrival , might especially be interesting for those who aren't autistic (definition in the linked post):

nullvox

tacevox/tacetvox

siovox

siofoni

ochifoni/chorisfoni

ochilogia/chorislogia

pagofoni

pagolexei/pagologia

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Angel of Spring's Milk

So, I found an Asian yogurt drink bottle I saved from not that long ago (it's glass), and it has a nipple for the babies (babies can also drink it). And despite my adult ass being well, an adult, I grew curious.

There is a drink called Angel Milk, which consists of sugar, milk and vanilla, right?

But I craved matcha milk tea

But I have nowhere to get some

So, I did a thing.

I want to share this recipe with everyone who is a fan of milk tea (those who like the matcha/green tea flavor mostly)

And yes, I did serve myself the milk in the "baby" bottle because I'm bored and I have not much to say about it

So, let's get started:

The Recipe:

INGREDIENTS:

• Milk [1/4 A CUP OR 1/2 CUP] (any kind is fine, I recommend less thicker milks like normal milk/lactose-free milk or oat milk. I used oat milk in this recipe)

• Sugar [TO YOUR LIKING] (raw cane sugar is a good option and it was my option too)

• Vanilla Extract [1 1/2 TSP]

• (Instant) Matcha powder [1/2 TBSP OR TO YOUR LIKING]

WHAT YOU NEED:

• 8/12 oz cup or a bottle with a lid (lid preferred for this)

• A spoon

• somewhere to warm the drink up (microwave or stovetop)

• Sauce pan (if you are doing it on the stove)

• A large microwaveable mug (if heating it in the microwave)

The process:

1. To a large cup or bottle, add your sugar and matcha to measure, mix the dries together well. If the matcha is clumpy, that's okay. You can unclump it by breaking it apart or leaving it as it is.

2. Add your dash of vanilla and give it a little shake. That way, the sugar and matcha can seep the flavors into it a bit.

3. Measure out your milk into the cup and make sure it does not overfill. You'll need a good third or so of space to be able to mix it [or shake the bottle] to mix it well.

4. (MICROWAVE OPTION) Pour the drink into a large mug and place it in the microwave with a good-sized paper towel under it to prevent it from over spilling. Microwave it for 30 seconds, depending on the microwave power. After it's lukewarm but not hot, stir it throughly and then microwave it for another 30 seconds. Stir well, and check to see if it's warm but not hot.

4. (STOVE TOP OPTION) Pour the drink into a small sauce pan, set the heat to medium-low. Let the milk warm up and stir occasionally. Do not let it boil or get too hot.

5. Pour the drink into the designated cup/bottle to serve. If it is too hot, let it cool until a desired temperature is achieved.

6. Taste test and add more milk or sugar to adjust to your likings

7. Enjoy!

I don't know if there is already a recipe like this one or similar, but I just want to share it anyways as it's actually really good! And it reminds me of matcha milk tea!

A good drink to have when you crave matcha milk tea

Or anything else, really!

I hope you guys enjoy this little thing I made and that it comes out good!

Please tell me what you think of it if you do follow this recipe! ✨️

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Understanding the Spectrum

I CAN Network Ltd

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obsessed w/him actually

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remember to switch this on

^^^

I didn't have the option through mobile but if you go through your desktop settings, under visibility there is a toggle to switch so your work is not used in training AI, it's off by default (go figure lol)

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The Art of Improvement

(2015/2016 - 2024 [PRESENT])

If you think your art is NOT GOOD enough, that is the biggest lie of all. "Bad art" is not real, nor is it bad at all. If you just started out drawing, don't give up! Keep drawing for as much as you can! It may seem "bad" at first, but hey, those are just the first few trials in art! Persistence, patience, dedication, creativity, imagination, and determination are some of the things one can have to do anything. Don't simply give up on the first few tries. Keep it going! One doesn't learn how to walk on the first try, you fall down, and then you get back up again! Right?

No one is born knowing how to do anything. We grow and learn how to do things. That's how life is!

"If every porkchop were perfect, we wouldn't have hotdogs!" - Greg Universe (Steven Universe)

Without trial and error, nothing would improve

Without time and dedication, nothing would be done well

Without persistence and determination, nothing would be done

Don't give up on something you would love. This doesn't only go for art. This goes to EVERYTHING and EVERYONE. Keep it going until you are comfortable. Keep it going until you see how much you've grown. Perfection doesn't exist; "practice makes perfect" that is absolutely FALSE. Practice makes improvement. Improvement leads to happiness and comfort.

Believe in yourself, and believe in your potential! We can do (almost) anything if we put our mind, heart and dedication into it!

