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BRAINS OUT | RAFE CAMERON | PREVIEW

“imma kiss you on the mouth, then I’ll blow my brains out”

Pairing : Rafe Cameron x fem!reader

Warnings : obx spoilers, misuse of a firearm, self harm, toxic dynamic, abuse, death, erotic themes, power imbalance and mental instability. (lmk if I missed anything)

A/n: Full fic soon, enjoy!

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Rafe, he isn’t perfect no one is, since his dad died he hasn’t been the same. His dad dying and losing his sister to the pogues was something he would never anticipate to happen, not now not ever.

He met me and we’ve been together for as long as I can remember, since we were kids, we had always had this invisible string that always brings us back together no matter what happens.

With every that has happened to him you would assume it would wake someone up to reality and realize that, life is short and live it to the fullest extent possible.

Not for Rafe though. He moves backwards.

Rafe always made sure I was close to him, never too far, but I could never be too close. He always pushed me to limits to show my devotion and love for him. I’ve done things that are unthinkable, I’ve found new lows.

Here I am, in my bedroom with a Rafe that is at his limit and has lost all senses of reality, nothing is tangible anymore. You would think “oh no he’ll be okay, he’s grieving, he’s hurting” no you should be thinking “What is he doing next, what’s the new length he’ll go to?”

“You know I would have everything I’ve ever wanted right here. The gold, my dad, my sister and you.” He says to me while pacing back and forth in our shared room, he’s walking with intent and purpose. When he’s like this it was hard to label this as something predictable, if anything I’m fucked.

“Yet, you don’t seem to understand how this is all messing with me Y/n. Do you understand?” He looks at me and waits for an answer but the way he looks at me is as if he has already calculated my response.

“Rafe, I- I couldn’t possibly know exactly how much everything has hurt you, but I try, I prove it to you everyday baby. I try my best but please listen to me and put the gun down.” I was honest, he knew when I lied, he knows me inside and out, has every vein in my body memorized, every breath of air. He knew me.

Right, he has a gun in his hand, minor details you know.

“You think I’m fucking stupid that’s what this is, yeah I can see it in your eyes Y/n, you’re a fucking liar.” His eyes fill up with something I haven’t seen before, it wasn’t anger, it wasn’t disdain, it was fear.

“Listen to me. I’m not lying to you, Rafe you have gone through hell. I couldn’t possibly imagine how it feels to be you, but I know that you need me, and I need you. Baby we can work this out, okay?” My confidence in myself is shrinking and I don’t aim to tell him not to be emotional, but I don’t plan on dying…right?

He moves closer to me, his movements are slow and primal, I was his prey, he was hungry. Lustful almost, but not in a way that would be satisfactory to either of us.

“Close your eyes.” His head slightly tilted, and a sly smirk was making its appearance.

“What?” I had no clue what he was up to but I know it wasn’t ending well.

“I said close your fucking eyes before I blow both of our brains out.”

And that’s when I knew, we were in for a long night.

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Preview outtttttttt!!! Full fic coming soooooonn

BRAINS OUT | RAFE CAMERON | PREVIEW

“imma kiss you on the mouth, then I’ll blow my brains out”

Pairing : Rafe Cameron x fem!reader

Warnings : obx spoilers, misuse of a firearm, self harm, toxic dynamic, abuse, death, erotic themes, power imbalance and mental instability. (lmk if I missed anything)

A/n: Full fic soon, enjoy!

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Rafe, he isn’t perfect no one is, since his dad died he hasn’t been the same. His dad dying and losing his sister to the pogues was something he would never anticipate to happen, not now not ever.

He met me and we’ve been together for as long as I can remember, since we were kids, we had always had this invisible string that always brings us back together no matter what happens.

With every that has happened to him you would assume it would wake someone up to reality and realize that, life is short and live it to the fullest extent possible.

Not for Rafe though. He moves backwards.

Rafe always made sure I was close to him, never too far, but I could never be too close. He always pushed me to limits to show my devotion and love for him. I’ve done things that are unthinkable, I’ve found new lows.

Here I am, in my bedroom with a Rafe that is at his limit and has lost all senses of reality, nothing is tangible anymore. You would think “oh no he’ll be okay, he’s grieving, he’s hurting” no you should be thinking “What is he doing next, what’s the new length he’ll go to?”

