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You’re my goddess. I’ll worship you on my knees and sacrifice what I love for you.

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RE -

I want to clarify my thoughts and feelings on this.

I think using drugs or alcohol to make art is trapping yourself to only ever feel creative or that you can do something creative while not YOU. That's MY problem with it, I think it could be fun and enjoyable every now and then and if it does help you have some break through that's great, but it should be just that, every now and then to get high or drunk and let you be you and make some dumb creative shit

I do think though that should be very carefully monitored by the person doing that and learn your own limits for that.

Be you always no matter what and make good shit

Using drugs to make art is trapping yourself and cheap and is not elevating your creativeness

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Broke as fuck

I’ve been jobless / having side stuff on and off and today my account hit the negatives for the first time which was crazy to me

I have an editing job that’s $500/month and im applying for retail places so hopefully I get some interviews for that.

I also setup a Patreon not that I think anyone will sub to it anytime soon because I barely have 1k on any social media platform so… but I’m also starting up my online shop like Depop, Etsy, and my Fourthwall store and Im going to sell posters and my zine on there :)

It’s tough right now, money is so tight and I’m trying hard to make it work but ima make it happen, I want to move out and be able to support myself and maybe hopefully one day this Patreon and online stores can make me enough money to support myself through it

Very grateful for everything right now even if it isn’t the best i’m still just a kid so I don’t have to stress about not having money tbh but ima work on it cause that 18th birthday is coming soon and I want my shit together.

-EIG

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ima be rich enough to buy a basquiat painting one day

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django was ill without it. 

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Using drugs to make art is trapping yourself and cheap and is not elevating your creativeness

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Art summer program

As I've gotten into painting and drawing and arts I reached out to my old art teacher from elementary school and I know that was a little crazy but we chatted and emailed and I ended up asking if she knew of any art teachers that taught painting lessons or something and she then linked me a college that does summer programs that her daughters did so now I'm looking at a 2 week summer course in Boston to do observational painting.

I'm very excited about this as A.) Time to improve my painting and art skills before then B.) I get to go to Boston on the train to an art school...

Like isn't that so cool??? I get to go to the city, on train, to go to a painting class for 2 weeks.

I'm very excited to help improve my skills in painting and art as these are two creative mediums that I haven't touched since I was in elementary school and video games took over my life instead.

I just can't wait to go and maybe make some connections and friends with other artists and have a good time all around :)

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I’ll love you even on the days I couldn’t love myself.

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Money makes me depressed

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I’ll just look for the regular job as well I’ll money max until I can get to a point of selling without needing a job 🙄 LMAO

Felling was just hitting me hard last night

Chasing Money

Look, as a creative the dream is to make money off your art. As I'm sure that many artists can relate to though is... it's hard to support yourself on it.

I'm 17, I'm a teenager, I got friends who go out, I'm in a relationship with my wonderful girlfriend and we go on dates and get food and hangout a lot, and my parents are both people who don't really think art can be a job.

My point is there's pressure to get a job job, a job in retail or food or whatever tf, but a part of me just doesn't... I really want to gamble on myself and try to sell art for a bit... Now while I was in the bathroom I already thought about it "Why don't I just make the art to sell while working a job" and I guess like realistically I should, but when has being realistic gotten an artist anything other than burnout?

I need money bad like to go out with friends, to be able to take my girlfriend out on dates, have my parents stop nagging me.

But I've been working, I've been in retail mainly, I've worked in landscaping, and right now I'm mainly in freelance it's very inconsistent but that's going to change soon.

Part of me want's to go get that job for validation from everyone, how could I not want the validation of having money and to say I work somewhere normal and to have consistent income and to make my girlfriend happy.

But part of me knows I can live off $20 for 3 months so...

I just don't know what I should do, I think I'm betting on myself too much because I haven't even started the art art part. I'm planning on selling posters and a magazine, those two are things I can put into action myself right now and keep it going. I want to get into selling art though, I want to paint and sell it, I want to sculpt clay and make things and sell them. Nobody has time to wait for that though (by nobody I mean everyone in my life)

I'm just sad about it I guess, I'll get a real job and then still pursue those things but yeah I just wanted to rant about it because that's what my heart wants and to try but being in a relationship and needed money to go out I don't think I have a buffer period after not making any money for a while now. :/

Thank you for reading

-EIG

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Chasing Money

Look, as a creative the dream is to make money off your art. As I'm sure that many artists can relate to though is... it's hard to support yourself on it.

I'm 17, I'm a teenager, I got friends who go out, I'm in a relationship with my wonderful girlfriend and we go on dates and get food and hangout a lot, and my parents are both people who don't really think art can be a job.

My point is there's pressure to get a job job, a job in retail or food or whatever tf, but a part of me just doesn't... I really want to gamble on myself and try to sell art for a bit... Now while I was in the bathroom I already thought about it "Why don't I just make the art to sell while working a job" and I guess like realistically I should, but when has being realistic gotten an artist anything other than burnout?

I need money bad like to go out with friends, to be able to take my girlfriend out on dates, have my parents stop nagging me.

But I've been working, I've been in retail mainly, I've worked in landscaping, and right now I'm mainly in freelance it's very inconsistent but that's going to change soon.

Part of me want's to go get that job for validation from everyone, how could I not want the validation of having money and to say I work somewhere normal and to have consistent income and to make my girlfriend happy.

But part of me knows I can live off $20 for 3 months so...

I just don't know what I should do, I think I'm betting on myself too much because I haven't even started the art art part. I'm planning on selling posters and a magazine, those two are things I can put into action myself right now and keep it going. I want to get into selling art though, I want to paint and sell it, I want to sculpt clay and make things and sell them. Nobody has time to wait for that though (by nobody I mean everyone in my life)

I'm just sad about it I guess, I'll get a real job and then still pursue those things but yeah I just wanted to rant about it because that's what my heart wants and to try but being in a relationship and needed money to go out I don't think I have a buffer period after not making any money for a while now. :/

Thank you for reading

-EIG