I've been drawing ever since I was a mere toddler, yet I started to truly dedicate myself to actually drawing art. In the form of anime (born and grew up with anime), of course. And guess what? I developed my own style and such! Since I was in 5th grade, I started drawing anime nonstop. Now, I am an adult still drawing anime nonstop. It's not a matter of the time I took to learn and draw. It's the fact I AM LEARNING to draw, and I am still going. I am improving. It's not perfecting. I am also learning to play several (about seven) instruments, I am also learning to sing properly, I am learning how to cook, I am learning many, many different things, and I am dedicating myself to it! Because I want to learn, I want to improve, and I want to show the world patience and persistence is more than enough to prove it.

As my motto goes,

"Never give up, never go down."

Let your creativity go wild! Let's see where it leads you!

And remember, keep it going!

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It's not only about poetry, but other silly things, too, original like song lyrics, random pages full of nothing but frustrated screaming, a very wacky recipe and more!

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Enjoy! :D

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*Boop*

I see you in my notifications. I hope you are well, little one. 💕

I offer special Lister pics from yesterday evening.

And! Considering our convo from a couple days ago, I thought you’d appreciate this lil blurb I found.

Have a good day! ❣️Oh and I almost forgot-

*Floofs the floof* there heheh 💕❣️

JSHDJAJWJDJ

HI HEY HENLO!

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And Oohh

That Is very inspiring and thoughtful :0

I likey :D

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Look out, he's getting silly!!

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All of the different commissions I did for the KS~ I worked super hard to get them all done and I'm thrilled with how they turned out~

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16th century ring that unfolds into an astronomical sphere

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truly

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The beginner autistic guide to common terms in our community (with extra context!).

*Disclaimer, I’m not a professional. This is just knowledge from my experience as an autistic person. Please feel free to correct anything :)

These definitions will include some of my own opinions and thoughts, especially on the more controversial terms. This is simply to help better prepare new autistic community members for conversations they become engaged in. Having all the perspective and context you can have can be very helpful when moving into new social spaces.

Autism (Or Autistic Spectrum Disorder, ASD): A neurodevelopmental disorder that is present from very early childhood. It’s mostly recognised through difficulties with social interaction and restricted and/or repetitive behaviours. The way it is referred to as “Autism Spectrum Disorder” is specifically referring to the fact that autism presents in countless ways. There are common traits and patterns, but the severity and complexity of those traits and symptoms is infinite.

NOTE: This does not mean that ‘everyone is a little bit autistic’. You are either autistic or you are not. It just means that if you have autism, it may present very differently to other autistic people you know.

Asperger’s Syndrome: Asperger’s syndrome is usually considered an older term for a ‘subtype’ of autism. The term is considered outdated by the DSM-5 and no longer used in that document. However it is still used in a lot of other countries. Now it is becoming more socially known that ‘Asperger’s syndrome’ is just a specific presentation of autism. Many autistics don’t like the use of the word ‘Asperger’s’ because of a couple reasons:

The term has a long history with NAZI’s and eugenics.

The term seems to basically mean ‘high functioning’ autistic, which simplifies the condition.

Asperger’s Syndrome is defined in a very similar way to autism, however people with “Asperger’s’ may be described as ‘gifted’ or ‘intellectual’.

It’s important to note that many people still identify themselves with the term ‘Asperger’s’. While it is good to be educated and up to date with terminology, some people have identified with this term their whole life and it’s not wrong to use the term for one-self. But either way, I do encourage you to do more research if you are comfortable.

Neurotype: Can be basically defined as the type of brain function one has. Some people consider autism a neurotype, and then neurotypical as another neurotype. However, many people claim that autism is ‘just another neurotype’. This is a harmful way of thinking about autism because autism is a disability. Labelling it as a ‘neurotype’ belittles all the struggles autistic people have that make them disabled. Autism is a spectrum and so some autistic people may not really consider themselves disabled, but many do.

Neurotypical (NT): A non-autistic person with no other mental conditions.

Allistic: A non-autistic person who can still have other mental conditions, such as depression or ADHD.

Neurodivergent (ND): Traditionally ‘Neurodivergent’ has been used to mean either autistic or ADHD. However in some contexts it is used to mean someone with any mental condition, including personality disorders or mental illnesses such as depression and anxiety.

Neurodiversity: a term used to describe the fact that there are many neurotypes in the world. It is used to imply that differences in brain development and function should be accepted as relatively normal. I think this is a good sentiment, but that some neurotypes should still be considered disabilities as well as a neurotype, so as not to diminish the struggles specific neurotypes go through.