“You know I would have everything I’ve ever wanted right here. The gold, my dad, my sister and you.” He says to me while pacing back and forth in our shared room, he’s walking with intent and purpose. When he’s like this it was hard to label this as something predictable, if anything I’m fucked.

“Yet, you don’t seem to understand how this is all messing with me Y/n. Do you understand?” He looks at me and waits for an answer but the way he looks at me is as if he has already calculated my response.

“Rafe, I- I couldn’t possibly know exactly how much everything has hurt you, but I try, I prove it to you everyday baby. I try my best but please listen to me and put the gun down.” I was honest, he knew when I lied, he knows me inside and out, has every vein in my body memorized, every breath of air. He knew me.

Right, he has a gun in his hand, minor details you know.

“You think I’m fucking stupid that’s what this is, yeah I can see it in your eyes Y/n, you’re a fucking liar.” His eyes fill up with something I haven’t seen before, it wasn’t anger, it wasn’t disdain, it was fear.

“Listen to me. I’m not lying to you, Rafe you have gone through hell. I couldn’t possibly imagine how it feels to be you, but I know that you need me, and I need you. Baby we can work this out, okay?” My confidence in myself is shrinking and I don’t aim to tell him not to be emotional, but I don’t plan on dying…right?

He moves closer to me, his movements are slow and primal, I was his prey, he was hungry. Lustful almost, but not in a way that would be satisfactory to either of us.

“Close your eyes.” His head slightly tilted, and a sly smirk was making its appearance.

“What?” I had no clue what he was up to but I know it wasn’t ending well.

“I said close your fucking eyes before I blow both of our brains out.”

And that’s when I knew, we were in for a long night.

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BRAINS OUT | RAFE CAMERON | PREVIEW

“imma kiss you on the mouth, then I’ll blow my brains out”

Pairing : Rafe Cameron x fem!reader

Warnings : obx spoilers, misuse of a firearm, self harm, toxic dynamic, abuse, death, erotic themes, power imbalance and mental instability. (lmk if I missed anything)

A/n: Full fic soon, enjoy!

-

Rafe, he isn’t perfect no one is, since his dad died he hasn’t been the same. His dad dying and losing his sister to the pogues was something he would never anticipate to happen, not now not ever.

He met me and we’ve been together for as long as I can remember, since we were kids, we had always had this invisible string that always brings us back together no matter what happens.

With every that has happened to him you would assume it would wake someone up to reality and realize that, life is short and live it to the fullest extent possible.

Not for Rafe though. He moves backwards.

Rafe always made sure I was close to him, never too far, but I could never be too close. He always pushed me to limits to show my devotion and love for him. I’ve done things that are unthinkable, I’ve found new lows.

Here I am, in my bedroom with a Rafe that is at his limit and has lost all senses of reality, nothing is tangible anymore. You would think “oh no he’ll be okay, he’s grieving, he’s hurting” no you should be thinking “What is he doing next, what’s the new length he’ll go to?”

“You know I would have everything I’ve ever wanted right here. The gold, my dad, my sister and you.” He says to me while pacing back and forth in our shared room, he’s walking with intent and purpose. When he’s like this it was hard to label this as something predictable, if anything I’m fucked.

“Yet, you don’t seem to understand how this is all messing with me Y/n. Do you understand?” He looks at me and waits for an answer but the way he looks at me is as if he has already calculated my response.

“Rafe, I- I couldn’t possibly know exactly how much everything has hurt you, but I try, I prove it to you everyday baby. I try my best but please listen to me and put the gun down.” I was honest, he knew when I lied, he knows me inside and out, has every vein in my body memorized, every breath of air. He knew me.

Right, he has a gun in his hand, minor details you know.

“You think I’m fucking stupid that’s what this is, yeah I can see it in your eyes Y/n, you’re a fucking liar.” His eyes fill up with something I haven’t seen before, it wasn’t anger, it wasn’t disdain, it was fear.

