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Is there something wrong with me? Why can’t I just be like everyone else? Why must I feel so overwhelmed with every emotion I feel. I don’t like being upset and it makes it so much worse when they act like I’m crazy and make me sound like I’m some child that is throwing a tantrum. I just want them to know what I’m feeling and I’m not mad at them I just want them to understand, you know?

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growing up is terrifying i wasn’t supposed to make it this far and now my future depends on me and i have to make wise choices and decisions and i’m just sitting here like a clueless little kid

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𝒟𝓇𝑒𝒶𝓂 𝒹𝒾𝑒𝓉

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"you're so funny" - thanks man can’t wait to stare at the ceiling tonight.

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it’s really sweet when people buy me food, and i appreciate it, but i hate feeling forced to eat. i don’t want to waste it or make them feel bad, but i just don’t want to eat it

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"it gets better" - but i've been this way since i was a child.

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Being traumatized from an early age is strange.

I long for a home I never had.

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*screaming crying almost having a panic attack* i think im over reacting

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more reasons to lose weight ｡𖦹 🪷

"alternative" edition

꩜ tattoos will look better

꩜ dermals, belly button piercings, & face piercings will look/fit better

꩜ not having to worry so much about ripping tights/fishnets

꩜ when your face is more defined it will make your makeup look nicer

꩜ different hairstyle opportunities because you won't have to worry about having a round face

꩜ people will more likely think you are cool and interesting, not just the "weird kid"

꩜ being able to layer your clothes without making yourself bigger

꩜ being able to wear corsets without worrying about fat bulging over

꩜ looking good with shaved eyebrows because your face is slim

꩜ still looking attractive with smudged eyeliner or dark under eyes instead of looking like you "don't take care of yourself"

꩜ your hands will look better with different nail shapes and styles

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me because i did sm work convincing everyone that i got better and i cant destroy that now

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i often feel like i have to apologise for existing

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Dead, but alive, still.

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"You need to go outside more!!!" Actually no I need to destroy my flesh via tearing through it with blades until my skin is nothing but scar tissue and scabs

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I have this silly little feeling in my chest that's making me want to die

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my life goals are to be disgustingly overeducated and extremely underweight