High functioning/Low functioning: The labels of functioning are terms used to describe how independent an autistic (or other kind of disabled) person is able to be. Many autistics do NOT like the use of these terms for a couple reasons:

It tends to focus on the way an autistics disability affects the allistic people around them.

It simplifies the experience of the individual with autism to how independent they are, and is also not very descriptive for anyone trying to help the said autistic person.

High needs/Low needs: These are labels used to describe how much assistance an autistic (or other kind of disabled) person may need. It is slightly preferred by autistic people as the language is more centred to what the autistic person needs, rather than how independent they can be.

NOTE, many autistic people would argue that these terms are basically the same as high functioning and low functioning. I personally consider it to be best to just state someones highest needs or difficulties. For example “Olivia is nonverbal and highly sensitive to light and noise.”.

Masking: Masking is the act of hiding ones autistic traits to appear to be neurotypical. Masking is often a survival strategy developed by autistics to evade bullying or isolation. Masking can include suppressing the urge to stim, forcing oneself to make eye contact, learning how to ‘properly’ execute facial expressions, studying body language, etc. Masking can be an extremely vital skill for autistic people, but when an autistic person has to mask for long periods of time it can lead to negative consequences such as burn out or meltdowns. Masking can also be used in the context of other disabilities, such as ADHD.

Scripting: Scripting is a form of masking, when an autistic person pre-plans or practices responses or entire conversations. You may have a script you unconsciously follow for questions like “how are you?” Or “how is work?”, etc. It may be inspired from TV shows, movies or observing other people interact.

Burn out: Burn out is when an autistic person reaches their limit and has decreased energy for an extended period of time. Burn out may last anywhere between a couple days or a few years. Burn out is often caused by excessive masking, but can also be caused by repeated rejection, bullying or other mental conditions. Burn out is not the same as depression, but it can co-exist with depression.

Meltdown: A meltdown is when an autistic person experiences what might look like a ‘tantrum’. The person may be very angry, yelling, punching or hitting things (or themselves). They may be aggressively stimming or humming to themselves. A meltdown, internally, feels as if you are completely filled with negative energy, as if you might burst. It can feel like extreme irritation, or anger, or shame. Meltdowns can be caused by any number of stressful situations. For an autistic person this can be having a lot of social events, their routine being disrupted, having to eat foods they don’t like, being overstimulated, or even just negative social interactions.

Shutdown: A shutdown is very similar to a meltdown, in how it can be caused. For me personally, I tend to have a shutdown if I am not in a safe place to have a meltdown. From the outside it looks very similar to dissociation, and it can co-exist with dissociation. It typically feels like you are shutting down, turning off. You emotions were about to burst and then you just went numb. You may be unable to move, or go non-verbal. You may be crying quietly or you may simply just very suddenly feel the need to go home.

NOTE: Meltdowns and shutdowns can appear to feel like a panic attack, but they are different. Panic attacks come from intense feelings of dread or doom. Meltdowns and shutdowns come from repeated, or intense, stressful situations for an autistic.

Hypersensitive: Hypersensitivity is when the brain processes sensory input (such as touch, taste and smell) as much more intense than a neurotypical person would. This can mean that a slight cold breeze may feel painfully cold. Or looking outside a window can hurt ones eyes because it feels too bright. Or having to wear specific textures to stay calm.

Hyposensitive: Hyposensitivity is the opposite of hypersensitivity. It is when your brain inteprets sensory input as much less intense than a neurotypical would. Ways this can present in an autistic person include not realising when they hurt themselves, having a high pain tolerance, being unaware of temperature changes, etc. You may also not recognise your bodies hunger cues, dehydration or need for sleep.

NOTE: An autistic person can experience both hypersensitivity and hyposensitivity. It can also fluctuate day-to-day.

Sensory Processing Disorder (SPD): SPD is basically the term for experiencing lots of variation in your sensory input. It is similar to Auditory processing disorder. Which is where your hearing is technically fine (you aren’t any form of deaf), but you have trouble distinguishing what specific sounds are, or listening to one, important sound, in an area with lots of different noises (for example, being unable to understand what someone is saying next to you, because the TV is on.)

Overstimulation: This is when an autistic person has been experiencing too many different sensations at once, or for an extended period of time. This may be caused by too many noises happening at once. Or even just one annoying sound repeating for a long time. It can also be triggered by touch, taste, sight and smell.

Executive function/dysfunction: Executive function is the term used to describe how the brain initiates tasks. For neurodivergent folk, our executive function is often dysfunctional. This means we can often find it difficult to start new tasks. A way you may experience it is when you are sitting down, you may be screaming internally that you need to go and get some food, but your body seems unwilling to co-operate. Having executive dysfunction does not mean you are lazy, or do not want to do the task, it means you may be unable  to do the task.