“Listen to me. I’m not lying to you, Rafe you have gone through hell. I couldn’t possibly imagine how it feels to be you, but I know that you need me, and I need you. Baby we can work this out, okay?” My confidence in myself is shrinking and I don’t aim to tell him not to be emotional, but I don’t plan on dying…right?

He moves closer to me, his movements are slow and primal, I was his prey, he was hungry. Lustful almost, but not in a way that would be satisfactory to either of us.

“Close your eyes.” His head slightly tilted, and a sly smirk was making its appearance.

“What?” I had no clue what he was up to but I know it wasn’t ending well.

“I said close your fucking eyes before I blow both of our brains out.”

And that’s when I knew, we were in for a long night.

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Blame Part 2 | Chris Sturniolo

“Where were you at when I needed you?”

Genre : angst

Warnings : swearing

a/n: it’s been months but here it is (ps. new fic snippet coming later🙊)

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Chris POV

It’s been hours since Chris has heard from Y/n, he’s panicking. That’s putting it lightly.

He’s dealing with a lot, his girlfriend is ignoring him and he kissed his ex girlfriend, well she kissed him. He’s been telling himself for hours that what happened between him and Lola has nothing to do with him. She came onto him and he was just a victim of his circumstances, he has zero fault in any of this actually.

That’s when he said fuck it and booked an Uber to his girlfriend’s apartment, he couldn’t bare to sit in this regret and guilt, he’ll be able to make things right, she will forgive him and everything will return back to normal right?

“Christopher?” The Uber driver says as he arrives outside their apartment.

“Yeah that’s me” Chris says as he gets into the uber and tries to get as comfortable as his conscience will allow him, all he knows is that he’s fucked.

The drive is long and painful, he is dreading the look on Y/n’s face, he feels himself getting emotional as he thinks about how he just broke almost 3 years of trust, over what? A meaningless kiss?

It was totally meaningless, right, yeah totally pointless, it meant nothing to him, he just keeps finding himself thinking about how Lola looked at him

Flashback

“Chris do you still want to be with me? I can’t tell and I need to know I can’t keep sneaking around to meet you.” Lola says pleading with the boy.

End of flashback

He’s been more than happy with Y/n, Lola meant nothing, she means nothing if he’s lost his everything.

He recognizes the area and anxiety consumes him, he’s usually with Y/n on the way back to her apartment to sit in each others essence for hours on end and in love with each other, but now it’s different

He’s here because, if we are being honest, he cheated, he lied and he was ignorant and selfish.

“Uh, you can stop here thank you.” Chris says to the uber driver stopping outside the apartment building.

Chris is anxious and extremely sad, he’s disappointed in himself and how he even let his relationship with Lola get so personal, yes she was his ex, but that part of him was reserved for the love of his life.

Then it finally hit him like a ton of bricks. Is he still in love with Lola? The way she kissed him felt so natural, a little too natural. He melted into her like they became one, but it’s too shameful of a thought. Chris doesn’t entertain it.

He’s lost in thought but he’s now outside Y/n’s apartment and he hasn’t knocked yet, he hasn’t yet figured out how he’s going to fix all of this. He has to fix it. And he will.

He decides to take his phone out and text her so she knows he’s here

Chris : Baby I’m outside, please open the door.

Chris : I know I’ve been terrible today I just need to see you. Please.

Y/n POV

Y/n has been home for hours, but since she got into her apartment she’s felt hollow. Empty.

She found her way to her couch and crashed, her body was too tired from all the crying and all the screaming she had done to release some of the hurt and pain.

Her phone buzzes and she ignores it. Buzz.

A second notification came in and she decided to get up from her sleep, still gaining her awareness, she takes her phone and reads:

Chris⭐️ : Baby I’m outside, please open the door.

Chris⭐️ : I know I’ve been terrible today I just need to see you. Please.

Her heart dropping to her ass is an understatement, it dropped to the lowest part of hell that not even the devil himself resides in.

She debates herself on what shes opening herself up to, is it worth it? Does it even matter what he has to say? He lied to her and he didn’t have the balls to tell her about what he’s doing, and who he’s doing it with? Did something happen that she doesn’t know of?

Her body goes against everything she’s thinking and she approaches the door and opens it.

She sees the love of her life, he looks exhausted, drained and most of all like he is carrying a load of weight and he’s just waiting to let go of it

What has she gotten herself into by opening the door?

“Baby..” Chris says to Y/n with a sense of guilt and shame in his voice.

He moves towards her, she takes a step back looking at him as if he had the most terrifying entity behind him, but here’s the thing, he’s the terrifying entity.

“We need to talk, and I need you to be honest with me Christopher.” Y/n says as she allows him in and shuts the door closed.

“Listen to me baby I know, I’ve been a dick to you today but I just wanted to make sure you were okay, you sounded…I don’t know, just stressed out on the phone when you called.” he says this to her as if she doesn’t know he met up with Lola behind her back and lied to her face about it

“Yeah, about that, were you with Lola? And I don’t wanna hear shit out your mouth if you finna stand here and lie to my face.” She’s angry, she’s hurt and she feels the most vulnerable she has ever felt in front of him right now.

“I- I need you to hear me out first”

“hear what out Christopher!?” She says yelling to him not allowing him to continue further.

“I know you are mad but I need you to listen to me, please let me explain.”

“Lola wanted to meet up with me, it’s been a while since I last saw her and I figured it was time I saw her, she was such a big part of my life before I met you. She helped me become the man I am today, because of her I am able to be the Boyfriend I am to you today.” He says this not knowing it made shit worse and so much just clicked in Y/n’s head as he said he is the boyfriend he is today because of Lola.

“Do you love her?”

“What?” Chris’s face drops, he has no idea why she would ask that as he just explained the platonic nature of his relationship with Lola.

“Do you love the bitch or not Christopher, I am asking you a question. Either you answer it honestly or you get the fuck out of my face.”

As she says this she has tears running down her face, the anger on her face is very apparent to the man infront of her.

“I- no, Y/n? What? I love you and only you, I don’t need Lola, I need you, I need you alone.” The desperation in his voice was gutting Y/n, she wanted to hold him and tell him it’s okay she’s not mad at him, but in reality she couldn’t stand to even breathe the same air as him.

As Y/n is looking at Chris, she notices a smudge of make up on his upper lip, she became hot, angry, furious, whatever words could explain the absolute wrath that was filling her up

“You’re a fucking liar and you are full of shit, what the fuck is that on face? Did you fuck her? Why the fuck do you have make up on your face Christopher!!!” She says yelling and she stood in his face and she got louder and louder as each word slipped out her mouth.

Chris knew he was fucked before but now it’s worse. He had no idea he had traces of Lola on him, hell, he would have hoped his dumbass brothers told him.

“Baby it’s not what you think”

“Fuck do you mean it’s not what I think?? So you did fuck her? WHAT. HAPPENED.”

“No, NO! That didn’t happen she came onto me, she was trying to get me to admit that I want her, Y/n I need you to understand that I don’t want her. I want you baby, you’re my world. She doesn’t amount to you. She never could and never will, please don’t do this” he was asking a lot from her, hoping she would understand despite her looking like she was seconds away from biting his head off.

“Get the fuck out of my apartment.”

“Baby please don’t do this.”

“Are you hard of hearing? I said get the fuck out of my apartment.”

And in that moment he knew, he was to blame.

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A/n: well that had a good ending…sooooo do we end it here or part 3? Lmkkkkkkkkk🙈

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Blame Part 2 | Chris Sturniolo

“Where were you at when I needed you?”

Genre : angst

Warnings : swearing

a/n: it’s been months but here it is (ps. new fic snippet coming later🙊)

· · ────── ꒰ঌ·✦·໒꒱ ────── · ·

Chris POV

It’s been hours since Chris has heard from Y/n, he’s panicking. That’s putting it lightly.

He’s dealing with a lot, his girlfriend is ignoring him and he kissed his ex girlfriend, well she kissed him. He’s been telling himself for hours that what happened between him and Lola has nothing to do with him. She came onto him and he was just a victim of his circumstances, he has zero fault in any of this actually.

That’s when he said fuck it and booked an Uber to his girlfriend’s apartment, he couldn’t bare to sit in this regret and guilt, he’ll be able to make things right, she will forgive him and everything will return back to normal right?

“Christopher?” The Uber driver says as he arrives outside their apartment.