Autistic intertia: Autistic inertia is related to executive dysfunction, because it is a term that helps describe how autistic people struggle to switch or initiate tasks. “ An autistic at rest remains at rest, and an autistic in motion remains in motion”.

Special interest/Hyperfixation: A special interest is a extremely long term interest/obsession with a particular topic. An example might be being really into pokemon. Learning all the different types of pokemon, playing all the games and collecting heaps of merch. A hyperfixation is a more short-lived interest that can be destructive in it’s severity (for example, it might get so extreme that it’s the only thing you can think about, to the point where you neglect your needs). Special interests are less likely to be destructive. But hyperfixations can be healthy and normal too.

Stimming: Stimming or self stimulation is the act of doing repetitive movements to help self regulate. Stimming can look like spinning, chewing, flapping hands, dancing, foot tapping, pen clicking, touch soft fabrics, using weighted blankets, lighting candles, eating crunchy snacks, etc. All of these forms of movement or repetitive sensory input can help us regulate our emotions better, prevent a meltdown or shutdown, or focus on a task easier.

NOTE: Echolalia is another term you may hear. It is a form of stimming in which an autistic person repeats sounds/phrases over and over.

ADHD: Attention-deficit/hyperactivity disorder is a neurodevelopmental disorder like autism, but it affects the brain in different ways. It often presents as having difficulties with paying attention, regulating emotions and hyperactivity (or, alternatively, it can present as being inattentive).

Savant or Savant syndrome: A condition when someone with some type of significant mental disability is an expert/’savant’ in a particular field, to the point of surpassing neurotypical experts. An example might be having photographic memory, or being able to learn languages extremely easily, or being an extraordinary mathematician. Autistic people often don’t like to hear the term ‘savant’ as we are often only valued by ‘society’ if we are savants. And if we are not, then we are often treated as lesser. This is kind of a form of eugenics.

Eugenics: Eugenics is a philosophy or belief that we can selectively breed humans to ‘improve’ humanity. Or create the ‘perfect race’. This was an idealogy practiced by Adolf Hitler during WWII, which lead to the holocaust. Eugenics is often a subtly underlying philosophy behind many statements that, on face value, seem relatively harmless. For example - “autism is the next step in evolution” is currently a popular statement. However, this implies that every other neurotype is not an improvement, which therefore implies that being autistic is superior. This would be considered a form of eugenics. Eugenics is considered a horrible philosophy because it encourages people to look down on others and dehumanise anyone not like themselves.

Co-morbidity: A co-morbidity is the term used for a condition that is regularly seen in conjunction with another condition. For example, autism and ADHD are often seen together. However, it can also be used to simply describe someone who has more than one condition (physical or mental).

AuDHDer: Someone with autism and ADHD. Just a shortened way to refer to people with both disabilities.

Selective mutism/Situational mutism: When an autistic person (or other neurotype) experiences periods of being unable to speak or communicate. This can often occur in stressful situations, like before tests or during doctors appointments. It is officially referred to as ‘selective mutism’ but many are trying to change it to ‘situational mutism’ as the individual does not willingly choose when they go non-verbal.

Alexithymia: Alexithymia is typically described as the inability to define and/or describe ones emotions. So you may often feel a type of discomfort, but not be able to label what it is. Not being able to distinguish between anger and irritability. Or not knowing if you feel sad or confused. It can make seeking professional help for many conditions really difficult, as you are unable to put your experience into words. It can also be similar to hyposensitivity in the way that it makes it difficult to understand what you body is feeling.

Dyspraxia: Dyspraxia is a disorder that affects co-ordination, movement and balance. It can make things such as sports, driving, cooking and writing difficult. It is fairly common in autistic people.

Prosopagnosia: The inability to recognise/remember faces. It is more common in autistic people.

Synesthesia: Synesthesia is when one form of sensory input is sometimes also experienced as another. For example, someone with this condition may see colours when they hear someones name. They may hear a song and get a taste in their mouth. This is also more common in autistic people.

FINAL NOTE: Autism is a spectrum and you may not experience all of these different terms, or you may not experience them in the way I described them. That does not mean you aren’t autistic. This is not a diagnostic tool. This is simply a guide to learning the terms you may often hear when discussing autism.

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i learned of “Box beds” – cabinets with beds in them and, sometimes, lockable doors – were used for privacy and safety in parts of rural medieval Europe before individual bedrooms were common. They became fashionable even in homes with bedrooms and remained in use in Scotland into the 1900s (x)

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ADHD & Autism

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