“Yeah that’s me” Chris says as he gets into the uber and tries to get as comfortable as his conscience will allow him, all he knows is that he’s fucked.

The drive is long and painful, he is dreading the look on Y/n’s face, he feels himself getting emotional as he thinks about how he just broke almost 3 years of trust, over what? A meaningless kiss?

It was totally meaningless, right, yeah totally pointless, it meant nothing to him, he just keeps finding himself thinking about how Lola looked at him

Flashback

“Chris do you still want to be with me? I can’t tell and I need to know I can’t keep sneaking around to meet you.” Lola says pleading with the boy.

End of flashback

He’s been more than happy with Y/n, Lola meant nothing, she means nothing if he’s lost his everything.

He recognizes the area and anxiety consumes him, he’s usually with Y/n on the way back to her apartment to sit in each others essence for hours on end and in love with each other, but now it’s different

He’s here because, if we are being honest, he cheated, he lied and he was ignorant and selfish.

“Uh, you can stop here thank you.” Chris says to the uber driver stopping outside the apartment building.

Chris is anxious and extremely sad, he’s disappointed in himself and how he even let his relationship with Lola get so personal, yes she was his ex, but that part of him was reserved for the love of his life.

Then it finally hit him like a ton of bricks. Is he still in love with Lola? The way she kissed him felt so natural, a little too natural. He melted into her like they became one, but it’s too shameful of a thought. Chris doesn’t entertain it.

He’s lost in thought but he’s now outside Y/n’s apartment and he hasn’t knocked yet, he hasn’t yet figured out how he’s going to fix all of this. He has to fix it. And he will.

He decides to take his phone out and text her so she knows he’s here

Chris : Baby I’m outside, please open the door.

Chris : I know I’ve been terrible today I just need to see you. Please.

Y/n POV

Y/n has been home for hours, but since she got into her apartment she’s felt hollow. Empty.

She found her way to her couch and crashed, her body was too tired from all the crying and all the screaming she had done to release some of the hurt and pain.

Her phone buzzes and she ignores it. Buzz.

A second notification came in and she decided to get up from her sleep, still gaining her awareness, she takes her phone and reads:

Chris⭐️ : Baby I’m outside, please open the door.

Chris⭐️ : I know I’ve been terrible today I just need to see you. Please.

Her heart dropping to her ass is an understatement, it dropped to the lowest part of hell that not even the devil himself resides in.

She debates herself on what shes opening herself up to, is it worth it? Does it even matter what he has to say? He lied to her and he didn’t have the balls to tell her about what he’s doing, and who he’s doing it with? Did something happen that she doesn’t know of?

Her body goes against everything she’s thinking and she approaches the door and opens it.

She sees the love of her life, he looks exhausted, drained and most of all like he is carrying a load of weight and he’s just waiting to let go of it

What has she gotten herself into by opening the door?

“Baby..” Chris says to Y/n with a sense of guilt and shame in his voice.

He moves towards her, she takes a step back looking at him as if he had the most terrifying entity behind him, but here’s the thing, he’s the terrifying entity.

“We need to talk, and I need you to be honest with me Christopher.” Y/n says as she allows him in and shuts the door closed.

“Listen to me baby I know, I’ve been a dick to you today but I just wanted to make sure you were okay, you sounded…I don’t know, just stressed out on the phone when you called.” he says this to her as if she doesn’t know he met up with Lola behind her back and lied to her face about it

“Yeah, about that, were you with Lola? And I don’t wanna hear shit out your mouth if you finna stand here and lie to my face.” She’s angry, she’s hurt and she feels the most vulnerable she has ever felt in front of him right now.

“I- I need you to hear me out first”

“hear what out Christopher!?” She says yelling to him not allowing him to continue further.

“I know you are mad but I need you to listen to me, please let me explain.”

“Lola wanted to meet up with me, it’s been a while since I last saw her and I figured it was time I saw her, she was such a big part of my life before I met you. She helped me become the man I am today, because of her I am able to be the Boyfriend I am to you today.” He says this not knowing it made shit worse and so much just clicked in Y/n’s head as he said he is the boyfriend he is today because of Lola.

“Do you love her?”

“What?” Chris’s face drops, he has no idea why she would ask that as he just explained the platonic nature of his relationship with Lola.

“Do you love the bitch or not Christopher, I am asking you a question. Either you answer it honestly or you get the fuck out of my face.”

As she says this she has tears running down her face, the anger on her face is very apparent to the man infront of her.

“I- no, Y/n? What? I love you and only you, I don’t need Lola, I need you, I need you alone.” The desperation in his voice was gutting Y/n, she wanted to hold him and tell him it’s okay she’s not mad at him, but in reality she couldn’t stand to even breathe the same air as him.

As Y/n is looking at Chris, she notices a smudge of make up on his upper lip, she became hot, angry, furious, whatever words could explain the absolute wrath that was filling her up

“You’re a fucking liar and you are full of shit, what the fuck is that on your face? Did you fuck her? Why the fuck do you have make up on your face Christopher!!!” She says yelling and she stood in his face and she got louder and louder as each word slipped out her mouth.

Chris knew he was fucked before but now it’s worse. He had no idea he had traces of Lola on him, hell, he would have hoped his dumbass brothers told him.

“Baby it’s not what you think”

“Fuck do you mean it’s not what I think?? So you did fuck her? WHAT. HAPPENED.”

“No, NO! That didn’t happen she came onto me, she was trying to get me to admit that I want her, Y/n I need you to understand that I don’t want her. I want you baby, you’re my world. She doesn’t amount to you. She never could and never will, please don’t do this” he was asking a lot from her, hoping she would understand despite her looking like she was seconds away from biting his head off.

“Get the fuck out of my apartment.”

“Baby please don’t do this.”

“Are you hard of hearing? I said get the fuck out of my apartment.”

And in that moment he knew, he was to blame.

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A/n: well that had a good ending…sooooo do we end it here or part 3? Lmkkkkkkkkk🙈

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I NEED PART 2 NOW PLS I HOPE CHRIS REGRETS SO BAD THEN RELIZE THAT Y/N IS THE LOVE OF HIS LIFE BUT Y/N DOESNT WANT ANYTHING TO DO WITH HIM ANYMORE SO CHRIS IS DOING EVERYTHING TO PROVE TO SHE THAT SHE IS ONLY ONE🥹🥹🥹

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Blame | Chris Sturniolo.

“I feel stripped of my skin and alone.”

a/n: alrightie cuties enjoy!

“Chris you are seriously starting to piss me off can you MOVE.” Nick says to his brother as he stands in his way from getting into their shared apartment.

"Kid, you can walk around me you know that right?" Chris says in an annoyed tone.

Nick rolls his eyes and pushes past him "fucking imbecile, I swear" Nick said mumbling under his breath.

Chris was standing in the door way mainly because he was trying to get a hold of his girlfriend who doesn't seem to be answering the phone. Recently she's been distant and he has been assuming the worst either she is cheating on him or she's hiding something that she might be enduring without his knowledge.

Chris ⭐️ : y/n can you please just respond to say you are okay

Chris⭐️: y/n I don't know what's been going on with you recently, and I'm not fucking akinator this shit is getting annoying.

Read at 9:59pm

Chris is still getting no response from y/n, she's clearly reading his messages which now indicates that she's ignoring him.

"Dude are you gonna stand there there the whole night?" Matt says to him coming down the stairs.

Chris goes ahead and ignores what his brother just said to him, in that moment it sounded like nothing but gibberish as he is still staring at his phone.

"Before Christmas Christopher." Matthew says to him awaiting a response.

Chris sighs and puts his phone in his pocket and walks into their apartment. He shoots straight to his room and shuts the door behind him.

Next morning

Y/n pov

I can see my boyfriend texting me and I know he's gotten irritated with me, but right now he is the last person to be irritated.

Me and Chris have been together for almost 3 years now, he is really amazing and been amazing all these years.

What has changed you may ask? Well all these years he has been amazing but like everyone else their boyfriend may do something they dislike but don't have the heart to say anything. For me it's him and his never ending friendship as he'd like to say with his

I can see my boyfriend texting me and I know he's gotten irritated with me, but right now he is the last person to be irritated.

Me and Chris have been together for almost 3 years now, he is really amazing and been amazing all these years.

What has changed you may ask? Well all these years he has been amazing but like everyone else their boyfriend may do something they dislike but don't have the heart to say anything. For me it's him and his never ending friendship as he'd like to say with his ex-girlfriend

Earlier yesterday

"She really is incredible, but y/n hates the mention of her, l've noticed anytime I mention Lola around her she tends to get quiet and isn't present in the conversation anymore" Chris says venting to his friend Larry.

"Chris imma have to be honest with you, it is lowkey weird that you're so close to Lola while dating y/n, I don't know the boundaries surrounding your relationship, but usually girls don't want their man parading around with their ex-girlfriend."

"But listen she's more of a friend to me, dating her was like something I did because I felt alone, and needed the reassurance of a partner, but Lola and I grew into friends more than a couple, hence we broke up" Chris knows what he's saying is true in his mind but in his heart he loves Lola still, but refuses to come to terms with it.

"I don't know chrissypoo, you're gonna have to figure that one out with her." Larry says knowing this conversation will be far from productive if anything it was moving in retrograde.

“But Larry nothing is going on with me and Lola so I don’t understand y/n’s avoidance with her.” Chris tries to sound convincing but deep down he know he is spewing utter bullshit.

Chris’s phone stars to ring and he sees it is his girlfriend, he answers the phone as if he is trying to cover up something.

Larry gives him a look of “why do you sound guilty” but they let that moment die silently

“Hey baby!” Chris says

“Oh hey babe…why do you sound like that” y/n says chuckling lightly, but laced with concern and curiosity.

“Oh no it’s nothing I’m just kickin it with Larry, uh do you wanna come over maybe? I miss you.”

“I mean sure I just left the nail salon, but you won’t believe who I bumped into”

“Huh? Who? Was it Aaliyah?” He says mentioning one of their best friends

“No unfortunately, but it was your girlfriend Lola.” Y/n says sarcastically and laughing, hoping Chris would return the same reaction.

“WHAT? Lola is NOT my girlfriend, you are baby why would you say that.” Chris says shocked, mainly because Lola was the person they were talking about not too long ago and the conversation being about y/n’s feelings toward Lola.

“Chris are you okay genuinely what the fuck are you on about” y/n says slightly taken aback by his erratic response.

“Baby I have no idea what you’re talking about, actually let’s talk more when you get home alright?” Chris says quickly, now he knows he is being weird but is trying his very best to play it cool, newsflash it’s not working in his favor.

“Oh uh okay…” y/n says before ending the call not even exchanging goodbye’s and I love you’s like they usually do.

Y/n always had suspicions that she might be Chris’s rebound for Lola but they have been together for too long for that to even make sense in any kind of way. But again y/n is anxious by nature, she overthinks everything. Well tonight she decided that she was gonna go through his phone, she’s hoping and praying to find absolutely nothing to suggest that he’s doing something he shouldn’t.

She gets to the triplets apartment and they all exchanged greetings and ate their brunch together, Larry left a bit earlier so y/n was bummed she couldn’t see him but she continued with her early afternoon with her boyfriend. Chris went with his brothers to film their Wednesday vlog.

Y/n got bored and decided to go to Chris’s room and stay there for a bit, she decided to also watch some Netflix on Chris’s MacBook. She’s done with the episode of her favorite show and as she is about to close the laptop she sees a new IMessage notification from Lola.

Lolaaa👩🏽‍❤️‍👨🏻 : I’m almost there!

Chris : alright hurry tho😭

Chris: oh also we can’t hang for too long, told y/n I’m out filming with Matt and Nick

Lolaaa👩🏽‍❤️‍👨🏻 : lying to your girlfriend to meet me🤭 should I be honored?

Chris : should be she would flip if she knew what was happening

Lolaaa👩🏽‍❤️‍👨🏻 : where are Matt and Nick if she thinks you’re with them?

Chris : oh yeah they are in the area, thrifting lol

Lolaaa👩🏽‍❤️‍👨🏻 : ohh okay, also parking rn so see you soon 💋

Chris : ight

Y/n wasn’t crazy, she couldn’t believe what she just read. Everything Chris has ever promised to her has become a lie,

“we never hang out without you around.”

“She’s not even that important to me anymore.”

“I’m glad the friendship is drifting, gives me a chance to focus on us.”

everything he has ever said to her about Lola starts to ring in her head like a bell going haywire. Her vision gets blurry and she couldn’t hold it in, she broke down, she felt like her trust with him is broken and things were going wrong. She doesn’t think straight and decides to call him.

She starts calling him as her tears stream down her face as she sniffles.

“Chris?”

“Hey uhhh I’ll call you back alright? I’m just in the middle of something I promise I’ll call you back”

“Oh okay” before she could finish her sentence he hung up.

Her heart shattered, she was picturing the worst, Was he cheating? Was he out doing things couples would do with her? How many times has she been lied to regarding Lola? All these questions were in her head and she didn’t know how to cope and feel in that moment.

She broke down even more in Chris’s bed and in his hoodie that she wears all the time. She feels her chest closing and her head spinning.

minutes pass and y/n is on the edge of the bed facing the floor and she has never felt more alone in that moment. Chris knew y/n wasn’t social, she didn’t have many friends, if not all her friends were his friends so we’re they actually ever y/‘s friends? She wouldn’t think so.

She gets her car keys and she leaves his apartment.

The drive home felt almost like an out of body experience. She felt like her whole world just ended, she never had trust issues with him till recently, he would mention her more than he should. she didn’t realize it but she was becoming distant in her realization and overthinking when it came down to Lola.

Chris pov

“I missed you a lot y’know” Lola says to Chris with eyes that show yearning and slight sorrow.

“I missed you too, life has been weird without seeing you as much, but I’ve adjusted I guess.” Chris says genuinely, he meant every word, in all seriousness he didn’t know if he still liked the thought of himself with Lola.

“I mean, you’re in a relationship and it made me back off, I didn’t want to but it was out of respect.”

“You shouldn’t have done that, I need you too Lola.” Chris realizes he said the last part of his sentence out loud, if anyone was there they would say that was the worst freudian slip ever.

“You need me? Since when? y/n was all you ever talked about day in and day out.” Lola says looking up at her best friend.

“I mean you’re my friend right? Friends need each other.” Chris says trying to save himself.

“Chris do you still want to be with me? I can’t tell and I need to know I can’t keep sneaking around to meet you.” Lola says pleading with the boy.

Chris has major whiplash in that moment and looks at here with shock, as if she almost read his mind.

“I- no, I’m with y/n, we broke up for a reas-“ Chris gets interrupted by Lola’s lips and he cannot stop it, his lips melted into hers and they shared a moment that only they will be able to describe.

Lola pulls away first from the kiss and is the first to speak.

“You can’t keep lying to yourself Chris, the way you just kissed me contradicts everything you just said does it not?” Lola says looking at him knowing she’s right

“Lola what the fuck was that? You can’t fucking do that I have a girlfriend, I don’t fucking want you!” Chris says yelling out of guilt

“Tell me you don’t want me, say it.” Lola says

“Lola-“

“IF YOU DON’T WANT ME FUCKING SAY IT CHRISTOPHER”

“I CAN’T SAY IT OKAY? I CANT!” Chris yelling at Lola, her eyes enlarged and his eyes were filled with tears and he was filled with guilt and distress.

“I can’t fucking do this Lola.” Chris says as he walks away from Lola leaving her in the middle of the empty parking lot.

Chris calls Matt to tell him to come get him, which he does, Chris enters the car without a word to either of his brothers.

“You okay kid?” Matt says concerned

“Yeah I’m fine, fuck I need to text y/n.”

Chris calls and texts to no response, they arrive at home and still nothing from his girlfriend.

They arrive at their apartment, see y/n’s car isn’t there, sends Chris into a panic.

Chris ⭐️ : y/n can you please just respond to say you are okay

Chris⭐️ : y/n I don't know what's been going on with you recently, and I'm not fucking akinator this shit is getting annoying.

Chris feels nothing but guilt and anger in his body, and he has no idea how to deal with it. His night is filled with crying and silent suffering

He in this moment only has himself to blame.

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A/n: well! That went well didn’t it 😟 #prayfory/n free you my heart 😭🙏🏽 lmk if y’all want pt.2